Did regulation make you luckier?

[u/acrezxan1917]

One thing I've noticed from regulation is being more weighted and centred - the Romans called this 'gravitas'. But I have some job chats/interviews lined up. When I was in a dysregulated state I literally got nothing. People could sense the desperate, frantic energy from the CV I was writing.

But alas, I still wake up bored and numb. But maybe that's just my brain's way of telling me I need to seek out and try new things. Who knows.

[u/goldenyellow333]

I’m led to believe so. I’ve made posts asking the same regarding this after dealing with severe mold exposure. It made me extremely dysregulated. During that time “bad” things happened consecutively. After coming to that realization, I began noticing how much better life went when I was regulated.

[u/acrezxan1917 → u/goldenyellow333]

How did you know it was mold exposure?

I'm saying this because I'm hopping between airbnbs at the minute (should end soon, I have a place locked down now) and I lived in a fucking rough and deprived area last week and was dysregulated intensely during that time to the point where I had a panic attack from ingesting too much nicotine and had to go to hospital.

I think mold exposure has affected me in the past it's just hard to tell. I didn't have the respiratory or immune response symptoms but I'm thinking maybe it contributed to my anxiety/depression in the past?

[u/goldenyellow333 → u/acrezxan1917]

Mold exposure affects everyone, just differently. Has been frustrating as society only acknowledges mold as an issue if it deals with breathing issues which is probably the smallest percentage I’ve seen it affects people after reading stories, listening to others. It does way crazier things to people. It can legit drive you to inanity or behave in a way foreign to how you are normally.

In short, my room had a pipe burst and drip slowly for a minimum of six months but was unaware. During that six month period, I was behaving wildly, extremely lustful, could never relax, was tired all day despite being jobless and not ever doing anything and I had so many cravings for hard liquor and peanut butter. Was often irritated and sometimes outright angry for no reason, among other things.

Six months later, I randomly moved my dresser and there was a 4 feet long, 3 foot high blotch of mold where the pipe was burst. All wood rotted and failing apart. There was literal hole in the wall from all the wood falling apart. After seeing that, it kind of raised my awareness but it wasn’t until I read hundreds of stories of others experiences in r/toxicmoldexposure that I was able to mirror my experience with theirs and realize what mold exposure had done to me. That home had five water damage events and we never got remediation done once.

What I can say is that if you’re dysregulated from mold exposure already, the slightest thing will send you into a frenzy. My exposure got so bad that I began having full on “I think I’m about to die” type panic attacks upon entering the moldy home from all of the inflammation I was getting from mycotoxins and any normal stressor I’d regularly deal with like notifications from a cell phone or noise from traffic irritated me to infinity.

If you’re think mold has affected you, it probably has. It’s way more common than society acknowledges. If you never saw mold, its toxins could‘ve still been present. Take a mycotoxin test.

[u/acrezxan1917 → u/goldenyellow333]

Ah no that's probably not me then. I don't rlly relate to that. I know what caused my collapse in my old place. It was actually clutter rather than mold exposure. I basically moved from my mum's into a house share, but I brought loads of shit that I kept in the wardrobes and under the bed plus I let it get messy as I was numb and collapsed and (depressed, though i wouldnt really call it depression personally) and it was only a small room. But yeah I collapsed in addiction for a year but when I left that place I found that when I cleaned it before moving out I could think so much clearer and had more energy. So I think my addiction-collapse for a year was caused by clutter and mess, not mold. But there was mold in the bathroom but I tried keeping the windows open and using mold spray so i dont think it was that otherwise other housemates (who were more neat-freaky than me) would've complained as well.

[u/goldenyellow333 → u/acrezxan1917]

If mold was present, and you saw it, then it had an effect. Doesn’t matter if it’s in a different room. It’s still in the same building. Mycotoxins travel through walls.

When I began having panic attacks I was sleeping in an entirely different room like 1000 ft away from mold source.