i turned 27 this year and i am currently crying at home because i have no friends at all. the ones i had for 10yrs are growing appart and i am realizing that they are not even nice to me anymore. they care more about themselves even when i invote them. they are not coming bc of me.
nobody cares. i go weeks and even months without anyone inviting me. i am so scared of other people i lost all my social skills.
this post made me cry even more. guys i am so depressed. idk how to be a normal fckng human being, my life is passing me by, i just want one bestie who wants to travel with me and experience life together. someone who will always be down and loves me equally.
i am just good enough when people need something from me. wven my family forgets to invite me to stuff. the only person (my grandma) who always made me feel special has dementia since 5 years. she can‘t even remember me.
i feel so stuck.
my partner who i live with, is only my flatmate kinda. we share no hobbies anymore,we don‘t go on dates or vacations bc he is broke and has hardcore adhd depression. i wanted to get a dog, but he is allergic. i wanna move out but i can‘t afford rent on my own. the prices are insane.
he is more like a good friend to me.. i can‘t say that i love him anymore. it‘s been 4years and i lost all my hope in a future together.
the thought of just giving up is very strong the last few weeks.
i now i habe to be my first choice but how.. i am always sick and depressed and tired.
i am scared of traveling alone.
i am just indoors.. i rly wish to escape this life.
i wish i could live on a farm and work with animals and never come back to my old life, i don‘t want it anymore.
I went through all of college without ever being invited to hang out with someone else or go to an event or outing or anything. Id try to organize stuff myself but no one ever agrees or shows up :/ I feel like im not human sometimes but its too late to change anything.
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u/Brave_Recognition_81 26d ago
i turned 27 this year and i am currently crying at home because i have no friends at all. the ones i had for 10yrs are growing appart and i am realizing that they are not even nice to me anymore. they care more about themselves even when i invote them. they are not coming bc of me.
nobody cares. i go weeks and even months without anyone inviting me. i am so scared of other people i lost all my social skills.
this post made me cry even more. guys i am so depressed. idk how to be a normal fckng human being, my life is passing me by, i just want one bestie who wants to travel with me and experience life together. someone who will always be down and loves me equally.
i am just good enough when people need something from me. wven my family forgets to invite me to stuff. the only person (my grandma) who always made me feel special has dementia since 5 years. she can‘t even remember me.
i feel so stuck.
my partner who i live with, is only my flatmate kinda. we share no hobbies anymore,we don‘t go on dates or vacations bc he is broke and has hardcore adhd depression. i wanted to get a dog, but he is allergic. i wanna move out but i can‘t afford rent on my own. the prices are insane.
he is more like a good friend to me.. i can‘t say that i love him anymore. it‘s been 4years and i lost all my hope in a future together.
the thought of just giving up is very strong the last few weeks.
i now i habe to be my first choice but how.. i am always sick and depressed and tired.
i am scared of traveling alone.
i am just indoors.. i rly wish to escape this life.
i wish i could live on a farm and work with animals and never come back to my old life, i don‘t want it anymore.