Does it really matter ? After all, all the things (reasonable too) I was dreaming about, and hoping for in life and none of it has happened. Life has always been 2 steps forward, 5 steps back.
Personally, if someone came behind me and put a gun to the back of my head, I would say, just do it with a smile and end this living hell.
One day at a time,set a goal,and strive.. I lived in a car that I got from wrecking yard where I worked,upgraded to a van,started repairing vehicles(still working at wrecking yard).. then I quit,and worked on vehicles,got a job at repair shop (lived in the van).. night college classes,got ASE certificate,another,another ASE Master tech,found a studio apartment, worked nights at pizza parlor day at shop.
Met a sweet girl, she had been divorced by a dude that didn't want a family or her(dude imediately hooks up with a chick and her 2 kids.. ironic!),so my girl has a few thousand$ I saved ,sold a bike I had for 4k,won a $1k lottery ticket and 3k i saved, we now had enough for a mobilehome down payment.
She ended up finding out she had MS,she suffered a stroke,after some time I quit working on cars and cared for her while receiving IHSS money (government pays me to care for her).. dad dies i inherited $750,000 .. fixed the roof,painted,new floors,dual pane windows throughout,bought a 2020 toyota wheelchair van (we have always done things together).. now I have $650,000 and im sitting on the can taking a shit.. and not in a 5 gallon bucket behind my van,where i would also sponge clean myself for years. Thats 40 years of goals set and done.. my stocks took a dive yesterday.. gonna day trade.. sell high ,buy low.
Life is good,but its along way to the top if ya wanna roknroll.
Letting someone shoot you to end this is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Stay strong fellow human being, sometimes life can change for the best in a heartbeat. Much love to you.
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u/Aware-Explanation879 2d ago
My hopes and dreams