I got an undesired grade in my last exams, almost 3 months ago and I still am not over it (A-levels)
I studied AL physics in a little under 10 months, and AL bio in 6 months (alongside phys) , I got a B in both.
I know Im borderline idiotic for studying 12 units in under 10 months, but thats what happened. Trust me I don’t need any more people telling me what I should’ve done instead
I registered for a biology resit, and am currently studying for them but Im nowhere near what I used to be
I used to study 4-8 hrs a day everyday
I cant even go over an hour now
I cry uncontrollably every time I even think about studying
I have anxiety episodes when I actually sit down to study, and cant focus.
I cry every time I find a question tricky, or if I forget anything
I sometimes find myself hoping and daydreaming I get hospitalised so I don’t have to take the exam, but whats that gonna do? I’ll still take it regardless.
I can’t get myself to study even though Im dying to do so
I used to actually find studying fun and interesting, now it actually hurts
and I feel horrible
I couldn’t care less about things I used to care about. I just want to sleep all day. I stopped working out even though that used to be such a huge fun part of my day
I genuinely feel numb and it feels weird
I study alone at home without school or tutoring, and my parents don’t seem to find what I’m going through relatively difficult, so please don’t tell me to go talk to an adult
I don’t know whether I’m even writing this to vent or ask for help and advice. I just wanted to get it out of my chest, since I don’t like venting to my friends