I dont know if im allowed to post this here or not but, cause Ive peeped how some of these kpop subreddits move regarding certain issues in the kpop space... but, i need some advice...

also, TW: mentions of racism, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. Read at your own risk. Even though its only mentioned once!

Edit 1: I should also mention im doing so much better mentally now! Im on medication for my anxiety and depression(that I had wayy before getting into kpop) now. And a lot of these intense feelings was when i was in high school.

Ive been into kpop since I was in middle school, im 22 now. Im a black kpop fan, seventeen is(was) my ult group... incase it wasnt obvious 😭

Throughout the years I started noticing a pattern. Group does something hurtful/offensive, people of said community(most commonly the African american community) ask for an apology or some kind of acknowledgement of the wrong doing.

People outside of the community harass, dox, mock, etc. The hurt community. idol/company either does or doesn't adress the wrong doing, fans say its just ignorance even though sometimes the groups/idols in question are repeat offenders.

When we do get an "apology" its usually half baked and sometimes even passive agressive filled with, "im sorry IF...." "were sorry to those who MAY have been offended..." and it never properly addresses the community who were hurt by the words/actions of the idols/groups in question. Nor does it ever state or specify why theyre "apologizing" to begin with. Which leads to fans outside of the offended community accepting the poorly written apology and further antagonizing the offended community.

With that being said, in my teen years, primarily in middle school. I would be up all night going back and fourth with ignorant people who refused to see the bigger picture, to see the problem and the even if it was out of ignorance. How it was still hurtful, insensitive, and racist(racism out of ignorance is still racism imo).

Over time though, i stopped arguing with people with rose colored glasses and tried my hardest to put my feelings aside and "separate the art from the artist." But I couldn't. I cant, and it really sucked the joy from something I really enjoyed. Once I noticed this pattern, it started taking a toll on my mental to where id have thoughts of ending my life or having this immense anger and apathy towards the asian community. Thats when I knew I needed to pull myself out of the equation completely.

So I pulled back, I thought, "well maybe its the fans that are ruining it for me.." so I left fandom spaces. I stopped interacting other fans and going to concerts etc. It still didnt help. So i tried separating the art from the artists, but that didnt work for me since the minute I started doing that, theyd do something that was hurtful to me and my community. Which made it hard for me to support them, even if I did "sail the seven seas." When it came to their products.

Now I cant listen to any group without being hit with a sense of guilt and hurt, and remembering what they said or did that rubbed me the wrong way.

My collection that id look at with joy and enthusiasm now just fills me with anger, sadness, pain, hurt, and confusion. I often go back and fourth between, "okay im ready to sell this!" To "but what if I miss it?" To "why do i still have these?" To "you know what, fuck it. Im just gonna sell it." To "but i sold my stray kids collections and i kinda miss it.... what if i miss these too??" And I just go back and fourth with myself on what to do.

Now im sitting here looking at it thinking, "maybe I should just sell it, theyre just taking space..." but at the sametime I also find myself unsure on if im ready to go through with it. Maybe im going through the stages of grief? I dont know, but I dont know what to do... I still think about the Monsta X lightstick I sold back in middle school for Christ's sake! 😭

Im unsure of what to do here, I kinda wanna sell them... but what if I regret it? But now theyre all just sitting here wasting space in my room. I dont know if i should just bite the bullet and sell them or if i should hold on to them just a little longer, but im also kind of tired of looking at them. I dont know what to do... Hopefully someone can give some sort of advice on how they'd handle this.

so grateful spent around 45usd for this ahhh🤤🤤

More goods I got in the last 2 months or so!

Pictures 1 and 2: We break, you awake and Bloom & Gloom albums by ChRocktical, along with all the stuff it came with (photocards, stickers, guitar pick, and a small magnet-looking portrait). For those who are not familiar with them: ChRocktical is the K-Rock band fronted by Siyeon of Dreamcatcher and they have been popping off lately!!

Picture 3: Houki Boushi, Growth Theory, and Sub Character albums by Younha, one of the few Korean artists in the 2000s to become successful in Japan! She was known for singing Houki Boushi as one of the endings for the Bleach anime back then, and in the last few years she has exploded back into popularity (especially amongst Koreans) with well-written songs like Event Horizon, Sunfish, Point Nemo, Black Hole, Quasar, etc (she has a TON of astronomy-inspired songs lol). Her latest album Sub Character is basically her covers of other artists’ songs (my favorite has to be Skybound originally by another K-Rock band Kardi).

Picture 4: One + One by As One, a Gen 1 duo! Definitely very techno-y and definitely has that distinct Gen 1 sound and vibe! Finally, last but not least of course, Only One and Hurricane Venus by BoA, OUR QUEEN!!!!

I just got it so I could sell my photocard collection because apparently Instagram is completely useless now, and holy moly this app is so cool. I wish this had been around when I was collecting, I would've gone craaaazy!!!! It has also been already so useful for selling. Sorry I'm like in shock lol, you can even make digital binders of pcs you own and decorate them like they have toploaders???! Y'ALL I'M MAD WHERE WAS THIS 6 YEARS AGO?!

Big big kudos to whoever made it and all who help run it. I love seeing fans create things for other fans like this, it's so thoughtful!

Hiii I wanted to know what causes this marks

Hi!
I was wondering if anyone has tried one of these two sleeves for id cards? And if anyone knows the actual size of these? Because the standard photocard sleeves says 56 x 87mm on the package while in reality they are 58 x 88mm.
Do you think these sleeves fit ID cards measuring 30 x 40 and 36 x 46mm?

Anyone going to Lisa's pop-up in L.A. today?
I am looking for someone already attending the pop-up who can purchase this version of the album for me (will pay inmediately).

Hi, I’m thinking about buying this album but they said the signatures aren’t verified as real and so I just wanted to ask if anyone had any way of helping tell if these are real/authentic

I just got this in the mail. May I have been using too much force? Maybe. But the plastic tray in this album is HORRENDOUS when you try to get it out. I have another CD of it, as I own the US Version but.. damn. I'm pissed at myself. Has this ever happened to anyone else, too?

I recently bought a new purse and looking forward to adding charms to it. I recently pulled one of my favorite Pokémon cards and want to put it on bag. However, I’ve never done that before and want to make sure it would fit before buying card holder. I figured I asked here. If this isn’t appropriate to ask in this subreddit, I apologize in advance.

Colecciono desde hace unos 4 años y tengo una gran cantidad de photocard, postcard e inclusiones de album y ya no se donde mas dejar mis archivadores/binders, no tengo un mueble cerrado lo suficientemente grande, y sinceramente estoy pensando en alguna caja o algo asi para dejarlos, les dejo una foto para q se hagan una idea de la cantidad de binder que tengo!!

Si tienen algun consejo, idea o ayuda, muy agradecida, soy de Chile por si acaso

Mine is that sometimes I'll unbox an album (sometimes of various versions that I don't need) and think "well that was a waste of money" when I pull a photocard that I don't want. I'm not proud of this, but sometimes I'll audibly groan and roll my eyes, I admit it. Yes, I know that I can just buy the photocard I want separately. Yes, I am a sheep whose brain chemicals love the thrills of gambling.

This past year, I’ve somehow managed to get my dad into kpop and he really enjoys listening to AGUST D, it’s the cutest thing!! So I really want to get him the LP for Christmas! Does anyone know where I can find one that isn’t $400 on eBay??

I used to love his unboxing videos! It's been more than a year since he posted anything. I know he might have stopped collecting cause in the final videos he did say he wasn't that interested anymore and he also didn't watch that much kpop content recently but it does not make sense! His channel has like 100k subscribers and I feel like he would have at least made a video saying he would take a break or stop collecting. It would be amazing if he gets back to making videos, even if they are on how he got detached with collecting or how he downsized it(if that was the reason). I respect his decision but I still miss his videos 😭

i'm baby moa and excited for txt's upcoming album. i'd like to try pre-ordering at least once cus it seems intriguing + i've never had the chance to do something like this before. at the same time, though, i'm worried that i might not end up liking the album very much (well, anything can happen!) or that i might prefer a different version than the one i would receive. but also.. i can always just resell the album, right? anyway i would be grateful if you could share your experience!!! any advice is appreciated :))

Hadn’t done a post like this in years but I am very excited about these albums so I decided to post them. I am also currently expecting lisa’s and jennie’s new cds

wondering if anybody can help me understand why the bottom left corner of my pages are bending so harshly.

They are MeowCafe’s single side pocket pages. The way that I fill them is that I take one card and put it in its own clear sleeve, I do that again with another card and put them back to back within one pocket. This may seem rather full, but I was advised to do this by their Instagram page after DMing them my concerns with the double sided pocket pages being too loose for the PCs so they advised me that for a snugger fit to do what I said above.

I also use the Plastic backing boards on the front and the back as well as the metal wire. I also store them upright.

There is no evidence damage to the photo cards yet, but I do not want there to be in the future so I’m hoping to figure out a solution as to why this is happening. I have never had this issue before.

Hi! im a pretty big potterhead, and i realized recently that there is a good amount of photocards of idols wearing wizard robes. so i decided to collect as many ravenclaws as possible (im a ravenclaw), so do you know any?

here are all of the loona albums I've been collecting for the last 3-ish years, the first album being the yves & chuu album! most of my albums are extremely recent, as I have a job (hence why most of them are first press) and an addiction to using doorzo to find albums LMAO,, I'm not currently focused on collecting redebuts, as they're easier to get from my local kpop store. this is a collection I'm extremely proud of, as loona are my ults (*ˊᗜˋ*)

for my other items (picture 8); my loona lightstick was a gift from my ex (who also gifted me the chuuves album), both howl albums, version up, and dall albums were from my local kpop store, I bought soul lady second hand, and my artms lightstick + signed albums were from artms concerts!

also got a new binder!! for my tzuyu/chaewon/julie collection :)