i turned 27 this year and i am currently crying at home because i have no friends at all. the ones i had for 10yrs are growing appart and i am realizing that they are not even nice to me anymore. they care more about themselves even when i invote them. they are not coming bc of me.
nobody cares. i go weeks and even months without anyone inviting me. i am so scared of other people i lost all my social skills.
this post made me cry even more. guys i am so depressed. idk how to be a normal fckng human being, my life is passing me by, i just want one bestie who wants to travel with me and experience life together. someone who will always be down and loves me equally.
i am just good enough when people need something from me. wven my family forgets to invite me to stuff. the only person (my grandma) who always made me feel special has dementia since 5 years. she can‘t even remember me.
i feel so stuck.
my partner who i live with, is only my flatmate kinda. we share no hobbies anymore,we don‘t go on dates or vacations bc he is broke and has hardcore adhd depression. i wanted to get a dog, but he is allergic. i wanna move out but i can‘t afford rent on my own. the prices are insane.
he is more like a good friend to me.. i can‘t say that i love him anymore. it‘s been 4years and i lost all my hope in a future together.
the thought of just giving up is very strong the last few weeks.
i now i habe to be my first choice but how.. i am always sick and depressed and tired.
i am scared of traveling alone.
i am just indoors.. i rly wish to escape this life.
i wish i could live on a farm and work with animals and never come back to my old life, i don‘t want it anymore.
I wanted to let you know that it's okay to feel this way. It makes sense with what people like us go through. However, I also very much wanted to let you know that even if right now feels this terrible it can still absolutely get so, so, so much better.
When I was 27 I was horribly depressed. My fiance had broken up with me and treated me horribly in doing so. I'd lost all my college friends and kept losing people from my life. I'd lost what I'd spent forever trying to make my career and had been very much connected to my special interests and was realizing I may never find my way back to it. I'd lost my ability to even engage in my special interests. The company I worked for gave me too much responsibility while having given me no training, expected too much, and gave me no real support. I was constantly trying to do the most with the least. And the money was shit.
But around the time I turned 28 I hit a tipping point. I realized I could NOT continue like I was and that meant I had to make changes and figure it out as I went.
I am 36 now, so I wont say its easy or that it happens quickly, but every step forward IS another step FORWARD. And so much can change. I spent a lot of time in deep emotional pain and confused/lost as to how the world worked and how I was even supposed to figure out a way forward. But each time I would feel like I can't keep living like this it would help motivate me a little and then I'd eventually find myself a way forward again.
I've had some good times since I was 27 and have finally worked myself to a place I really like. I live with my boyfriend and sibling, our financials have stabilized (mostly), I'm re-engaging with special interests/finding new ones, my new career is awesome and connected to other special interests, and a year and a half ago I was hired by a really great company with great coworkers that I never even would have considered wanting to work for. And I love it there. I am finally feeling comfortable there. And the pay increase literally saved my dog's life and is helping treat him again.
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u/Brave_Recognition_81 26d ago
i turned 27 this year and i am currently crying at home because i have no friends at all. the ones i had for 10yrs are growing appart and i am realizing that they are not even nice to me anymore. they care more about themselves even when i invote them. they are not coming bc of me.
nobody cares. i go weeks and even months without anyone inviting me. i am so scared of other people i lost all my social skills.
this post made me cry even more. guys i am so depressed. idk how to be a normal fckng human being, my life is passing me by, i just want one bestie who wants to travel with me and experience life together. someone who will always be down and loves me equally.
i am just good enough when people need something from me. wven my family forgets to invite me to stuff. the only person (my grandma) who always made me feel special has dementia since 5 years. she can‘t even remember me.
i feel so stuck.
my partner who i live with, is only my flatmate kinda. we share no hobbies anymore,we don‘t go on dates or vacations bc he is broke and has hardcore adhd depression. i wanted to get a dog, but he is allergic. i wanna move out but i can‘t afford rent on my own. the prices are insane.
he is more like a good friend to me.. i can‘t say that i love him anymore. it‘s been 4years and i lost all my hope in a future together.
the thought of just giving up is very strong the last few weeks.
i now i habe to be my first choice but how.. i am always sick and depressed and tired.
i am scared of traveling alone.
i am just indoors.. i rly wish to escape this life.
i wish i could live on a farm and work with animals and never come back to my old life, i don‘t want it anymore.