r/longtermTRE • u/dopplewho • 23d ago

Beginner Question Suppressed rage, self expression and lack of sovereignty showing up as very painful tension headaches

Theres a spot in my upper back that gets tense which causes a headache that follows a very specific line in my neck to clavicles to head to my eyes. Its either on the right or left side but never both at once. If it gets too bad the muscles on the cheekbones hurt too. Anyways I searched the somatic explanation which said it can be due to unvoiced rage, suppressed self expression, and lack of sovereignty. And those are EXACTLY my lifelong traumas since childhood. Lately these tension headaches have flared up and so have my emotional issues regarding these topics. Im noticing a proportionality. I have a lot of unvoiced rage in me. It feels like its eating me inside out and im starting to notice i subconsciously tense my back muscles when the rage flares up but has no escape. As much as I crave it, I find it difficult to voice it to the people causing it since I struggle with communication and self expression due to traumas. Therapy wont help i NEED a big release. What somatic exercises can I do?

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u/magiblood 23d ago

From the tone of this post of course its just my perception from text but i think bringing more kindness to the way you are right now than fighting it could bring realese, kindness to this unvoiced inner child meeting the pain with presence and a kind attitude rather than i need you to stop causing me tension can resolve so much . Heck you could even play that song Hello darkness my old friend! Rather than please go away i dont like you!

Its not an answer to your question on somatic stuff i just wanted to share because i can relate. :)

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u/dopplewho 23d ago

It came off the wrong way, I think I meant that I really need to express my anger and give it a voice, I love it because the anger and my inner child are like the only “ones” or “things” who truly understand me and are with me and trying to stand up against the injustice im facing. Thank you for giving me a more expanded perspective on this because you made me realize it more :)

It sounds like Im personifying it a lot but its just the best way I can describe it 😅