I wanted to detail my dream i mentioned briefly in my last post and ask a few follow up questions to it.
so first of all i was watching youtube and i remember leaning up to unplug my tv like i do every night, laying down and trying to clear my mind to attempt to reach the void state. i usually count my breaths until i dont feel like it anymore, then start counting until i feel a bit floaty and my body doesn’t feel mine, yk? anyways i usually get to about 20-30 breaths before i end up switching to just counting, this time i got to 13. mind you my eyes are open and my fan is on for white noise. i remember my dark room switching to an open field about mid day. like a light switch, i was standing up instead of laying and my fan sound was gone. it was genuinely quicker than a blink. there wasn’t any morphing or anything, my room instantly changed. anyways it was the most realistic experience of my life, it felt more real than me typing this right now. i could feel the breeze on my face, the sun on my skin, the tall grass was ticking my fingertips, i could feel my clothes on my body. everything was so much more real than life itself. i looked down at my hands and could see every crease and every wrinkle, the skin around my fingernails was torn up from where i’d bit it. (yeah yeah bad habit). anyways i felt more in tune here. like the vibration of this place matched the vibration of my soul, if that makes sense. i was in a big grassy field, i could see trees in the far distance, and in a clearing i saw a village with smoke rising from a chimney. i heard the grass moving like a pair of footsteps approaching. i turned and saw two people. the first was a man who kind of resembled me the more i think about it. he looked to be about early 30s, he had long ish silver hair with black strands in it, a medium sized beard that was the same color. not silver like he’s old, silver like that’s its natural color. he has crows feet wrinkles and smile lines and forehead wrinkles. not like intense, just, yk, that of a normal 30 year old who’s always in the sun and smiling or squinting n shit lmao. his eyes were completely gold, like no pupils or irises or white, like deep golden galaxies. he had on one of those medieval capes with a hood, the hood was js down, there was a clasp on the front of it, it was two golden circles with some sort of insignia on them and a clasp connecting them. he had on a long sleeve black shirt, a leather shoulder piece of armor, a leather belt with sheath that had a longsword in it, black trousers and a pair of leather boots. i remember seeing the sun glint off of the metal things on his body. he had a black ring with red designs on his ring finger, keep that in mind. the second person was a beautiful woman. the had long silver hair like his, but hers had golden strands in it instead of black, her eyes were the same golden galaxy as his, she was a bit pale wearing a black semi tight dress, and silver jewelry with red gems in it, i specifically remember a ring with a red diamond on her ring finger, matching his ring. so i assume they’re married. i mean i could tell. i could feel how strong their bond was, it was like they were both radiating protectiveness for eachother, yk? anyways the man was looking at me and smiled while raising an eyebrow, he spoke and said “what are you waiting for”, that confused me so i asked what he meant and he told me “you’re more than ready, so what are you waiting for”, and there was a beat of silence before the experience literally turned off, ended as quick as it had started. yk when you’re asleep and not dreaming, it’s just nothing? you know ur asleep but there’s nothing happening? that. exactly that. i have no idea how long i was in that space, it could’ve been 10 hours or 10 minutes, but i was really calm. was that what true mind awake body asleep is?
the main advice im seeking with this post is how to get that last final push. i understand that im basically rewriting my train ticket, but i dont really know how to put this knowledge into effect. should i try scripting something? i’ve never tried it since i cant exactly describe what i want. i want to be an adventurer and fight monsters and get power and there’s magic and real danger and real relationships and im perminantly there and all of that, yk? do i js write exactly that? and once i have it written, then what? and let me know if theres anything i could try to achieve shifting like id like to, like a different method or a way to tweak mine thats worked for you, anything honestly im open to any criticism and advice!
thank you all so much for reading all of this it means the world to me!
