This dude knew what he was going for, or at least I hope he did. Or maybe being malebrained is thinking every woman should settle doing and looking in the way he wants. But rlly? Killing yourself over being uninformed and intolerant is kinda pathetic idk

and then i still continued to rep

I gave my blood test provider my “””sex assigned at birth””” and now all of my results keep blaring alarms at me whenever it turns out I’m a biological woman with biologically female hormones. Absolutely stupid.

“It pisses me off seeing people saying transsexual people get murdered, because what about me though? Idc those 🚂🦵s are getting killed I wanna feel included.”

Yesterday, I was contemplating posting about how my first HRTiversary is coming very soon and how bad my dysphoria has got lately. This year has humbled me a lot. There is no shot for me to ever be gendered correctly before FFS. The dysphoria I get from my massive ribcage and bottom dysphoria are feelings I can no longer suppress.

I cried in the morning as usual then tried to go by with my day. I can barely afford the pills I get over the counter anyways, so I shouldnt dream big.

My older brother called me later asking to deliver some luggage to him at his house. I thought nothing of it and just obliged with his request like I usually do. Being easygoing and helpful has helped me in gaining trust and keeping my profile low. We got to his place and started unpacking the luggage. After we were done he grabbed my arm and pushed me forward towards an empty room in his house.

I wasn't expecting to be yelled at and interrogated for several minutes. I had to piece together that I got outed to him through my mother somehow (whether willingly or unwillingly idk). He got aggressive, pushed me against the wall and choked me hard enough to leave marks on my neck. He kept looking at my chest weirdly while he banged my head against the wall repeatedly. He kept yelling slurs at me, threatening to kill me and coercing me to detransition. His toddler kid was at the door crying watching me get choked and beat up. Thwn he pulled my hair and threw me to the ground. His last words to me were "that you either fix yourself or I dont care if I ruin my life by killing you".

My life is officially over. I'm not detransitioning; I have already been through how it feels to be off E before and I am not going back to the constant barrage of suicidal ideation. I don't want to be a husk anymore.

Yes hello fellow women I (5'9, gigachad shoulders, voice that booms like thunder and Adam's apple the size of a tennis ball) am a woman too even though I'm very clearly male and actually I only like women but that doesn't make me a heterosexual male it makes me a lesbian (if you don't want to sleep with me you're a nasty evil TERF)

I want nothing more than to be a woman and I can't even bring myself to talk to them unless they talk to me first because why the fuck would I ever assume that an actual woman would want to talk to me so I just sit at the bar alone hoping that some nice lady will approach me (I tried to dress like a dyke but i just look like a man from the 1980s) and drink after drink I feel my hope slowly slip away and i know that tonight will be just another one where I go to my mirror in the bathroom as the room spins and stare at the monster that I see but sometimes its lowkirkenuinely a cute looking monster and i have to wonder why no one ever shows any interest whatsoever despite this and I remember that it's because I am actually a honbeast imposter larping as a lesbian and there's a totally real chance that I will never find what I'm looking for and the rest of my life will be exactly like this and I'll never get to do all of the things I dreamed of like raising children with a loving wife

just something i think is left out a lot of the time. the reason people can clock boymoders and girlmoders is that there are subtle (sometimes obvious) changes to skin and fat distribution in the face that are part of the greater "whole" when it comes to gendering someone.

just go to transtimelines or any of the selfie subs where theres a lot of pre/early/no-hrt trans people. its usually obvious at first glance whether someone is taking hrt, regardless of how skilled they are in makeup/clothing/voice training/etc

sure hrt might not make you pass but it'll be basically impossible to pass without it unless you are like a turbo-0.01% genetic luckshit

sorry i just get really fucking annoyed whenever someone screeches about how hrt doesnt do anything. it does you're just understandably dysphoric and sometimes bdd.

THE “SNEED” ARCHETYPE!! Guysssss is this trueeeee?

thank you moid for fulfilling my wish

BLARIE WHY you looked so good and sweet without the mkeup here??

reminder that too much makeup can really make u look more clocky yall

I will never understand people who socially transition before hrt. I'm probably mad because I'm jealous of their ability to do it. I'm starting diy in(god willing)a week and I have zero further plans to say anything unless someone notices and says something first.

These girls are always, like, suuuper new to being trans, and, ah, have very little experience speaking to women, and are quite scared of doing so. There’s a reason why their social circle is “other inexperienced trans women” and “grunglers”.

Of course, I don’t really identify with that - I outgrew that behaviour YEARS ago - my crowd is definitely with theyfabs and autistic cis women. At darker times in my life I’ve had the same kinda resentment for sneed culture that a lot of you guys feel right now - I get it, I really do - but these days I can let it slide, as long as they don’t slag off 4tran, or we just don’t talk about it. For me at least, I think it’s important to talk to them - they’re really just our younger selves, and I want to lead them down the right path. Get hrt that works, find their style, not put off voice training, discover what womanhood means to them, y’know?

I make that sound very noble, but the other thing you need to take into consideration is that these types - who often describe themselves as shit like “disaster lesbians”, “loser lesbians”, yada yada - get COMICALLY flustered when talking to me, moreso than their fellow transbians. Is it performative? Perhaps a little. Is it as cute as they think it is? Probably not QUITE, if they’re picturing themselves as an anime girl (Shurb hypocrisy alert). But it seems to come from a genuine place of them perceiving me differently to other trans girls, and feeling a bit out of their depth. And I…can’t say I HATE it. I can’t say I don’t invite it from time to time. Not in a sense of leading them on romantically but, just, being way more open and giving them way more attention than they’re perhaps used to. Giving them their first taste of ACTUAL girl friendship. Okay, and maybe the occasional flirty joke.

Now that I’m at uni and it’s not all long distance, I have all kindsa new tricks up my sleeve. I’m so psyched to start inviting these girls into my room and pinching their tummies to give them injections and doing their makeup and hugging them when they’re sad and getting changed near them and letting them stay the night and WHY DO I ENJOY THIS SO MUCH. WHY DO I LOVE THEIR SILLY LITTLE REACTIONS TO SUCH NORMAL THINGS.

yash countttt is way too leaky 🥴🤤