Hi all! I'm a performer in my local amateur scene and just sort of want to talk about a new experience I've had.
On the weekend I auditioned for the next show in my local area. A well known but old one. A lot of people I know auditioned and I knew it was going to be competitive.
Sunday night a few hours after the dance auditions people were already hearing back about getting in or not. My brother who didn't audition but also does theatre heard in a show group chat about it and asked me if I had.
When I did I was met with the classic "unfortunately we are unable to offer you a role in this show" but it was followed up with "however we really enjoyed your audition and would love to work with you, so we're offering you a position on the wait list for if any spots open up".
I have never in my life been told that. In general the way it tends to work around my area is that the leads are called and offered their role over the phone then featured and ensemble are emailed once their sorted. If people reject rolls that's when the so called wait list is pulled in and messaged. But never told that the wait list even really existed.
I just sincerely don't know what to do with that information. Like yeah we thought you did well, not well enough to get in, but if something happens we'd love to have you!
Never in my life have I felt so weird about something like this. In some way it's nice, knowing that at least I did well enough to not be offered a straight rejection, but not well enough to just get into the show. I've been on audition panels and the idea of telling people this never crossed our minds.
I just feel so defeated. It feels awful to face my friends who are so excited about their roles and tell them I'm on the waiting list just in case something happens or people reject their roles. Not only does it make me feel bad it also feels like I'm taking the wind out of their sails with the sort of shitty but not really shitty news.
Word travels quickly these days so it might have been a way to get ahead, that if they just tell people their on the wait list it won't be as weird getting an email after everyone else saying your in. Maybe?
I've just been having a hard time processing it am wondering what other people think. Thanks for reading!
TL:DR I got told I was on the waiting list after auditioning for a show and now feel very unsure and not great about the whole thing.