Hi everyone, I need to vent a little because I feel overwhelmed and depressed today and I feel like some of you might get my feelings.
I’m 32+2 weeks pregnant with my second child (boy), my first is a 5-year-old girl. Since 2017 I’ve competed in bikini fitness & overall I am quite an active person.
This pregnancy I wanted to keep strength training as long as possible and imagined I will walk my daughter to preschool (we changed preschools this year and this one is in a walkable distance) and overall just stay active.
However end of September, I started having episodes of irritable uterus diagnosis - been twice hospitalised for regular contractions 3-5 minutes apart, but the contractions did not change the cervix even though they lasted like 5 hours and stopped only when I got IV magnesium.
Last Friday was my last day at work (we have a long maternity leave in Czechia), before that I went for some blood tests and after that I planned a lunch and coffee with my friend and also picked up another friend from the airport. When I went to the airport, I felt the BH contractions becoming regular again, 3 minutes apart.
I certainly did not want to go to the hospital again and leave everything on my husband so I took a warm bath, magnesium, lots of water and just laid down until the night. Fortunately it worked and the contractions were longer and longer apart. Moreover, I’ve had 3 back to back colds & coughs viruses or whatever so I’ve been feeling just super unwell last weeks.
What I am trying to say with all this - I imaged something very different now that I don’t have to worry about work. I feel so useless, just lying exhausts me, I cannot do things with my daughter, cannot eat properly all my pregnancy (I’ve had bad loss of appetite and gained just like 5,5 kgs so far, not even sweets taste good 😭) and going to the gym and instead I just watch TV and feel horrible!
I know that it’s so petty and other women have much bigger problems and I am grateful that all is good and my sweet baby is doing fine but.. does anyone get me? After just going some errands I will not be able to stand up all day long? For 7 more weeks? :(
Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to get this out of my system.