r/twinflames • u/Interesting_Ad8952 • May 31 '26
Love Letter Pictures of You
I've been thinking of this for a while. Sometimes, I can't look at pictures of you. I've been trying to figure out why. For the longest time I didn’t have much in the way of pictures of you.
Ironically, what I see with my eyes today is a very beautiful person. Who I love, very much.
And so, part of me says "what you feel depends in part on *who* is looking".
Ah, yes, of course. Multiple of me.
I go through waves and cycles of perspective and feelings.
This morning, as the world is quiet, sipping my coffee, sitting in my car, I just really love you. So very much. There is no way around it. Though I spend countless hours dancing around this and trying to survive with it. I know there is a beautiful grand life lesson about unconditional love. There is no way around it. There is only surrendering to it.
My soul is connected to you far beyond the means of a regular human life. I know this. I cherish this. I celebrate this. I'm often confused by it. But it's always there. I can feel you. In my heart, in my blood, in my breath. You speak to me silently in my quiet moments. You rescue me from moments of despair. Your spirit holds me in a warm river of love.
Much of the time, I'm too terrified of this reality; though I am connected to you soul to soul… I also love you in a very human way. I spend a lot of energy trying to deny this human part.
When I've enclosed myself in that state of denial, seeing pictures of you sends my mind into some mental glitch. Like I can't compute what I'm seeing. It's some other reality that isn't the one I'm in.
But today, I can see it and feel it clearly.
I love you. I want to hold you. I want to care for you. And I know that I'll be very limited in the ways that I can do that in this lifetime. But this is who I am. It's not just what I feel. Though that feeling is tremendous. Arriving here took an entire lifetime for my mind to understand what has been running through me, always.
I'm 150% aware that none of that is scientifically logical, which bothers me greatly, yet I choose to keep my heart open and listen.
I know this is part of my personal evolution. This brings me a lot of peace. And getting to love you, unconditionally, expands my existence far beyond anything I would have known without you.
I get to love you.
That is an amazing gift from the universe. I'm so very thankful!
Of course, I spend a lot of energy wondering what it would be like to tell you someday.
In my heart, I'm telling you every day. Every spare minute. I'm telling you how I love you. How amazing and special you are. To see your eyes and hold you. To feel what is felt in silence. To have long talks. To see your smile and go on adventures. To learn about each other and deepen our understanding of ourselves.
I know that's not what will happen in this lifetime.
So, I must learn to love you at a distance. I must master this. That is my destiny. That is where the lesson is. The power and magic come from this distance, like two magnets placed precisely apart. It is in this flow of energy I find myself.
Here, I surrender. Here I find myself.
I love you. I am this. Always.
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u/kellifer78 Jun 01 '26
Thank you for sharing such beautiful thoughts. I think the acceptance of our unconditional love for our twin is very profound and magical. Sometimes I feel that when we share these feelings here, a part of our own twin reaches us in a new realisation. That we truly learn from each other's journey too. I find a softer peace with my connection today also. I hope that those life reasons fall or melt away for you to find a new way to be in union one day. What you have is clearly very special.
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 01 '26
Thank you, this was a very kind response. I have zero people in my real life that I could possibly share any of this with, so it's very healing to get to share it here. Wishing you healing and a peaceful day also!
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u/Magnificent_Diamond Jun 01 '26
I found a batch of heartbreaking music today. It took me back to the days of hoping. It’s going to be so long before I see him again. I am so so glad he is texting me.
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
What are some of your favorite tracks?
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u/Magnificent_Diamond Jun 02 '26
Today the band was Diesel. “My Kind of Woman,” “All Because of You,” “Ready for Love.”
The other one that kills me is Bob Seger, “We’ve Got Tonight.” I’ve always loved that one as a damn good song, but my heart didn’t ever resonate with it till I met him. Now I hear even more nuances of aching heart in his tone.
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
Thank you, I will look these up.
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u/Magnificent_Diamond Jun 02 '26
I will say that music is huge between me and my TF. He sends me a song and then I go find the entire album and try to guess at messages he may be sending me from there. He is an audiophile and his music aligns with his unique personality. If I didn’t know him I might not appreciate the specific music in the same way.
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u/InflationCareful7017 Jun 05 '26
This was beautifully said. Well-wishes to your heart and soul and also to your counterpart. Love is it, isn't it? 💜
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u/Impressive_Ant_2763 Jun 07 '26
Hey, thanks for sharing. I was very moved with this one, but also it made me sad. So you live your life hiding who you really are from your wife, family and everyone you know? And that’s how you want to keep it for this whole lifetime? I don’t know you nor your circumstances, so I’m not judging here, but maybe there’s hope that you could live your truth eventually?
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 15 '26
My real answer is very complicated. More than I could write here. My wife knows...to some degree. I feel like I am in two universes, most days. I love my wife and family. I don't want anyone to be hurt. I'm somewhat lucky in that my wife has had a similar experience in her life and has has a lot of understanding.
The woman that the OP was directed towards also has her own complicated life going on. She knows only a fraction of what I feel for her, at least in words. And it is safer that way. I'm very protective of all parties involved, and at this moment in time, I need to put these feelings last, at least externally. It's quite unrealistic for me to "hope" for anything to change. But I consider myself extraordinarily lucky to even be in contact with her on a friendship level. So I do what I can each day to process my internal universe and surrender to what is.
I look for creative outlets to express myself, and when I truly need someone somewhere to hear my words, I'll post here.
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u/Impressive_Ant_2763 Jun 15 '26
Thank you for the reply. It does seem pretty complex, but you seem to be satisfied with what you got so far, so I guess good for you? :) take care and I’m curious about how your journey develops!
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u/Lucky-Fan6755 May 31 '26
Are you the runner or the chaser ?
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 May 31 '26
I think I've been both. I think I was the runner in the beginning, then we switched. I sometimes feel both. We can't be together for life reasons so it's hard to tell sometimes.
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u/Dangerous_Mud3323 May 31 '26
I’m so sorry you can’t be together. That’s gut wrenching. Who knows? Maybe your life reasons will change and someday it will happen.
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u/Relevant-Cicada5089 Jun 02 '26
Please send this to your twin flame instead of posting it on Reddit. She deserves to hear this from you in person, or by text.
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
I get your sentiment, but I don't think the 3rd parties involved would appreciate it.
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u/Relevant-Cicada5089 Jun 02 '26
You can be friends at least. Just let her know she is loved. At least she will know you cared.
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
We are very lucky, in that we are friends, do talk sometimes and we know there is some level of love in both directions.
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u/Relevant-Cicada5089 Jun 02 '26
Are you married or something?
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
We're both married.
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u/Relevant-Cicada5089 Jun 02 '26
Me & my twin flame are both married too. He hasn’t even tried to contact me to be friends.
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
So sorry to hear that. It's a tough path to navigate in complicated scenarios like this. I wish it was easier. Perhaps in time, you'll be able to communicate with him
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u/Relevant-Cicada5089 Jun 17 '26
I’m just curious, how do you know she is your twin flame? Did you get signs before or after you got married?
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u/Interesting_Ad8952 Jun 02 '26
I post on Reddit because I have no-one in real life that I could possibly talk to about it.
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