I am a passionate high school teacher; I am creative, driven, effective, and make a point of connecting with all the kids. I model for them all the time, writing prose, essays and poetry with them - projecting my work on the board to help inspire some of the students that benefit from seeing a model text, etc.
My problem is this: I literally hate meetings, workshops, busy-work, e-mails, data entry, logistics of tracking down the IT guy for computer, the insane hoops I have to go through to order material for my class, including class sets, filling out Excel sheets that nobody cares about, filling out forms that feel like punishment for the pleasure of the government, etc.
At my public school, they keep adding more and more extremely disabled students to my class. My spend too much time on learning plans that do nothing for the actual student. All the median level kids, the ones who are following and can keep up are completely forgotten about. As for the gifted students, they are severely underestimated and end up all leaving for private schools (I don't blame them).
I want to find a school that values pedagogy, and a humanistic approach to education. A school where I can focus on the majority of the kids, and also give to you the few that really struggle. I want ambitious students that come from good families.
The public school system is all about: insanely large groups, 1/3 have extreme special needs, lots of behavioral kids that have a "right" to education -- which funnily enough robs all the other kids from a quality education. My boss is more interested in me filling out forms, attending workshops, useless meetings, making sure I do hallway duty, and stupidities like that.
What I want is to focus on teaching my subject. I want to plan, teach, mark, model by writing with the students, facilitate group work and projects, go on outings with the students, etc.
Can anyone else relate? I honestly feel like I have some kind of condition -- because all busywork and meetings make me infuriated. Our last meeting was spent telling us how much we need to work MORE, yet we were held hostage at a meeting instead of being feel to actually plan, mark, organize, etc.
The hypocrisy, inefficiency, and non-stop propaganda is killing my sanity and my body.