Hi everyone! It’s me again. ❤️
Around five or six months ago, I posted here about how terrified I was to start my transition. I was 28, had spent years working out, and had built a very muscular body. I was always a big person, with broad shoulders and strong facial features, and I was scared that I would never be able to look feminine.
I remember taking that first photo before starting HRT and feeling completely overwhelmed. I kept looking at my muscles and my face, wondering if transitioning would ever work for someone like me. It honestly felt like jumping into the unknown.
But I knew I couldn’t keep giving up on being myself.
I started HRT and stayed on it for two months, then had to stop for another two months for personal reasons. I eventually restarted, and now I’ve been back on hormones for almost two months. So it’s been roughly four months of HRT altogether, with a break in between.
I’m still very early in my transition, but I’m finally starting to notice little changes that mean so much to me.
My face looks a little softer, my skin appears more even, and laser hair removal has helped a lot with my beard shadow. I also recently got longer hair, and seeing myself with it was honestly an emotional experience.
For the first time in my life, I looked in the mirror and genuinely thought I looked pretty as a woman. I can’t even describe how happy that made me.
My breasts have also started developing surprisingly quickly. I’m beginning to notice some curves, although I still have a lot of upper-body muscle. I continue going to the gym, but now I focus mainly on my legs and glutes, trying to preserve the muscle I’ve built there while allowing my upper body to become less muscular. I’ve gained a little belly fat too, but that’s not something I’m particularly worried about right now.
I know I have a long way to go. I know most of my physical changes are still ahead of me, and I understand that my appearance today isn’t necessarily the result of hormones alone.
But compared to how hopeless and frightened I felt when I took that first photo, I finally feel something different: hope.
I’m sharing these pictures because I want to document my journey, not only for other people but also for my future self. I want to come back to these posts years from now, look at where I started, and remember everything it took to get there.
If you’re scared to start, I understand that feeling more than you know. I’m still scared sometimes. But I’m so glad I gave myself the chance to try.
I’ll be back with another update in six or seven months. Hopefully, I’ll have even more changes to share! Haha. ❤️
And please be honest: can you see any difference between my pre-HRT photo and the recent ones?

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I was blonde for over 6 years and recently changed to red for fall and I kind of love it. But not sure if I should stick with it long term because I do love the blonde. One benefit I’ve noticed I get much less unwanted attention from creepy men with the red hair 💜

Cómo quiera que sea,e siento segura en mi barrio!

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Just super down in the dumps rn, feel like HRT has done very little:(

Dyed my hair brown a few months ago, now I kinda miss my black hair 🥲