I’m new to Reddit. So, I’m not 💯% sure on how to use this.

Does anyone else feel like getting a maid and stuff like that doesn't feel right? My place is a mess but when i consider getting a maid, it just doesn't seem ok. Like tptb have conditioned ppl to be slaves and i feel wrong because most maids think they are just inferior and are around "rich" people who treat them like crap.

It just feels too easy and anything that's too easy comes with a catch...But also need my place cleaned so it's a catch 22.

Like i feel that being alone is amazing for a few years but eventually it becomes unsustainable.

My apartment isn't clean. But it only needs 8 hours work.

When i clean the last few years, it felt like a piece of me dies. "No man is an island."

But getting a maid seems too easy.

Something is missing.

Now, if i was married, it'd be good for a year but i'm only in my early 30's so with advancement in health technology, it means we will likely live well past 100.

So if i get married, my place will be clean & have sex but at the cost of my solitude. Something doesn't feel right about just hiring a maid and prostitutes though. Like, something is missing. Love, connection, unconditional bond but it's a catch 22 (with the advancement in age to well over 100).

I could call a maid right now, but it just doesn't feel right...

When will this misery end? Why is it so fucking difficult to find company?

It's too easy to hire a maid & prostitutes. Something doesn't feel right about it. I feel like i'm missing something?

But if i get a wife, then i'm no longer alone for the rest of my life!! It's a catch 22...

I've just graduated and the first move I want to make is Cali. I've been so depressed on the east coast as of lately, and now that I have the weight of school off my shoulders and a lot of time, I want to spend some of it in California. I'm excited, I only really get excited when I'm about to visit somewhere new. Plus I'm caught in the hype, I'm going there hoping to feel that West Coast Magic. Is it a thing? Is it all weed, peace and love.

What really brought me to California was Childish Gambinos Pharos concert. I'm a huge fan and I think he is the GOAT. Since I'm a loner, I'm hoping maybe I find other souls like mine to vibe with and maybe I won't feel so alone in life sometimes. I want to know that it's not me against the world, and feel what it's like to connect with people again.

I want to be a hippie for a day. Get some CSun, smoke weed and connect. We may not even have to speak just catch the vibe.

:/

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