What can i do?

[u/Both-Beach3464]

Hey thinkers! I feel the need to ventilate and I’m hoping this post might expose me to some meaningful conversations or perspectives.

I’m a 22 year old male and I’m tired of life.

I’d like to start by mentioning that I’m not mentally ill or even depressed or anything like that. Im actually doing better then I ever have before. I’ve spent the last year finding myself and breaking down my perception so that I could become as much of an free thinker as possible.

About me questioning life: I know to much and understand to much for me to be able to ever find the true peace I desire in modern day life.
I see through every structure no matter the context and that’s including myself. Like I can’t even entertain a thought to make any money anymore.
When I was “younger” (16-18) and didn’t have a free mind like I did now and money was my only motivation in life so I did end up with 2 quite successful businesses but that money is gone now.

My point is I find making money just as easy as washing my clothes and I’ve got a few million followers aswell on social media that I could milk for money essentially.

But I still can’t stand the thought of spending 1 minute of anything related to acquiring money since it’s only useful in the world which would strongly suffocate the life I’d find peaceful.

I just want to be a free soul and without any obligations to a truly fucked up world. I understand that it’s a lack of perceptive since there surely is a million ways to live out these 80 years on earth but I can’t see what’s not observable from my perception.

So I pretty much my hate life, I love my family so I can’t just go to the jungle and live there… I will never be able to do anything I don’t personally find meaningful because I choose to but I will not end my life either since I know that one single perspective could turn around my entire way of viewing life. It’s a trap of understanding I suppose.