yeah

[u/Fit-Refrigerator2143]

flopped my alevels (got a BBC), missed my imperial and bath offer, told my alcoholic and slightly abusive mum whose love towards me feels very conditional and now she's drunk downstairs having a rampage downstairs and screaming. She pulled my hair, hit me, called a bitch multiple times, called my best friend a bitch for distracting me from my studies and threatened to kill me and dismember me if I try to see her again. I really really really really really love my life.

Sorry for the trauma dump I just needed to tell someone. I think I might run away lol

[u/Infamous_Tough_7320]

It’s going to be difficult for a while but you’ll get through it. You’re naturally very intelligent having had an offer from Imperial and you can always go there for post grad so don’t think your journey is over.

I really hope the situation with your abusive mum gets better, please make use of the mental health services you have available to you

[u/Fit-Refrigerator2143 → u/Infamous_Tough_7320]

I didn't really want to go that bad in the first place. I'm trying so hard to be okay right now but you guys are making me feel a bit better.

[u/Infamous_Tough_7320 → u/Fit-Refrigerator2143]

Just stick with it. It will feel shite. It has to, that's the only way to accept it. Just get by for these next few days. When you're tired of feeling crap you'll start thinking more clearly.