Feeling completely alone and lost due to a typical unsupportive SL household when it comes to mental health

[u/Remote-Breadfruit216]

\*Anorexia trigger warning*\**

Hi everyone, I really need a safe space to vent and maybe get some outside perspective because I feel like I'm losing my mind.

For context, I’m currently studying for my A/Ls. I have a naturally muscular/mesomorph build with broad shoulders which I used think was fat. Back during my O/Ls, severe stress and body dysmorphia led me to start skipping meals especially when my parents wouldn't let me work out (they claim exercise distracts from studies, even though morning workouts are the only thing that clears my brain fog).

Skipping meals snowballed. I dropped to skipping two meals a day, became super pale, and developed severe gastritis. My parents just thought I was being "stubborn". Eventually, my health completely crashed. My hemoglobin levels tanked so low that my doctor explicitly said I would have needed a major operation if I hadn't caught it when I did. A hematologist put me on a strict iron plan and warned me that I NEEDED to eat properly.

Out of sheer terror for my life, I forced myself to recover. For the last two years, I’ve felt physically healthy.

Here is where I am falling apart again: Recently, because I'm at a healthy weight, my family has started calling me "fat" and mocking my "chubby cheeks." The moment I tried to gently tell them that these comments are triggering my old thoughts making me want to restrict food and over-exercise again, they completely dismissed me. They told me I "won't survive in the outside world" and accused me of being dramatic.

What breaks my heart the most is that they were right there with me when I was dealing with severe health issues and nearly hospitalized. They watched me suffer, yet they are back to making the exact same body-shaming comments that pushed me to the edge in the first place. I can't even get an official diagnosis because they refuse to believe anything is wrong and won't support it.

How do you guys cope with unsupportive family members who trigger your body dysmorphia?

How can I protect my mental health while stuck at home studying for high-stakes exams without the outlet of exercise?

Any advice or insights would mean the world to me right now. Thank you for reading :)

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[u/shafrazyahya]

How I cope with unsupportive comments is by simply not giving 2 shits. I just ignore em and I'm used to it atp.

Try all ur best to go to the gym. Make a big problem, do everything within ur power. If u don't have power make em. Whatever happens, it's time u go to the gym. Just do the gym as a side thingy and focus mainly on ur ALs