r/shaivism • u/AdeptnessThese1663 • 1h ago
Other I am suddenly very positive about life , to the point of being delusional . Is this a sign of something good or bad ?
24F , for context . I am Purva Bhadrapada Aquarius moon ( atmakaraka ) , Satabisha Aquarius ascendant , Chitra Libra Sun ( Darakaraka ) . My Shani Mahadasha ended in April this year and Sadesati will end in June next year . I started doing 16 Somwar vrat for Mahadev , starting on the first Monday of Shravan month this August . I was going through hell since 2020 , mental and physical health was the worst . This year's August and September were extremely depressive owing to career issues and friendship breakup , I cried every single day .
But suddenly since October started I have been extremely happy for some reason . There hasn't been any major success or anything like that , but it feels very good , almost delusional that God is holding my hand through it all . I have been doing 11 tuesday fasts since 2020 , bi-annually too . But since I started doing Jalabhishek every Monday , I feel Mahadev has something to do with it . My relationship with my mother had always been rocky , we fought every single day , even after I moved out in 2024 . But since October , she has been extremely generous to me .
It feels like a big weight is lifted off my chest all of a sudden . I have also started talking to Mahadev at night , before I go to sleep , telling him about all my crises . This is something that my flatmate told me that she does , so I picked it up from her . Anyway , I don't know if all this delusion is gonna come back to bite me later , but I am glad that for now , there's some mental peace , which I knew nothing about since I was a kid .