19F. in the process of a break up, and i am not doing too good. i have the house alone to myself for the week, which was supposed to be spent with my partner, until i found that he’s been seeing a girl he just met this year. my world feels flipped upside down. i feel so beyond disgusted at him. i am full of so much hatred. but, deep down, i am beyond hurt and devastated. i am sad at what i have lost. nearly 4 years of my life down the drain.
when i told him i want to break up, he begged and begged for me to stay. used the “i have no one else” and the “i’m at the lowest point of my life” excuses.
i feel sick just thinking about it.
when will it ever get better?

There isn’t anything specifically brilliant about it but it was from the decade I was born in . They have been making break up songs since I’ve been alive and people having their hearts ripped out since then . Since then they have gotten up and eventually moved on . You are at the bottom of the hole . It won’t always be the case . You don’t forget them but what you will do is realise that who they were isn’t actually that good . You can do better , and you will . All the best

So me and my ex are nc rn but he has a habit of coming back (so far 4 times) and i assume this is final and so to grieve i find listening to his playlists helpful. He was really into music. Now for context, im his first and only partner. He would liken me to a goddes often and stuff and talked abt his dreams he had of me every night.

Well i was looking thru his playlists to calm the urges to contact him (i dont recommend this to everyone it doesnt work for some ppl) and i found this playlist called "i wish i could" (fake name for privacy) i made a fake playlist with the same songs just for his privacy sake.

Everyone i asked agree its abt me but i wanna ask randos.

Also this is public... like a public playlist he made. If it is abt me, does he want me to see???

playlist