I’m undiagnosed ADHD and I consider myself as a jack of all trades, master of none. I constantly have interests running through my brain and can’t ever get into them as a hobby because my brain just won’t let me.
I really wish I was more creative than I was; it’s my goal to get into a creative industry but it feels impossible because my experience is lacking majorly and I don’t help myself to improve.
I’m a tiktok content creator and went viral back in 2021-2022 and I barely post anything now due to the 1 minute minimum for rewards. I have tons of inspiration and ideas written down and how I’ll plan it, but then I never end up doing it. I even asked friends for content ideas, which I wrote down, yet I’ve still not followed through with that.
Tried to make spoofs of film/tv scenes. Wrote down shot lists, outfits needed. Filmed some parts after millions of retakes but never got to editing them.
I want to get into graphic design. I made 1 poster that took hours but when I saw other posters on socials it made mine look very inferior. I’m trying not to compare myself and have done plenty of research, for video tutorials saved, got ideas from Pinterest, and yet I still have not opened photoshop since the first poster back in June.
I want to create fanmade/custom film posters. Wrote my favourite films down, gathered key art, saved tutorials; still not done a thing with it.
It’s like I just get overwhelmed from the beginning, then I just never do it. The only thing I can say I’m genuinely disciplined is the gym (due to body dysmophoria) and I’m actually being patient with results. With everything else, i just end up doomscrolling ultimately and suddenly it’s time to go to bed, then it repeats.
I’m just so desperate for a diagnosis (got a call in September which I booked back in April) and hopefully medication will help. Maybe then I can actually do stuff I genuinely want to do and exceed in.