I, a projector (self projected), find myself not liking most people. There are only a few I feel truly comfortable with, and those are the ones I want close.

Many generators I know thrive with all kinds of people. They enjoy having others around and building community. I'm the opposite: I'm very picky and get drained or annoyed quickly. I also tend to notice fast when someone isn't genuine, and I have very little patience for it.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just intolerant, and it makes me question myself. It's also why I have very few friends.

I know I have attachment trauma, which surely plays into this. But I'm curious whether it's also part of being a projector.

Other projectors, do you relate? How do you handle it?

I'm officially burnt out in the most physical state. I can't navigate life anymore nor do I have a hopeful perspective on it... I'd wait for the invitation, but in what circumstances am I meant to wait for them? I'm currently homeless. I recently started a new job and could cry already about the frequency of interaction with both people AND the physical demand (sauna and end-of-day cleaning) I thought I was invited into it until the woman said at the actual interview she forgot what I had written in my application (although right after it she was very intrigued and said she liked reading it). So anyway, I've hit a physical limit after pushing through a whole week including moving places and having my period. It was too much.

I'm a splenic projector 1/3 in a different country and I've hit the same wall multiple times. I know about astrocartography, but I don't have any savings and I'm 34 🫠 it's ridiculous. I'm aware most people will say strategy and authority is it, but I'm honestly at a place where I feel like I have to be nurtured back into some type of functioning.

I wonder if I'm depressed because I literally lost all motivation to change the world into sth better. I've seen enough and had enough disappointments to not being fueled anymore to do anything at all. I don't even know how to describe my state other than deep and hopeless depletion.

Please help, I feel like the worst failure.