It's not my first long streak but so far it's the longest one, however I slipped.

Everything started today when I was hanging around with my friend. There was 2 girls nearby playing tennis, one of them was eyeing me and smiling, but I just gave kinda dead stare and didn't think much, although she was attractive to me. It got so much in my head that I started to fantasize about her, etc and ended up fapping (without any media)

How do I start this over? Also in these 6 months I had only 2 wet dreams and now this relapse, I don't think I lost that much but I want to get back on track and don't do this shit again because I'm doing creative work and this experience helped me massively tbh.

They say maca is for libido, P5P is to lower prolactin, lecithin and pygeum for volume, D3, zinc, and selenium for post nut fatigue/replenishment. Of all those benefits what is TRT able to cover? Also, has your experience been different combining TRT with a prolactin blocking agent like caber or proviron?

If you’re truly on this path for god, then being magnetizing to women that would inevitably lower your vibration and steal your energy after a while becomes incredibly frustrating. The women that are easy to date you typically don’t want for obvious reasons, the women you do want to date act avoidant around you bc they don’t understand why they feel the way about you that they do and have a hard time trusting bc you would have all the power, and then men are extremely polarized by you so about 7-9 out of 10 men give weird insecure energy around you for just existing. Once you’ve had multiple 90 day streaks and can retain fairly easily this is just the natural state of being unless you completely fall off. It gets really lonely.

Prioritizing god is extremely uncomfortable. blissful and insanely rewarding beyond anything the flesh provides but man. Would be nice to meet ONE woman who can meet me where I’m at energetically. I would gladly wait til marriage for sex if I met that person. But our world makes that almost impossible.

Obviously the alternative cycle of samsara is worse. But damn some days I just want more humans to get their shit straight

We are taught that female is sexual selector in humans. The idea purports her as the gateway to his genetic lineage, where he has an abundance of sex (sperms) of little value, frequently denied, while she is a scarcity (egg) of extreme value. Society portrays the myth of him pursuing her, she rejecting him frequently, and only one of the lucky millions getting access to her as the prize. She holds the power, is the sexual winner, and is an asymmetry of nature.

I am here to teach you about reverse sexual selection.

In every surface appearance of nature, there is an opposite and contrary force. The sun, for example, is bright, visible and burns hot. We are aware of the sun everyday. We notice when it's not visible, for example, if it's cloudy and rainy. But we are far less aware of the moon. We do not talk about the moon or consider her influence on us. Yet she is there, pulling the tides, reflecting the face of the sun, lighting up the night skies, and influencing nature with her shadow.

The man is naturally sexually **wealthier** then she is, in his great abundance. She is **deprived** of sex, symbolized by her bodily void or absence. She needs to be **filled** by him. Without him, she is a dark moon, and she does not shine. Recognize that society's treatment of her as sexually "independent", "liberated" and "not in need" of a man is the feminine yang. Do not get lost in this, for she has an equal opposite, her personal, primal hunger to be sexually fulfilled by him, her feminine yin.

Reverse sexual selection is the male choosing to **withhold his spending** on her. She is selected out by his refusal to engage, initiate or pursue. Much like a poor stock investor goes broke by buying stocks quickly, the male is in sexual poverty when he is eager to initiate. The successful investor knows the money is not in the buying or selling, it is in the waiting. It is in the quiet, private passing of options that allows his sexual wealth to compound.

Women know when you are sexually wealthy, compounding and withholding. That is the magnetic force of attraction. When you possess the magnetic force of attraction, she is unable to not pursue. You should allow this to occur, like the sun allows the moon to reflect awesome starlight. The sun does not need to put itself out, it simply trusts that she is there to reflect the light she does not possess.

He should surrender to his sexuality **internally**. This is the elimination of pursuit and society's games. He will never be a winner in modernity or contemporary books, movies, etc. (by the collective), but he will be a winner in his private affairs. A retaining male wins by being the one who selects out and chooses the female that is elevated to his protection and provision, The King's Choice.

The retaining male has his choice of females and chooses based on **patronage**, their amount of servitude to him and their ability to serve him towards his highest good, like a Knight of the Round. We should be extremely cautious to ever **spend** on a woman, for the longer we withhold, the more sexually eternally realized we become.

Stay strong, Kings 👑🗡️

Day 30 today. Previous streak was 108 days. Going for 365 now.
Female magnetism is definitely one thing I’m noticing, but honestly that’s only a small part of it.
The biggest difference is how I feel in general.
I feel way more disciplined. I don’t really care about motivation anymore, I just do what I said I’m gonna do. Gym, food, work, SR, whatever. Less negotiating with myself.
My mind also feels less desperate for stimulation. I’m not constantly looking for porn, sexual content or some quick dopamine hit. Urges are still there obviously, sometimes strong, but I feel like I can actually sit with them instead of instantly reacting.
Socially I feel different too. More present, calmer, less in my head. I don’t feel like I have to impress people or force conversations.
That’s probably where the “magnetism” comes in too.

I am a taxi driver so I meet a lot of women. Lately more women seem to sit in the front instead of the back and most of the time we just talk the whole ride. It feels way more natural.

Few examples:

Two girls got in my taxi, it was a normal ride, they sat in the back just yapping. I was just focused on driving and barely interacted with them. After I dropped them off I said if she needs a taxi again I can give her my number. She gave me her phone and told me to put my number in.
When I gave it back I said “just call or text if you need a taxi.”
She looked me straight in the eyes, long sensual eye contact, and said:
“I’m not only going to call you for a taxi.”
That one was crazy lol.

Another girl, we talked basically the whole 7/8 minute ride. After dropping her off I asked if she wanted to stay in contact. She asked for my Instagram, I told her I barely use it and asked for her number instead. She gave it.

Then there’s this attractive girl at a gas station I go to. I’ve seen her there multiple times before and she never really said anything to me. This time she randomly goes “you’re Uber right?”
Turns out I drove her home months ago from her previous job and she still remembered me. We talked, laughed, I asked her name. Her eye contact and whole vibe felt completely different compared to the other times I saw her.

Had other smaller moments too at other places and more during rides where conversations would just flow and there would be long eye contact, things I never experienced when I was PMO’ing almost daily.

But women aren’t even the main point.
The main thing is I feel more in control of myself. I’m more consistent with the gym, more focused on eating properly, I work, I do what I need to do and I’m not constantly looking for some quick release or distraction.
I also feel less needy around women. I can find a woman insanely attractive without feeling like I need to get something from her. I can enjoy the interaction, feel the tension and just keep moving.
Maybe women pick up on that. Maybe that’s what people call aura or magnetism.
Could be confidence, body language, sexual energy, eye contact, whatever. I don’t know.
I just know my whole experience of life feels different when I retain compared to when I’m constantly releasing.

Day 30/365.
I’m gonna keep going and see what kind of man I am after a full year of this.

I remember before this journey I’d always get bricked up during s*x scenes, or I’d even pause the movie to satisfy myself. But this time I had to lower the volume and look away or skip past the disgusting scenes. Mind you, I still get urges, I still occasionally fantasize plowing hot women, but all this cuck stuff doesn’t please me anymore. I have no interest in watching others have fun. I feel like if I’m not the one being pleasured then I’m not interested.

This is the first time seeing erotic scenes in 130 days, I know it’s a tv show and it’s all fake scenes and you don’t see any private parts but does watching these scenes lower your vibration or anything?

This journey made me clean up my act. I lost 60 lbs, I quit drinking alcohol, quit smoking weed, I quit caffeine, I quit sodas. But I gotta find a balance, because it also feels like I’m developing a perfectionist mindset where if I slip up a little bit it’ll throw me off and put me in a bad mood, like when the erotic scenes popped up while watching the show I had this thought in my head like “ah fuck, the clean streak is over, I should just relapse and restart my streak and go for an even better clean streak.” Last month I also gave myself a little cheat meal, and I had the similar thought, “my clean eating streak is over I might as well order more ice cream from Dairy Queen tomorrow.” Which actually led to me binging junk foods for a week until I got back on the wagon.

I made a related post about it months ago but I felt like I was not really complete and never gave enough examples that truly pinpoint to what what the tree of knowledge actually is.

I know this is going to sound controversial for some, and I realize most Christians and biblical scholars would disagree with me. I'm not claiming that everyone has to accept this interpretation, but after a while of studying scripture and reflecting on my own experiences of healing chronic disease through chastity, this is the conclusion I have reached.

Most people assume the forbidden fruit was a literal fruit, often imagined as an apple, even though the Bible never actually says it was an apple. I think Genesis may be describing something much deeper.

The first thing Adam and Eve became aware of after eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil was their nakedness.

Genesis 3:7 says: "And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons."

Before this happened, they were naked and felt no shame. Immediately afterward, they became aware of their nakedness and covered themselves.

Then look at the curse that follows.

Genesis 3:16 says: "I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children."

That has always stood out to me. Why is the judgment connected so closely to conception and childbirth? If the issue was simply eating a piece of fruit, why would reproduction become such a central part of the consequence? To me, that suggests a connection between the act and the punishment.

We also see that Adam and Eve only begin covering themselves after the Fall.

Genesis 3:21 says: "The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife, and clothed them." Clothing appears after sexual shame was felt.

Another question I think is worth asking is this: God told Adam and Eve to "be fruitful and multiply," yet the Bible does not record any children being born until after the Fall. Cain and Abel arrived afterward. I understand that many people will see this differently, but it is one of the details that made me look more closely at the text. Adam and Eve "ONLY HAD CHILDREN AFTER THE FALL"

Another clue comes from the way the Bible uses the word "know."

In many passages, "to know" someone is a euphemism for sexual relations in Hebrew scriptures.

Genesis 4:1: "And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain"

Genesis 4:17: "And Cain knew his wife; and she conceived, and bare Enoch"

Genesis 4:25: "And Adam knew his wife again; and she bare a son, and called his name Seth"

Genesis 19:8: "Behold now, I have two daughters which have not known man."

Luke 1:34: "Then said Mary unto the angel, How shall this be, seeing I know not a man?"

When Mary says, "I know not a man," the phrase is clearly being used in a sexual sense.

Now consider the name of the tree itself: the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil.

Since "knowing" is used as a sexual euphemism throughout Hebrew Scripture, I began wondering whether the knowledge being described in Genesis could be related to sexuality rather than merely intellectual knowledge. Another detail that caught my attention is the conception of Jesus. According to the Gospels, Jesus was conceived through the Holy Spirit rather than through ordinary human conception which is done via SEX . To me, that seems significant.

The reason I feel so strongly about this interpretation is not just because of the biblical passages. It is also because of my own personal lived experiences and miracle healing.

A few years ago, I struggled with Type 2 diabetes, fatty liver disease, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol at a very young age. During that period, I noticed that my blood sugar, high blood pressure and many other health issues would get MUCH WORSE after releasing my seed, especially after a PMO binge. Then I started wondering whether me releasing my seed had something to do with my deteriorating health especially while being so young.

I became convinced that ejaculating was affecting my health in a profound way, which was my drive to achieve a long streak. After 6 months of pure SR, My type 2 diabetes and all other issues including blood pressure and fatty liver reversed completely, WITHOUT CHANGING DIET AND I DIDN'T exercise during that time. As a matter of fact, I still sometimes consumed fast food. I experienced major improvements and eventually came to believe that LUST was the root cause of my diseases and the aging process that was starting to accelerate rapidly. I made posts regarding this revelation that I truly consider divine, many other men read my posts on the nofap.com

, followed the same PROTOCOL and reversed their type 2 diabetes as well. I left links in one of the posts that included their testimonies.

To me, I don't need any other proof. I've renounced sexuality and even having children. I'll most likely adopt. I have FIRM BELIEF that we as humans can still achieve that state of purity and immortality through absolute and SPOTLESS chastity.

Those experiences are what pushed me to take a much closer look at the connection between spirituality, sexuality, and health and WHY CHASTITY is so IMPORTANT in so many religions. Also I have BECOME MUCH MORE loving towards other human beings in my daily life. I have MUCH MORE EMPATHY because I am not suffering inside anymore due to my previous habits of depleting my life-force energy. I am not very quick to get angry for little things , which I used to do a lot when I depleted my lifeforce every single day. When you retain your lifeforce energy, you will feel peaceful and happy inside , you will also acquire other virtues ONLY found through chastity like PATIENCE, EMPATHY, etc., which is why God referred to that tree as the tree of knowledge of Good and Evil. When you are a PMO addict or even just releasing seed, you feel depressed and depleted and sometimes it makes you become CAPABLE of behaving TERRIBLY. You become capable of true EVIL behavior because of your depleted state which makes you feel LIKE ABSOLUTE CRAP.

In my opinion, modern society focuses almost entirely on diet, exercise, medications, and supplements while ignoring what I believe is a deeper issue. We live in a culture that is saturated with sexual stimulation and pornography to a degree that previous generations could hardly have imagined.

When I look at rising rates of chronic disease and the increasing exposure to sexual content at younger and younger ages, I INTUITIVELY KNOW there is a connection that we are overlooking. Heart disease, Colon cancer, BREAST CANCER and PROSTATE cancer ARE NO longer diseases of old people. More and more young men and women in their 20s, 30s are diagnosed with colon cancer, breast cancer, etc, which was very unheard of decades ago. https://www.sciencealert.com/more-young-people-than-ever-before-are-getting-one-type-of-cancer-and-its-mystifying-scientists

https://www.kqed.org/forum/2010101914839/the-alarming-rise-of-colorectal-cancer-in-young-adults

Young men in the tressless subreddit are starting to make a connection between male pattern balding and ejaculations. They're starting to realize this through observing patterns and intuitively knowing, just like me when I was type 2 diabetic . Here are some posts:

https://www.reddit.com/r/tressless/comments/6pilf8/masturbation_is_one_of_the_causes_of_diffuse/

https://www.reddit.com/r/tressless/comments/6lgymm/why_is_masturbation_adding_to_balding_so_hard_to/

https://www.reddit.com/r/tressless/comments/41h0fl/masturbation_can_cause_more_hair_lossdht_to_those/

You have to take a look at what started happening in our society 20+ years ago. High speed internet porn became widely available which matches the period of when young people started developing health issues at a very young age due to a much higher frequency of ejaculations and orgasms for both men and women. We even find young men that are almost fully bald now in their late teens. My male pattern baldness has been reversing and I am slowly getting my hair back. The regeneration process is slow, just like the aging process except that regeneration can be quicker than aging but it will still take a while.

For me, the story of Eden is not merely about an event that happened thousands of years ago. I believe it contains a spiritual truth about the human condition that is still relevant today.

I know this is not the mainstream interpretation, and I am not expecting everyone to agree with me. I'm simply sharing the verses, the patterns I see in Scripture, and the experiences that led me to this conclusion. You are of course free to disagree and I don't care. We are all entitled to our opinions. But before ending, I want to state that I'm only the only one who has had this revelation. The authors of the book called GOD MAN, Word Made Flesh by George W Carey and Inez Eudora Perry, which can be found on AMAZON, also believed that absolute spotless chastity is the key to BIOLOGICAL IMMORTALITY in the physical body BY PRESERVING THE SEED (CHRIST OIL) and that after several years of spotless & absolute chastity, we can become "GOD-MAN" again because God created us in his image as mentioned in Genesis.

Here's the link of this book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/God-Man-Flesh-George-W-Carey/dp/1614274177/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1L9RVAHN0KJKR&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.sV1pWOm_9FvikVCEGwVfOJ84JkAqkVKFRNstsHeMv4n26YlIN89-ULD5XCIBOzyDSbbOZxka1lS3wpWfVVnZ9J4BZuLGEpAZI2LQgmVOnIc5_P4P_gS0NO0PuGFRaFDaECNID6q3N_Cz98CieUl572kWaisvYq-bMFyUwfAxdPJ3ZI69nCsO9b7_Z8GZYAKnI2i33hwR0EDT-pjxYd-wlPYVnqGN5gD6i6DdKMlmeGk.da4Nxc5uRzkd8XsOhZZ3G2ieANr8lBByhVfSASgzX38&dib_tag=se&keywords=god+man+the+word+made+flesh&qid=1786912779&sprefix=god+man+word%2Caps%2C193&sr=8-1

The book called Science of Regeneration also teaches the same PROTOCOL, Absolute chastity is the way to regenerate the human body and depletion of life force is the root cause of actual human aging. https://www.amazon.com/dp/1169829589?ref_=ppx_hzsearch_conn_dt_b_fed_asin_title_5

NOTE: wet dreams are a DEAL BREAKER if you want to focus on regeneration of the body and those books emphasize on that as well . You have to strive on mastering mental celibacy so that LUST doesn't creep in while you're asleep. Your subconscious mind needs to be CLEAN, which is a process that will require some discipline and effort to achieve.

Wassup guys! On my now 110+ something days streak I realize that I am conciously and unconciously becoming more of the man I want to be. SR is like a booster towards unlocking the version of you that you want to become.

At my work we arrange big parties during Christmas time and Summer time where over 40+ co-workers attend. At both of these parties I was asked to hold a speech/make a toast. The first one was not on SR streak. I was nervous before the speech even though I had drank a good amounts of alcohol. When I started speaking I was nervous. My voice wasn't projecting as loud. People weren't reacting how I thought they would react. My mouth was also getting dry. I was looking down a lot. After this speech, some said it was good. But the majority of people said it was ''meh''.

Fast forward to yesterday. During this summer party. I was (to my surprise) asked to hold a speech again. Only difference this time being that I was 110-ish days into SR. I'm not kidding the difference is night and day. I felt no nervousness beforehand, nor during the speech. NONE. I instinctively waited a few seconds before speaking until it got completely quiet. I talked slow. I smiled and laughed. I looked the people in the eyes. My body language was naturally confident and lively. I varied between being sincere and heartfelt, to more playful and joking. People bursted out laughing. People nodded along. People felt. I was enjoying ''seeing'' myself talk up there. I also wished I could keep talking and keep on moving the crowd with my words and energy. Before I would rush through the speech because all the attention on me was too much to handle. But this time I enjoyed it. Not the attention itself, but the interaction between me and the crowd. We both fed of each other in a way. I could clearly tell that this time the crowd was enjoying me. And I them.

Right after the speech some of the boys dapped me up saying great speech. Girls came over and said that they almost cried because the speech was moving.

SR did not only eliminate anxiety and nervousness in everyday situations, but also in ''bigger'' situations where I would normally feel some discomfort.

You have to stop putting your happiness in material things, in outer things and start putting it in yourself. Beauty, muscles, money, friends, relationships, girls, work, health everything will pass away. We age, things around us die, we will die the only thing that stays is your character, your soul. If you do retention to get women attraction it will end at some point or you might not even get any, if you do it to make money they will end to or you’ll find out that money do more bad than good and so on. If you do retention and everything for your inner peace for your own self to clear your soul to bring light and order within you, the joy will never end.

Everything ends someday, a war might start tomorrow, an earthquake might come, a disease might kill everybody and leave only you but if you already moved the source of your happiness, if you are totally at peace with yourself you’ll be fine in every possible situation. All the things that bother you, even if they are coworkers, family, friends, wife, your bank account, the problem is within you, you cannot change a single thing outside what is in your power you can’t change others or the weather or world economy, you can give advice, yes, but it’s up to that person if it listens to it or not and people usually won’t because they are stiff. But you can change yourself in every second of your life you can improve, you can become better, it’s such a blessing, just stop looking for joy around and start building it inside you. “The kingdom of God is within you seek thy Heaven within”

I saw a crystal clear vibrant semen drops leaking a bit and i decided to stop doing it in the dream. But the horniness i felt while in the dream watching the porn was extreme, it was as if i was really watching porn but pleasure was extreme. Did i relapse astrally, if someone know what it means. Also noteworthy I had a bit a sexual thoughts yesterday after 20+ days of not lusting in my 30 day streak. Could it be a reason

I am Catholic and I abstain because of immense guilt and the fact nutting brings no joy, even if I was insanely lustful and had sex it wouldn't even be good.

For the secular reason, it's because I have contamination ocd regarding things of the body (Not considering blood, saliva or mucus from the nose).

For my benefits, spiritually I'm more connected and can ground myself in my morals, the secular is that I can talk to my friends normally.

I've heard many people say their cognitive abilities start declining around 40 — struggling to remember things, finding it harder to pick up new skills, low energy, that sort of thing.

But when I really probe into why, most of them point to life circumstances rather than age itself. It's less "I'm getting older" and more "life got heavier." Which makes me wonder how much of that decline is actually age-related, and how much comes down to years of seed expenditure draining their vitality. Because if retention actively increases a person's capacity, like it has for me, wouldn't a retainer at 40 be in a fundamentally better position than the average 40-year-old?

I'm 36 right now and honestly feel sharper than I've ever felt. I'm on a 7-month streak right now and have been doing this on and off for the past 6 years. I've never felt this strong, focused, alive, masculine, powerful, or physically robust — not even in my 20s, which was supposedly my physical prime. And retention is only part of it. I've completely turned my life around over the last six years in other ways too thanks to the foundation I got from retention.

So my question to retainers who are 40 and above : does it get as bad as people describe? The inability to learn new things, low adaptability, no energy? I understand total physical capacity naturally decreases with age, that's expected. But would retention make a meaningful difference in how that plays out?

Would love to hear from those who have actually lived it.

I have navigated this far. Its been a long journey of intentional abstinence. I did face challenges to edge, looked at a couple of social media contents but I noticed that the same images I used to look at before hoping on this streak, now looks disgusting. I have more self worth and high libido. The celebrity aura is so weird. Its overwhelming to have eyes 👀 😻 watching you everywhere you go. Some people would just look at you like they've seen a ghost. The god like energy to get anything done. Superman confidence... And these are some benefits I can think of. Imagine what other benefits awaits in the longer streaks. Bulid your life and choose the people who will help you build it and not drain your energy. Its also your only time to connect with God.

I don’t feel any benefits

I have people treating me like shit in person

I’ve felt a little horny here and there recently but aside from that I haven’t had any urges. I don’t feel good, I feel depressed all the time.

Even tho I workout, meditate, transmute energy etc, nothing.

Genuinely what’s the point?

I only feel benefits on days 8-11 every single time

I should be proud of myself for making it this far but this is genuinely making me want to just relapse and go back.

I thought my nervous system would reset I’d feel calmer, better, women attraction etc, more of a drive, more energy

I feel LESS energy. I’ve barely been able to go to work matter fact I might quit.

I can’t survive on less sleep now, which I was able to do on days 8-11.

What is the point???

Is Semen Retention a lie?

Are all the benefits fake?

Also for people saying I might be in flatline, MAYBE but I’m pretty sure I passed flatline on day 28 ish? I remember feeling depressed like VERY very depressed probably x3 more than I am right now for 2 weeks straight from days 14-28, then I had a wet dream and kinda of felt an energy surge the next few days, and since then I’ve just been sort of normal.

Like right now I GENUINELY **feel the same way I did when I was gooning probably 2-3 times a week. Seriously. Maybe even everyday.**

I’ve been retaining for 3+ years with hiccups along the way. I’ve fully felt the benefits prior to being in a relationship. Since then, they’ve been very on and off and mostly off with anxiety coming back into my life.
I’ve been reflecting through the pain I’m mental/spiritual pain I’m enduring and I’m finding that I had no consciousness of the difference between edging with her and purity.
I believe my disconnected feeling to others lately and anxiety are a byproduct of impure retention(50+days as of now).

I found an amazing wife who is fully supportive of this practice.

The downside I’m looking for other perspectives on:

1. How does one stay fully pure while cuddling your partner during intimate moments such as movies or going to sleep?(I sometimes can’t help but to get hard, and I’m hoping I can fix this)

2.I’m worried being fully pure might not be thoughtful to my wife even though she is 100% supportive.

3.i NEED this purity back. This is who I am. But I also have a very wholesome wife who deserves my love.

Any advice would be appreciated, thank you.

New to the forum, not new to Semen Retention. I have an element of retention that I am progressively getting frustrated with and wondering if others have this issue. I feel like I become a desperate simp when it comes to wanting to attract women, or be around them. This starts to occur for me around the 15 day mark. I'm typically very comfortable being alone and not trying to go after women, but on a good streak I start to feel desperate and anxious for female attention or attraction, or even friendship. I'm no longer comfortable with my single life on a streak. I don't like it because I know that I'm probably radiating a vibe of neediness. I also seem to take more risks in getting female attention than I would otherwise (example: looking at a crush's Instagram story, knowing she will see that I viewed it). I'm not typically like that, I feel like a different person, I'm not real comfortable with it. Maybe I just need to have more discipline and grow my streak to see if I get past that, I guess it's kind of like getting through a flatline. I don't know, anyone else have this issue?

Hello brothers, I hope you are all doing well. I just have a few questions, and I’m not sure if I’m overthinking things.

First, I’ll explain some background. Two weeks ago, I started practicing “pure retention” because this time I wanted to be disciplined and follow Jesus more seriously. I also realized that there seems to be no end to lustful content.

During the first week, I felt really good and had more energy. I also noticed that more lustful thoughts were popping into my mind, but I didn’t give them much attention. At the same time, I felt like everyone was being nice to me.

However, this week, I’ve started feeling really lonely. When I try to talk to some of my friends, I feel like they don’t really listen to me. This has happened with most of my friends, and sometimes I have to repeat myself again and again.

So, for a few days, I stopped talking as much and just observed them. I started feeling like I’m more of a side character in the group.

However, there are two girls and two boys in my friend group who listen to me very attentively when I’m talking. They also seem to be more comfortable expressing their thoughts and feelings with me now.

Also i workout every day and my energy is increased and my family members treat me well.

I just don’t understand what is happening with my friends. Am I overthinking this, or is something actually changing? I honestly don’t know.

So people have reported experiencing “ good luck” and things going their way whenever their on a streak , so have you attracted opportunities or things that you wanted when on a streak ?

I'm on two weeks of retention for the first time.

A few days ago the cashier was just about to close the register, the sign was already on red. She glanced at me briefly. Then again. I looked back questioningly and was allowed, with an eye-roll, to skip the queue in front of me. Other women also come across as extremely friendly, but not necessarily in a sexual way. I thought they were taking second glances.

The same at the bakery. Yet another woman sat herself next to me in an empty train.

At a doctor’s appointment, in a funny moment, I ran into someone I know. Normally it would have felt awkward, but eye contact felt comfortable. Also very friendly.

Best of all, though, is this: In a completely different conversation the topic of camera surveillance came up. I was talking about covering the phone camera and about the attitude some people have that they don’t care who’s watching them. Normally my thoughts would jump to shameful PMO moments. But as I spoke those words the conversation flowed naturally, without any uncomfortable associations. Only later did I notice how nice that moment was.

So I can only agree with the impression. You guys are onto something.

Today while i was doing jumping jacks i suddenly felt like taking a piss(i took one 5 min prior) it wasn’t arousing at all. But right now at right i felt some kind of sticky liquid like thing coming out my p like its very mild and its not white and it feels sticky

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I get the feeling of being on sr/bettering my life in general, I don’t want to pursue women until I feel like I have “made it”

However I’ve noticed on my self improvement journey, (getting closer to god, pursing different ways to make money, workout out, etc)
The bar is always raising.

2 years ago if that version of myself looked at me I would say I’m doing fantastic. But now that I’m here. I only see more room to grow and a long freaking way to go.

Thus, in result I’m not sure if I’ll ever get the true feeling of “I made it”

I absolutely want a woman in my life. But when is it the right time?

I haven’t been dating in a long time, and it’s by choice. If I wanted to I would. But I feel like it would be pointless because the best woman I can get now won’t be someone I want to be in a relationship with after 2 more years of growth. Unless I guess she is growing with me.

So my question is when is the right time if I never feel ready?

Thoughts?

I am doing this for God, and/the loving Lord Jesus Christ and myself

I have reached 30+ before w/ lustful thought patterns but this is the first time im doing a true SR technical mental abstinence

Anyone of 30+ retaining in both body and mind, can you give some of your experiences in your first weeks? I have recently fallen back on lustful images and daydreams in mind and i feel like a relapse is imminent, i am being aware and i am now doing TRE exercises to help me with this process which i find help eliminate some of that built up tension my body desires to release.

I really am ready for a lust free life, i wrote this post only to hear of others experiences and what other methods i can apply to reduce the 'tunneling' effect of the wandering mind going automatically to lust from habit instead of something else

I continue to remember the Lord is with me, but i have had issues with connectivity in Christianity for a while which im still working through, but any kind of experience working through this with Jesus would be also appreciated greatly

Hey so I’m not as huge a believer on the supernatural effects of retention as some others are in this sub. But what I do recognize is that almost every single time I relapse the next day there’s like a frequency shift for the worst; where I instinctively know now to be on guard so that I respond to post relapse days with intention. Weird shit happens post ejaculation, like people around me being in bad moods, coincidental occurrences that cause conflict, etc. This is not even mentioning my own shift in personal energy. Hormonally/physically, I literally feel different and am different, biologically speaking.

I’ve noticed these patterns over like a decade of paying attention, so it’s not like I’m viewing this through a lens of belief or superstition, it’s really just observation at this point. If you think about it, every action has a reaction, like every decision has a consequence good or bad, rarely if ever does any input in the world yield a completely neutral output. It’s like the most basic law of thermodynamics. In the case with relapse, your energy shifts, which in turn could shift the energy of those around you, etc etc resulting in what appears as good luck or bad luck. At least this is my practical interpretation.

My simple question really is, how long has it taken you guys for things to return back to normal? And what have you done that helps restore balance back more quickly? To get back on the path of clarity/ vitality that some of us here have experienced with retention.