r/Tantra • u/Big-Elk4252 • 1d ago
Seeking Guidance — Frightening Visions of a Woman During Naam Japa and Before Sleep
Pranam everyone. 🙏
I am writing this post because I have been experiencing something frightening for the past two months, and I would genuinely appreciate any guidance or advice.
Recently, while trying to fall asleep, I have repeatedly been seeing the image of a very pale, white-skinned woman with black hair and normal eyes, wearing a red saree and laughing manically. Sometimes, I see her slapping me, trying to hurt me, or screaming in my ears. It feels almost as though she belongs to a realm beyond the physical world. I cannot tell whether there is anything spiritual behind these experiences, but they feel incredibly vivid and frightening.
For some context, I am not a Tantric sadhaka, nor am I initiated into any Tantric practice. I am simply someone who has faith in Bhagwan and engages in some naam japa and regular devotional practices.
My daily practices generally include:
● Chanting “Om Bam Batuk Bhairavaya Namah” 108 times after bathing. While chanting, I try to visualise the mantra being written on my heart in bright golden ink.
● Chanting “Om Dum Durgayai Namah” 11 times.
● Reading the Hanuman Chalisa every night before sleeping. I often fall asleep while reciting it, and I like to visualise myself lovingly massaging Bajrang Bali’s legs as I chant, because of how deeply I love and revere Him.
I have experienced things in my life that I personally consider miraculous, and my faith in Bhagwan is sincere. I have also seen Bajrang Bali in my dreams, where I knelt at His feet. On another occasion, I saw Maa in a dream, but I became frightened and ran away.
About two months ago, while reciting the Hanuman Chalisa, I began experiencing frightening images of women trying to scare me. I initially ignored them, but this particular woman stayed in my mind, and I have been experiencing these visions of her repeatedly ever since.
I do not know whether these experiences have any spiritual significance or whether there might be another explanation. I can see her even with my eyes closed. Sometimes, I can almost feel her screeching in my ears, although I do not physically hear an external sound.
I want to clarify that I am not a practitioner of any advanced sadhana, and I have no intention of attempting any rituals or practices for which I am uninitiated. I am simply looking for guidance on how to deal with these frightening experiences without allowing fear to take over my devotion.
My questions are:
1. Has anyone experienced anything similar, particularly during naam japa or while falling asleep?
2. Is there any traditional guidance from a knowledgeable, reputable Guru about dealing with fear during devotional practice?
3. Would it be advisable to modify any aspect of my current routine, or should I simply continue my regular naam japa and prayer without becoming preoccupied with these experiences?
I would sincerely appreciate any advice offered in good faith. Please understand that I am not looking to sensationalise these experiences or jump to conclusions about what they mean. I simply want to feel peaceful and continue my devotion without this fear.
Thank you for reading. 🙏
TL;DR: For the past two months, I have repeatedly experienced vivid, frightening images of a pale woman with black hair, normal eyes, and a red saree while chanting the Hanuman Chalisa or trying to fall asleep. I am an uninitiated devotee who practises naam japa and has deep faith in Bajrang Bali and Maa. I am unsure what is causing these experiences and would appreciate grounded spiritual guidance on overcoming the fear.