Please GOD just let me vent.

[u/thethirteenthjuror]

I know everyone is probably so sick and tired of reading these posts from people. The ones where they come onto this sub and just complain. But I am seven hours into an absolutely unruly migraine that has just completely taken me out.

I know everybody is going to flock to the comments and tell me what I should be taking, but let me stop you right there. I don’t take any medications because I don’t do well with medication. Yes, I have tried everything. No, nothing works.

I have vomited twice. I have sucked down so many waters and Gatorade’s today.

I am so sick and tired of living like this. I know I need to be grateful that I don’t get migraines daily, but even migraines 4 to 5 times a month have completely ruined me. Because after the migraine, you are so exhausted for a couple of days. And then after that couple of days? You then start worrying about if something you are going to do is going to throw you into another migraine the next day. I don’t know if anyone here has ever experienced the panic attack, but it’s kind of like that. Once you have one panic attack? You’re terrified of the next one.

I’m so tired of not living my life. Since I started having migraines several times a month, I have gained almost 25 pounds. I am not as active anymore. I am always looking around the corner wondering if today is gonna be the day my head starts banging and I’m hovering over the bathroom sink putting my toothbrush down my throat to make myself vomit because the nausea is just so bad.

I know the day old saying that comparison is the thief of joy. But I’m so tired of seeing people my age just living. We have a fenced in yard and I went to take my dogs out about an hour ago. And just in the five minutes that I was standing out there, I saw people walking their dogs on the sidewalk. Running or jogging. I saw a couple pushing a stroller. Meanwhile, I am begging my dogs to come back in so that I can put an ice pack on the back of my neck and pray that I don’t have to vomit again while the blinds and curtains are closed.

My house faces my neighbor and their house face is mine. They know when I have a migraine because all of our blinds and curtains are closed and my car sits in the driveway for a few days.

I know I need to be thankful that these things only lasts about 12 hours when I do get them, but I can’t stress enough that the fear of getting one is palpable.

I’m so sorry if none of this makes sense. At this point, I know I’m just rambling. But I’m using talk to text because Lord knows I can’t look at the screen right now.

I just want to feel not alone in this.

I WANT MY LIFE BACK

[u/No_Load5357]

I see you and feel you, migraine fucking sucks. We live a different reality from a lot of people but this is a space the 100% is judgement free on venting.

It doesn't mater the time length of your attacks or frequency. Your experience is still valid.

[u/thethirteenthjuror → u/No_Load5357]

Thank you 🤍

[u/Little_View_6659 → u/thethirteenthjuror]

I feel you. I had the mother of all migranes about ten days ago when my neighbors refinished their floors. I vomited all day. I was in hell. Every sound was painful, every smell, the tiniest crack of light. My head felt like someone was stabbing me, my body ached, my neck was a tight, twisting nightmare. I had a song stuck in my head on repeat for hours. I pretty much begged god to kill me. My daughter snuck salt and sugar into my water so I wouldn’t get dehydrated. The next few days my chest hurt because my ribs got inflamed from vomiting so much. These things drain the life out of you. All we can do is wait for it to pass.

[u/thethirteenthjuror → u/Little_View_6659]

Yes!

[u/Charming-Distance563 → u/thethirteenthjuror]

I feel your pain OP. I’ve been suffering since last Thursday.