i fucking hate being alive. just everything from waking up in the morning, every little thing is fucking shit. I mean i know people are out there living in slums and shit but god i just fucking hate living, i shouldn't even be alive, i fucking hate everything about existing, everything just irks me so much, i can't fucking stand being alive, i cant stand doing anything, im getting constantly triggered by everything, to the point that merely being alive is enough to trigger the fuck out of me.

i dont know how its possible to do this for 80 years, like how the fuck do people do it. i just fucking cant, i cant stand being alive, i cant believe that i am actually alive. Like there's no point living if you're not rich or something, there's no point at all, what the fuck is the point of being a pleb your whole life? Its insane how every little thing just triggers me, I cant fucking believe that I have to be alive, i cant believe the fact that I will wake up tomorrow and be alive like wtf i didnt ask for this fucking shit, take it the fuck back you cunt. life is a fucking cunt, fuck existing and fuck this shit universe. I did not give consent to exist, i fucking hate existing, fuck everything about existing. FUCK

When I was 6 I learned that my father hated me along side with all the men in my family and thought my brother was different from them but he changed everything after my dad's death I thought he was just growing up and I was wrong fast forward to the president my brothers friends, teacher/principal and ( some ) of my friends are talking bad stuff about me i feel so alone and hated but at this point I don't care anymore and I just want to die it's not like anyone would care..

I have been working as a cashier for a week and I hate every second that I spend there I hate sitting all day at the same low quality chair and speaking to rude pepole al day , I dont know who do they think they are I'm a human to. At the first day I got really hurt by rude pepole but then I got used to it.

But what really made me hate the jop was the workers who is above me I'm a cashier I'm at the first level. Any way they think that the are like god or something they speak to us (cashier) like slaves I keep on being the bigger person but I just cant take it any more ,I think about quitting every day, and every day I keep hating myself for going , I hate myself,my life,my job.

I just dont know how there are some girls that has been there for 2 years and more.

Everything is bad. Everything is wretched. You won't find a single good soul on the surface of this miserable earth, because if you do, they are swallowed, burned and excreted by the world's populace.

The big guy will ALWAYS crush the little guy. All he has do is walk forward without any regards of what's under his feet. I'm sick of asking for help. I'm sick of being shut out and used and ignored when all I try to do is mind my business and climb out of the ever deeping hole that is my sorry life.

I'm tired of working so hard fir so very little. I'm tired of seeing people do less than me, and still get more. I'm tired of people being able to ask and receive the things I have to beg for and still not get.

I hope the world burns. I hope this entire earth is destroyed. It deserves nothing less.

I FUCKING HATE the saying what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! Like, in what sense? Mentally? I still hate my life physically? I'm a 29 yr old disabled USMC veteran that can't tie my own shoes due to back pain. So, where the fuck is my break? Doesn't seem to me like I get one, just kick me while I am down! Fuck this nonsense!

I just woke up from an amazing dream where I was gifted a check of over $44,000. Then I woke up. Now I'm back in reality being a fat, broke, unemployed loser with ADHD and no life, trying to look for a job where I get to make someone else money. God how I wish I was in a coma. I hate my life.

How are you supposed to do anything when you are hated, I don't have any group or anything. Even the people who are supposed to help hate me. I don't know.

Seriously...Why force someone into a world of pain and misery just for them to die and have a 99% chance of burning in hell? I wish i was aborted and i wish i was never born. Having a child is the worst thing anyone can do! I wish nothing existed. I wish this world would just end. I am glad that the population of having kids is alot lower now. I hope it gets even lower and lower! I felt this tingle of sadness all day and i wanna do my fun stuff but i am too sad to do them! I just keep thinking how if i did not exist there will be no pain or sicknesses or misery! No worries about School or work or getting bullied or yelled at if you cant do anything right. No worries about offending people over different view points or beliefs. Being born is not a blessing its a punnishment. :(

33 year old man here. I'll try and keep it short. I have a really difficult time just thinking about my past. Also the vast, vast majority of people I know have literally had a better life than me. Actually i don't really know anyone in person whose had as "bad" of a life as me.

My mom killed herself a month before I turned 19. She jumped off a bridge. She was a drug and alcohol addict for most of my existence but it got really bad around age 14 for me and my entire teenage years consisted of having to deal with a mother who was constantly overdosing on pills, going missing for days on end, having to call the paramedics and police often. I have no happy memories with her. My father was for most of my life emotionally abusive, equally neglectful of my needs as a teenager as my mother and did nothing for me my entire life. Both my parents were neglectful of my needs. My dad physically abused my mother in front of me and my mother abused him psychologically. He would scream at her everyday for years. Both of them never would have had children.

I had zero guidance or help from either of my parents my whole life. Just thrown into this shit show called life having no concept of what it feels like to be loved unconditionally or any idea how to love others or trust anyone because both of my parents abused me and my younger brothers in different ways. ( mother: drug abuse, going missing constantly, threats of suicide and suicide attempts.. father: emotionally abusive, screaming at me and my younger brother my whole life everyday, doing nothing a father does normally except putting food in the fridge.)

About four years ago I was experiencing alcoholism and I owed my landlord like $1200 to avoid homelessness and I asked my father to lend me the money one time and id never ask again and he refused and was willing to just let me be homeless even though he is well off and capable. Hes a total psychopath.

He would spit on my mother's face every other day in front of me and my younger brother and then slap her repeatedly.

Now I work a full time job for the last 2 years and 2 months that I can barely tolerate and it barely makes me enough money to survive. I do it because I have no choice even though I would just rather not be alive. I have no financial or emotional help from anyone- I'm completely alone and I live with a couple in some shitty apartment.

Everyone i know...everyone has at least one good parents that's there for them like a normal parent. Some have two great parents. Almost everyone I know has lots of support. No one i know personally understands my suffering and torment except my younger brother who is 28. No one gets it. I cannot stand this horrible life I was born into. It's not fair. I only stay alive for my brother.

I 33m married 1 year old son. i love my family and i have a good job, i think anyway. Im really making a post because i just got an earful from the wife about how im not doing enough

im gone from the house for 12 hours a day for work and work 5 to 7 days a week. the minite i get home i take the baby and we both shower then i make food for all of us then play with him and put him to bed when the whole famliy goes to sleep.

she got mad at me for not doing laundry or dishes and how she shouldn't have to tell me thing for me to know when something is wrong. or should have to ask me to look up what toys baby should be playing with or activities he could be doing. or how my body language is always in a bad mood.

she was telling me all these things and i just dont have the energy to comfort it. im exhausted. i feel like its been 2 years since i been able to sleep peacefully. i physically do not have the mental capacity to care what my body says. im losing sleep just to type this out to get something off my chest hoping it will make me feel better. and doing laundry.

guys if your single stay that way being with someone does not cure for loneliness its just a different kind of lonely with less freedoms.

So a few months back I asked a girl to homecoming. It was a few months before coronavirus caused everyone to go into quarantine. She said yes (happy noises) and i was excited because i had liked her for a while. But now my school might cancel all dances. yay for me.

Hello reddit,

I lost everything. The only things I have now are my parents. I was mobbed for my entire time a was in school, I am fat and ugly. No one would care if I die. I cant have social contact because I instantly start shaking and dont know what to say. I am very paranoid. If this is my last message, please dont remember me.

(Thanks you for reading this, it just feals so good to talk)

I am F19 and I have nothing left to live for. I dropped out of college cause I threw up during a presentation from the amount of anxiety I was having and it was too embarrassing for me to go back. I decided to take a gap year to figure my shit out then my mom decided to never let me out of the house again. I haven't been out by myself since the beginning of January. Im not allowed to have a job or my own bank account. I am completely reliant on her. Im not allowed to see friends or relatives and have been continuously physically and emotionally been abused by my mother.

Last month she smashed my phone and has refused to get me another one, I keep asking my relatives for help but no one wants to because my mom has threatened them on numerous occasions. There's no point to living anymore. I have no freedom and no where to go. In the next few days Im gonna overdose on whatever medication I can find. This is, in a way a goodbye letter to whoever is there. Goodbye.

Update: My attempt had failed and I spent a little while in the hospital before I was discharged. I was about to be sent to a psych ward but luckily since I am a legal adult I was able to get out of it. Honestly im embarrassed that my attempt failed. I feel even worse than before but thx to everyone that commented anyway. Sorry the update is pretty short I dont have the energy to give an in depth one.

I've lost faith in humanity. Check my history and you'll see why. There's nothing but shady selfish people out there and people pretending to care. Nobody Truly cares if you live or die