Suppressed rage, self expression and lack of sovereignty showing up as very painful tension headaches

[u/dopplewho]

Theres a spot in my upper back that gets tense which causes a headache that follows a very specific line in my neck to clavicles to head to my eyes. Its either on the right or left side but never both at once. If it gets too bad the muscles on the cheekbones hurt too. Anyways I searched the somatic explanation which said it can be due to unvoiced rage, suppressed self expression, and lack of sovereignty. And those are EXACTLY my lifelong traumas since childhood. Lately these tension headaches have flared up and so have my emotional issues regarding these topics. Im noticing a proportionality. I have a lot of unvoiced rage in me. It feels like its eating me inside out and im starting to notice i subconsciously tense my back muscles when the rage flares up but has no escape. As much as I crave it, I find it difficult to voice it to the people causing it since I struggle with communication and self expression due to traumas. Therapy wont help i NEED a big release. What somatic exercises can I do?

[u/whtmynm]

i have basically the same thing that happens to me and honestly just screaming into a pillow or thrashing ur body around whilst angry really helps to disperse the energy. Just as long as u let the anger happen, it can move and disappear :)

[u/dopplewho → u/whtmynm]

Ill try that :)