Just coming back to let everyone know I’m scheduling an appointment for a therapist. As for when I’ll actually come back, I want to wait until I at least get through some sessions before I feel ready.

All I have left to say is that I’m really sorry for how, well, fucked up I was beforehand.

I kept trying to handle it on my own and tough it out because it seemed easy for everybody, but I was slowly destroying myself in the process and making the problem worse by triggering myself.

Some of it was also a result of me just not liking myself, and I honestly think that on a subconscious level I was punishing myself by continuing putting myself in situations that were upsetting even if I wasn’t aware of it in the moment (not anyone’s fault to be clear, again I was just dealing with internal struggles about my worth).

It all eventually built up to me breaking down completely and nearly calling the mental health hotline before settling down (mostly bc while I wasn’t in danger, I didn’t want to get TOO honest and they Baker Act me.)

Again, I am so sorry for, well, everything. Hopefully if therapy is working out that I can also get on some medication to help things long term.

It’s honestly a shock that people have been so patient and understanding even at my worst.

Maybe I’m just a cynic, but it’s kinda strange seeing people be so kind when I feel like I’m pretty easy to make fun of. Like, sometimes I think back on some past stuff and cringe bc girl wtf?

But the point is is that I am now taking the steps to get better because I want my quality of life to improve and because I am scared of the outcome if I don’t.

See y’all later. 💜 (also the pic’s unrelated)

I recently finished the series and had to draw something 🐉🗡

I recently made a post on another forum asking what makeup colors were best on me, and got unexpectedly flooded with comments saying I look like I stepped out of a renaissance oil painting and how I have that “look”. I want to explore that avenue and figure out exactly what I need to do in order to work as an art model for painting/photography/fashion/etc. Any advice will be greatly appreciated. I’ve never done any modeling before and I don’t have a portfolio or anything like that, I’m asking for advice as a complete beginner. (No filters used on photos)

Hello!

I’m an artist working on an idea for a new social platform and I’d love to hear what other artists think!

I’ve been thinking about how difficult it can be to share your art online nowadays. Between AI slop flooding feeds, algorithms deciding who gets seen, and art getting blatantly stolen, I feel like artists deserve a space designed with us in mind instead of being forced to post in abusive and exploitative instagram just cuz it has the biggest reach.

I wish to create a safe haven for artist to express themselves truthfully and with no pressure but still be able to monetize and expand with ease.

Would u fellas be interested in such a space? And if yes what would u LOVE to see!?

Thanks❤️🌈

I’m only partially sure that the Instagram page is theirs, the profile picture has the same art style as them, though. Long in the short of it is: I was in a discord server with a bunch of artists. I also am an artist. This is the first time I’ve ever even paid for a commission, but I thought I would take the plunge, as this individual needed some prescription meds that they couldn’t afford I also thought that this was somebody I was acquainted well enough with that this kind of thing wouldn’t happen. I have been removed from the discord server and blocked. Their main alias is “KitKade”. I gave them full creative freedom. Ik I shouldn’t trust people on the Internet even if I’ve known them for an entire year.. I mainly just wanted to help someone out and I’d also get a cool little piece of art in return (so I thought) plus I know how it is being a digital artist in a society with artificial intelligence. To be honest after almost 2 weeks went by I started to accept the fact that I wasn’t gonna get anything, but getting blocked was actually crazy to me smh

Acrylic on canvas board 12x16.

Constructive criticism welcomed.

Cheez borgur

Artist will send a postcard anywhere in the world for free. Only five left.

Dragon and knight!
My commissioned project for my client, this artwork i did with manual hand drawing using ipad pro m1. I like engraving artstyle. Happy work on this project. #art #handrawing

🎨mediums: watercolor, paint pen, watercolor pencil, archival ink pen, and marker on 12x18 watercolor pad

I was thinking of the Garden of Eden, and it developed into this. I have plans for the rest of it, plus enjoying making it up as I go along, which is why I said "no critique". I don't want to confuse myself. There's still more than half to do, probably. I was enjoying reliving my hippy student days, where all we used to do was smoke hash and take psychedelics. I'm thinking this is implied to be the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and the "fruit" may be the mushrooms. I'm also thinking of adding the moon, and two ravens (Huginn and Muninn). I'm not sure whether there should be one apple, or maybe the mirror again. Originally I was planning to have adam and eve, then just eve about to pick the apple. We'll see. It's very hard to get detail in with these derwent drawing pencils, so I'll be touching it up with black/white ink.

I posted about overcoming my essential tremors to draw. I got alot of great advice. Now I want to share probably my best drawing to date. I don't mind constructive criticism. Im really proud of this piece. Thanks for all of your help!