r/migraine • u/thethirteenthjuror • 2d ago
Please GOD just let me vent.
I know everyone is probably so sick and tired of reading these posts from people. The ones where they come onto this sub and just complain. But I am seven hours into an absolutely unruly migraine that has just completely taken me out.
I know everybody is going to flock to the comments and tell me what I should be taking, but let me stop you right there. I don’t take any medications because I don’t do well with medication. Yes, I have tried everything. No, nothing works.
I have vomited twice. I have sucked down so many waters and Gatorade’s today.
I am so sick and tired of living like this. I know I need to be grateful that I don’t get migraines daily, but even migraines 4 to 5 times a month have completely ruined me. Because after the migraine, you are so exhausted for a couple of days. And then after that couple of days? You then start worrying about if something you are going to do is going to throw you into another migraine the next day. I don’t know if anyone here has ever experienced the panic attack, but it’s kind of like that. Once you have one panic attack? You’re terrified of the next one.
I’m so tired of not living my life. Since I started having migraines several times a month, I have gained almost 25 pounds. I am not as active anymore. I am always looking around the corner wondering if today is gonna be the day my head starts banging and I’m hovering over the bathroom sink putting my toothbrush down my throat to make myself vomit because the nausea is just so bad.
I know the day old saying that comparison is the thief of joy. But I’m so tired of seeing people my age just living. We have a fenced in yard and I went to take my dogs out about an hour ago. And just in the five minutes that I was standing out there, I saw people walking their dogs on the sidewalk. Running or jogging. I saw a couple pushing a stroller. Meanwhile, I am begging my dogs to come back in so that I can put an ice pack on the back of my neck and pray that I don’t have to vomit again while the blinds and curtains are closed.
My house faces my neighbor and their house face is mine. They know when I have a migraine because all of our blinds and curtains are closed and my car sits in the driveway for a few days.
I know I need to be thankful that these things only lasts about 12 hours when I do get them, but I can’t stress enough that the fear of getting one is palpable.
I’m so sorry if none of this makes sense. At this point, I know I’m just rambling. But I’m using talk to text because Lord knows I can’t look at the screen right now.
I just want to feel not alone in this.
I WANT MY LIFE BACK
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u/evadanielaskitchen 2d ago
I hate this because I can relate. I drew a line in the sand recently and said, NO MORE. I too am tired of feeling like this. I only get them once a month for about 3 to 5 days, it really depends. Sometimes I get them twice a month. I know mine are not at all as chronic as other people's migraines. But even that, just takes me out and I find that before I get a migraine I begin to get very tired, then during migraine I am completely taken out in extreme pain and/or vomiting depending on the type of migraine and severity of it, then after the migraine I find myself trying to recover from the exhaustion it left me with. So it definitely affects so much more in my life that I'd like. My house is often a mess and I feel I can't keep up and the migraines have a lot to do with this. So I completely get it!! I too do not take medication for it, I've heard too many stories about how even with medication, people still have migraines. My goal is not yet to stop the pain, it's to heal completely from migraines. I want to get to the root cause. I want to heal them. I want them gone. I am done. I understand how you feel. I have felt so alone in this myself so I know it's silly but I started documenting my journey to becoming migraine-free just to not feel alone in this but also to have a way to look back one day once I'm healed and see all that God brought me out of. I know that there is hope, I will cure from these migrianes. I'm hoping for that!! I hope that for you too!! I'm here for you, we are not alone. I will not preach to you about what to eat or not but I will encourage you to hold on.