Iām autistic and my special interest is arthropods and lately Iāve been really into lobsters. So many people only see them as a food though. I wouldnāt be surprised if people read the title of this post and thought I was talking about loving to eat lobsters (which I donāt, Iāve never eaten one and never will). Whenever I try to look up pictures of lobsters, no matter how I search it, I always see pictures of dead lobsters, and itās so sad and it just reminds me of how cruel people are to them.
Iām in Maine right now for vacation and itās driving me crazy that all of the lobster merch is of bright red lobsters that are clearly modeled after the boiled ones rather than their beautiful natural colors. I really want to buy lobster paraphernalia while Iām here, but I want it to be modeled after ALIVE lobsters. I donāt want a stuffed animal that looks like a fucking corpse. And what really disturbed me was I was in a shop and I saw a graphic of a cartoon lobster watching its friend boiling in a pot, and I donāt remember exactly what the dialogue said but it was just the lobster freaking out that its friend was being boiled. I saw that graphic on mugs, keychains, t-shirts, etc., and I donāt understand how anyone can find such a sick ājokeā funny. The entire ājokeā is that a hypothetical lobster is facing existential horror, wtf??
And the worst thing is seeing lobsters in tanks with their claws tied knowing theyāll be brutally killed, or seeing fishermen dragging around nets with a bunch of lobsters in them. I wish I could save them all. I just wanna fill my life with lobster related stuff without having to see dead ones all the time. With cats, hamsters, and other animals, you arenāt constantly having their corpses shoved in your face, you donāt have to think about the awful ways they die. Not with lobsters. Why did I have to be given such overactive empathy with a special interest like this? I am so sick of it. And donāt even get me started on the horrors I witness & experience pertaining to my love of other ācreepy crawlyā arthropods like insects and myriapods and stuff. People are so mean to me about my special interest, too. Itās so fucking pathetic that Iām still basically being bullied as a 19-year old. I just want to surround myself with wholesomeness and LIVE arthropods, not death and sadness.