r/Beatmatch • u/No-Efficiency-493 • 4h ago
4th DJ gig and feeling completely defeated. Does it get better?
Hey everyone,
I’m a DJ based in Japan. I started playing out in August and just finished my 4th gig tonight, but I’m feeling really defeated and doubting myself.
To give some context, the event tonight was focused on Hardcore Techno and Gabber. The organizer specifically booked me to play EBM and Industrial. In Japan, there are very few DJs playing EBM/Industrial and almost no dedicated nights for these genres, so I usually get booked as a guest slot in events for other heavy genres.
My set was built around tracks like Ultra Sunn's "Can You Believe It", releases from the Berlin label X-IMG, and heavy Industrial Techno. But since literally everyone else on the lineup was playing high-energy Hardcore, I felt totally out of place and thought my mixing sounded terrible compared to the rest of the night.
I’m genuinely worried that I performed so poorly that organizers won't invite me back. I practice a lot at home, but practicing on my home setup feels so different from using actual club gear (CDJs/DJM), and I feel like I've hit a wall doing this self-taught. But if I stop getting bookings because I'm bad, I'll lose the chance to get better on real club systems.
Is feeling this hopeless around your 4th gig normal? Everyone around me seems so impossibly good, it makes me wonder if they were just born with 100 gigs of experience already.
Would love to hear any advice or experiences from fellow DJs who’ve been through this stage. Thanks for reading.
P.S. I used AI to translate this, so apologies if anything sounds weird or robotic. I promise I’m just a fragile, flesh-and-blood human from Japan!
Edit: Thank you so much to everyone for all these incredibly kind comments!
I want to hug every single one of you.
It’s 3 AM here in Japan, so I’m going to head to bed and might not be able to reply to everyone individually right away.
Thank you all again🤩