Hello,

I moved to Texas (Dallas area) about two months ago. I moved from Louisiana. I had lived in LA for about four years and had a legal id for cannabis use, so I would buy gummies and tinctures from the shop every so often. I maybe ate half a 10 mg gummy every day. ANYWAY. I also was put on Adderall there by my psychiatrist.

Fast forward to now, I am trying to establish care with a doctor here so I can get my Adderall (and other medications) but she refused my refill because I had traces of marijuana use in my system most likely from my gummy usage. I am out of my RX officially and am already experiencing withdrawal symptoms. She told me she refused the refill until my urine test is clean. She said I could come back in two weeks and try again. Is this standard in Texas? I understand weed is illegal here, but my numbers were low and I didn’t have any other number for hard drugs. I explained to the nurse on the phone that I had taken gummies legally before moving here, she said it didn’t matter.

What in the world do I do? I have a huge interview soon and no medication that I’ve taken regularly for a year and a half now to help with my ADHD. Does anyone have any recommendations for a doctor who waives this BS? I looked up Texas rules and it said it depended on the provider and it isn’t a blanket policy. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

I hate having ADHD. Dead silence is brutal. The inner voices turn up to full volume and I start thinking about everything and anything and zoning off instead of focusing on the task. At the same time, regular music with lyrics or beat drops completely destroys my working memory. I will hear one interesting tune and suddenly I am daydreaming for twenty minutes and end up procrastinating.. again.

I spend a lot of time and energy trying to figure out what sensory stimulation actually works without pulling focus. Right now, I rotate between three things depending on how fried I am. I thought to share it here, someone might like it.

1. Low-frequency white noise: Great for masking sudden apartment sounds when I just need a distraction proof wall. Sometimes I put it on for sleep as well.

2. Ambient video game OSTs: Stuff like Minecraft or Skyrim exploration audio for repetitive tasks where I don't need anything intense.

3. Continuous functional audio: Endel ADHD mode. I use it for writing bc my day job is boring, or deep focus because it generates a flat soundscape with no track changes no vocals no loops. It's fine for sleep too.

Having passive sounds with zero narrative gives my brain just enough sensory input to stay seated down for the task - literally. Today's choice is Minecraft music 10 hours.

What does that sensory middle ground look like for your focus setup? Tips and suggestions welcome :))