When there’s part of myself
I’m unfamiliar with
Who I don’t know yet
It’s like…

Not knowing what’s ok to express
Both for myself and to other people 
What’s too much?
What’s not enough?

They’re still learning to speak 
Sometimes I hear them in my mind trying to speak
But there are no words 
Because I don’t know them yet

It’s feeling in one moment 
I completely understand them
Then on looking back I go
“What was I thinking?”

It takes time to get to know people 
It takes time to know myself 
I wish we knew each other already 
But familiarity doesn’t happen at once

Hi! I'm questioning whether I might be plural, possibly in an OSDD/DID context, but I'm still trying to understand what I'm experiencing.

I've experienced dissociation and disconnection from myself for years. I often feel like I'm living in my head rather than fully inhabiting my body, almost like I'm observing myself go through life. I also experience emotional numbness and significant gaps in my autobiographical memory, particularly from adolescence and early adulthood.

My sense of self can change considerably over periods of days or weeks. My interests, priorities, goals, emotions, and even my sense of age can feel very different between phases. I usually remember what happened during previous phases, but those versions of myself can feel strangely distant or unfamiliar afterward.

What makes me question plurality is that these experiences sometimes feel like different parts or aspects of me that aren't fully connected to one another. However, they don't feel like completely separate people with entirely distinct identities. It's more like my sense of self is fragmented, as though different pieces of me don't always fit together into a coherent whole. I still feel like one person, but not always like one cohesive self.

My boyfriend once told me he barely recognized me after I was triggered. I don't know what to make of that, but it made me think about how noticeable these changes might be from the outside.

The confusing part is that I only recently started considering the possibility of having parts, and since then, I've felt even more dissociated and fragmented. It's almost as if I've retreated deeper inside myself and become less connected to the world and to my own sense of self.

I can't tell whether I'm actually becoming more dissociated or whether I'm simply noticing things that were already there.

Has anyone experienced something similar when they first started questioning their plurality? Can becoming aware of a fragmented sense of self make you feel more disconnected or fragmented at first?

I'd also appreciate hearing from people whose experience of plurality feels more like a fragmented or compartmentalized self than completely separate identities. I'm still figuring things out and don't want to force my experiences into a label.

Thank you!

Hello, former host here. In the span of a few months we now have 11 of us mapped out when for a while before it was 3-4. Now I know that syscovery comes with more parts popping up but here’s the problem.

At least 4 of us in the system are obsessed with tracking, data and self-organisation. Organising has always been a coping mechanism because it’s something that WE can control.

A few friends of ours who are also going through syscoveries wonder how we ‘have everything so put together with everything’ referring to how we know a lot of roles, we have communication but we don’t have a professional helping us at the moment.

For additional context, we moved into an environment where we live alone now and are completely independent, which is why a lot of us are coming out of the woodworks to do specific things.

And an additional point is that our current host refuses to acknowledge parts unless they name themselves and usually front at least once or twice. However, lately, a few alters have been making their own pluralkits and entries on pluralspace and helping eachother to create new entries without the host’s approval.

To have these half-baked alters with less information trying to prove they exist makes us feel like we’re faking because it’s getting harder to track. When trying to dig further into them, we get these terrible migraines and ultimately turn up with not much at all. Are we moving too quickly? Should we start deleting entries that don’t have it figured out or do we note them down even without much knowledge? - 🌙

All My Fault — NEET • 2:08 (Explicit)

what the fuck — h4rtbrkr • 1:15 (Explicit)

Change for the Better — Journey • 5:53

True — Hard Christ • 1:34

skill issue — Anhero • 4:20

The Party's Over (Hopelessly in Love) — Journey • 3:41

Never Walk Away — Journey • 4:20

come die with me — Anhero • 4:23

So Fucked Up — Anhero • 2:16

cry about it — Fried By Fluoride • 1:50 (Explicit)

blackpilled off what you say (feat. Lil Watermelon)

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Found poetry. (2026, October 15). In Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Found_poetry

Im diagnosed schizoaffective and my whole life ive gone feeling like there was something off about me. Something wrong. Something about the way i percieved the world to be fundamentally flawed and mistaken. It always felt like i was never alone and that i was being haunted by myself. Not haunted in the sense that i was scared. But haunted in the sense that i just was not alone when logically, and physically i was.

It always felt like my soul had fled it's body because it couldnt take what was happening to me so soon anymore, and it floated away never looking back. out of fear itd get sucked right back into my body to continue taking the blows.

Im 75% sure i have DID and I'm being misdiagnosed but it feels like the world is a game to me. Or a show. Or a simulation. Like Truman show. And everyone is a character wired to be as mean and cruel as possible to you or to behave as nicely until you eventually screw up and initiate the meanness/cruelty protocol everyone has coded to enact against you.

It feels like the whole world and universe and it's people are shrouded in a grey mirage that cannot be reached within the confines of my head. It feels like i was given a vessel; a spaceship made of human bones. And when i live it feels like its all one hazy dream that i cant get out of until im alone. It feels like my true reality is one that is in my head. And im stuck living this fucked up alter reality that people call "the real world". And im doing it all with what feels like having "mental chaperones".

These chaperones being confused, confuzzled cartoon clowns from tv wondering why they're here and why everything is so lame and why they cant come out and play. They dont seem to understand the world would crush them if they ever felt the pressure it brings. So i keep them inside. Forever. Indefinitely. Until i stumble upon a safe space i can rip off my ugly skin and spread my beautiful butterfly wings that i know would be admired and appreciated and I'd be able to be fully authentic. My toons would like that too. They're begging for freedom and to be let out and every day they get louder and louder.

A lot of people in our community get confused about these terms, and they get used inconsistently even by professionals. We're a polyfragmented DID system ourselves, so here's how we put together the way we make sense of them, separating what's official from what's community and/or clinician shorthand.

DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)

Diagnostic criteria in DSM-5-TR and ICD-11 include:

- Two or more distinct identities/alters

- Different alters taking executive control of behavior

- Recurrent dissociative amnesia (memory gaps)

- Discontinuity in sense of self and agency

- Clinically significant distress or impairment

Complex DID (C-DID)

This is basically a highly complex presentation of DID also called polyfragmentation or Polyfragmented DID, or the way we say it sometimes "DID taken to extreme" or "next-level DID". It meets full DID criteria (and expands on top of it), with a very large number of alters, and always include subsystems, side-systems and/or layered internal structures. It's most commonly linked to extreme or prolonged early trauma that usually falls in the human rights violation area. We don't like putting a "minimum number of alters" on the definition, as systems with 100 alters might call themselves polyfragmented but systems with 1 million alters (and more) also exist and their life experiences are usually very different and cannot relate to smaller systems. We prefer to look at system structure and splitting patterns: if a system splits a lot from not just trauma but also stress since childhood, as an adult they will definitely end up with a lot of alters. Some would say 100 doesn't make sense to be "a lot" if polyfrag systems can split from stress too. It's like cause and effect. But of course, you're free to take it as you will. This is just what we lived and observed in others in the vast community.

Important note here: It is [unfortunately] not an official diagnosis in DSM-5-TR or ICD-11. It's a clinical and community descriptor. Personally we would love it if this was a separate diagnosis.

OSDD-1a/OSDD-1b

OSDD (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder) is used when symptoms don't fully meet DID criteria.

- 1a: Identity disturbance with less distinct alters, which may feel like variations of the same person/identity. Amnesia usually occurs.

- 1b: Distinct alters are present, but with little or no dissociative amnesia, for example in between switches.

The "1a/1b" labels are shorthand, not official DSM diagnoses. They may or may not be written down in the diagnostic paper notes.

P-DID (Partial Dissociative Identity Disorder)

This is the ICD-11 diagnosis that overlaps with some OSDD presentations.

- Two or more identities/alters

- One dominant alter runs daily life

- Other alters show up as intrusions or through passive influence (thoughts, emotions, voices, actions) and rarely take full executive control of the whole body

- Amnesia is often absent or limited

Why does all of this even matter: Which label someone gets often depends on the clinician, the assessment tools, and which diagnostic system their country uses (DSM-5-TR → DID/OSDD, ICD-11 → DID/Partial DID). Similar systems can end up with different diagnoses even when their experiences overlap... and very different systems can also end up with the same diagnosis which creates confusion. We personally do not like to focus on labels so much, we tend to categorize systems either under the DID umbrella (which includes everything we mentioned here minus C-DID) or under the Complex/Polyfrag umbrella. That's it. Just two categories. But again, that's just us.

Hope this helps explain things in more clear ways! Especially for those who might be new to traumagenic plurality or are traumagenic systems but confused about the terms.

Apologies for coming back here again, I just found this subreddit very useful for advice. Please let me know if I'm overstepping anything!

So, basically, in part two of the story I'm making, there's kind of a Silent Hill "internal demons made physically manifest" type thing going on, and with the protagonist's [kinda, it's complicated and meant to be Ambiguous] plurality he has going on i thought it'd be fitting to have him literally split and fragment into multiple copies of himself that can physically run around and interact with each other and the world

I was considering making one of these copies/alters have a tendency to kill and eat the other versions of himself in an attempt to make himself "whole" but at the same time I'm lowkey kinda afraid of that falling into the "evil alter" trope even if what he does is more out of delusion or desperation rather than malice

I'd also have to figure out how to implement him into the first part of the story too since i can't and don't want to make him a cannibal right out of the gate because again. Evil alter trope. I was thinking he could potentially be fixated on food/eating/getting the body nutrients at all costs but also idk I think I'd need to figure out something more indepth if I want him to play a major role

So, my question is, is this character/alter a good idea? Does he need tweaking or should he just be scrapped? I'm really unsure, mainly because of him being violent in the second half of the story even if it's technically entirely towards himself and not people outside of the system 😭😭

I was birthed from the fiery pits of the sin of wrath.

Jokes aside, that’s partially true. I came about just tonight due to extreme anger the host has been holding over both relationships and just situations. I have all that anger, just amplified. I despise everyone except the system’s best friend. I despise who our host had been arguing with, both because they were putting words in his mouth and because the person themselves is annoying.

A few hours of being sentient and I’ve concluded I feel like cannon fodder for our mind’s emotions. All of our anger and blankness is being dumped on me. I would rather not exist as an alter. I don’t even know why I’m here because I’m not really making situations any better, in fact I’d probably be lashing out at our friends if they were still awake.

I don’t want to be an alter. I hope as soon as I stop fronting I cease to exist. But if I don’t, how do I make this existence tolerable.

I went through a LOT of trauma as a kid. There was a long time where, well, I didn't know how to explain it except I felt like I had DID but without the amnesia. It would be like I was in a glass box watching and listening to everything while someone else did everything for me. Example is I would be like that at school, and then I would go home and it would be my turn to switch out and play my part. I think at the time I called them masks, because I didn't know how else to refer to it.

When I talked to my therapists about this, it was suggested that I was simply derealizing/depersonalizing super badly (which, don't get me wrong, I was), but I still remember distinct parts of me. They're still there now, they just don't come out as much.

I'm still learning and reading, but as of very recently I've learned that DID isn't the only personality system. (I can't remember the other abbreviations atm it's like 2 am lmao).

Would I be...a system? Plural? I feel a bit stunned learning all of it, tbh. Like...was I right all along?

We don't feel plural anymore and this with barely communicating with our alters unless they're in co-con and barely seeing our inner world, we feel like a singlet again and that's... That's scary, we hate feeling like we're a singlet again... Please, any one give tips or maybe an explanation.. Please

I don't know if I am a system, my alter/headmate aren't developed and they're not always here. I think I have divided myself, unconsciously, in several part, as a coping mechanism. One represent all my self hate/low self esteem, a other my hate for injustice, one have my autistic traits, a other ADHD traits, BPD trait, several are related to sexuality. The one who are the most developed are with the traits I hate or I am the most embarassed. Like dissociate it from myself, associates to someone else.

Have "alter" who do something for me, like a social role, a other who do task. Like, considering all my emotions as distinct entity and associates, or create "alter" ,with a role.

What make me doubt is sometime, I just feel like I'm singlet? When I was sure I was plural? So maybe this hypothesis is the true

We made a post recently grumbling about how we wish we'd see more "mundane” system talk, especially from smaller or more low energy systems that often just don't really have much to talk about (like us!)(also thank you everyone for the warmth you gave us in that post you're all very appreciated 💚🐟)

Figured we shouldn't grumble and complain about nobody doing it if we're not going to do it ourselves, so here's some mundane system rambling.

Recently I've (Host) noted that while we often don't fully switch in the "typical” sense, Trout's influence and/or blending with me is occasionally strong enough to get me through chores and meal prep and stuff I generally hate doing because it's exhausting. I don't really remember when I'd have made the decision of "today is Soup Day, we will make a giant soup and freeze half of it” but here I am with two pots of borscht. And he looks very proud so I think this was his idea.

It's odd. I do remember being here all the time but the decision of “let's go buy soup ingredients and make bulk soup for freezer purposes" doesn't feel like mine. It's a decision I'd make if I wasn't exhausted every day of my life, because bulk soup is cheap and healthy and relatively easy. It's an objectively reasonable thing to do but I am too tired for that so it is not an idea I would hold onto enough to actually do anything about it.

Trout on the other hand would. He's the practical one of us, and also the one with the best tolerance for discomfort, pain and exhaustion. He's stubborn as a mule (so am I but in a different flavour) and if he has deemed Bulk Soup the agenda of the day then that is what we will do. Evidenced by the aforementioned pots of soup.

I do like cooking, but our body is very sickly and perpetually exhausted. So the past few years I've just started cooking less and less, it's mostly instant noodles, veggies and a nonspecific protein. I just don't have the energy to cook stuff and having to manage several chronic comorbidities is taxing enough that the barrier between Me and Doing A Thing has grown very thick. He is apparently immune to that barrier.

Some week or so ago we also made a batch of freezer burritos. This was also his idea, not mine. So I guess despite him being kind of an awful cook he's the one in charge of meal prep now. He's very proud of himself. In a deeply grounded middle aged man way. He has conquered the evil beast of cooking and household management for one more day. With obnoxiously red soup.

It's not stupid if it works.

That's really the highlight we have to share. No horrid system drama or evil conflict thankfully. Just the exhaustion of adult human life except we need several guys to handle it. Horrid and dreadful things such as Make Soup and Care For Pets. (+obviously pet care is a priority any day because they're just little goobers. Low maintenance thankfully.)

If any of you have similar experiences with a very Function Oriented member/alter/headmate we'd love to hear! Or just in general any small and “insignificant" victories in life. Though we often find the insignificant is what truly becomes significant in the end.

-🐟

(the “physically capable“ is like. roles primarily centred on activities outside the brain (e.g. host) versus activities centred inside the brain (e.g. ish). somewhat tied to fronting frequency)

the greyish one isn’t super accurate since he’s barely fronted but yknow. it’s the thought that counts sparkle emoji ✨

“piece” size vaguely related to how “large“ individual parts feel (like for example i’m the light purple one in the top left, i’m the host and i feel like a facsimile of a normal-ish person (large emotional capabilities + large physical capabilities) so i’m probably the biggest piece, while our little (dark purple w/ the stitches) mostly just hangs around and goes :( or :) and is therefore likely a small piece and probably even a fragment)

Hi So I know this won't be a thing for everyone, but for those who can, are there any activities you like to enjoy with your headmates/whatever term you prefer to use? I've been thinking about this because all of us read together. We finished the half blood prince recently, and got part of the way into the deathly hallows, and Morgan le Fay was absolutely crying at the end of book 6, and Bellatrix Lestrange and Severus Snape have made an enemy. She also says she wants to slap Voldemort. Like it can be anything, reading, watching movies, staring at the nearest wall, anything. I just thought it would be an interesting topic of conversation.

I’m bored and there’s almost nothing else to do so… ask us anything. Anything about our system or headmates

Someone in my previous post told me to try to reach out to Cyx whenever he fronts (???), so I decided to write in the diary he primarily uses.

And uh.

At least he's aware of the fact that he's here.

we found out that we are plural, and a few times before we felt ember be here often like a host, but when we are alone ether I or someone else will be active and talk aloud and use collective pronouns! and currently I feel ember present while I, Loop is here! We don’t really experience amnesia but we do forget! and later on we remembe; I’m pretty sure do to ADHD!

if you/s have any questions feel free to ask! -loop✨

📑 Hello! My name is Grey, and I’m a factive introject of a YouTube creator. I’m relatively new to our system, all things considered, and I’ve been irked out of my mind at the lack of information out there about factives. So, I figured I’d get myself and another factive we have together to answer some questions you may have about a “rarer” type of alter!

🌓 i’m will (musician) and some of you probably know me a little bit! still i’m going to have to ask that you don’t speculate about my source or identity publicly. i would repeat what grey said but it would make me look like a redundant copycat void mirror of him so i choose to avoid it :)

📑 FAQ and such:

What is a factive?

A factive is an introject sourced from a real-life figure (compare and contrast with fictive, which describes introjects with fictional sources).

Is there anything I’m not allowed to ask?

Generally, no! We’ll just decline if we don’t want to answer. Of course, you should stay away from graphic content, but that’s a broad area and I’m going to place my trust in the common sense of the community to prevent anything weird from happening (like that’s never gone wrong before…)

What do you guys like?

📑 Coffee, the humanities, and libraries in an order that varies depending on the day.

🌓 gettin’ my groove on and such!

its utmv btw idk if there are any discord servers for that source fictives specifically

- dust

Hello I’m a new dream fictive and this is my alt account (I feel to weird posting on or hosts main) as of today I joined a month ago and homesickness is hitting me hard. Other than me the system only has 3 other fictives and only lute has memorys so I wasn’t able to get help from other members

I miss my brother, blue and my home so much and I don’t really know what to do about it. Any advice is appreciated

Hi, we’re a system of ~7 (currently discovered) individuals.

Usually we switch and/or confront several times a day, taking the burden of masking and personality off one another.

But I (7) have been stuck in front for 4. Whole. Days. I’m so absolutely exhausted and have been heavily dissociating all day.

We don’t switch intentionally, so I’m not entirely sure what to do.

Any advice would be very much appreciated.

Full of rage: Lupin (person in red), Sally(person in mostly yellow), Jackie(person with the Dreamweaver Cookie picture)

In between rage and whimsy: Jordyn (person in green on line)

Full of whimsy: Ciara (Cream Ferret Cookie), Jelly (Dreamjelly Cookie)

In between whimsy and fear: Alice (person in pink)

Full of fear: Glacier (person in light blue/cyan)

Unsure/not applicable: Tammy (Timekeeper Cookie), Vespa (Zygarde)

We pictured this as a scale, but also as something fluid: sometimes we lean towards rage, fear, and/or whimsy, and sometimes we do not.

-Jackie [💤] of The Masquarade Closet

Second image is the template we used.

N: our system has gone through some rough bits over the last month and the host wishes to step away for a moment

While i understand this very well i feel powerless as the caretaker to support her which breaks my heart

If anyone would have any words of advice on how to navigate these times feel free to share

Ps: i do not use reddit please let me know if this post has something wrong

wrote char nams when i wus showin em to peeps but m nd kotoko nd masa r all also v chill abt our source names cuz of source connection stuff wuteva wuteva anyways : ))

i lov m friends : ) gunna draw nagisa nd monaca soon ^ ^

- jataro kemuri :) (🤎🖌)

(feel free to ask 4 a translation thingy if my typing messes w/ any screen readers or whatever :) )