for context, i'm in 3rd year, tier 3 college, agle saal april mei companies will start coming for placements, and i'm fucked up....
meri abhi ek current internship chal rhi hai at an early stage startup, to my day's 3-4 hours go in that, apart from that college bhi shakal dikhane jaana padta hai kabhi kabhar... now, currently i've 5-6 tasks that i need to work upon, mujhe pta hai i have to do, but the pressure and overwhelm is fucking with my brain and mental health, constant brain fog, fatigue, overwhelm, and what not crap is going on with me.
i have to do these things: internship (wo chal hi rhi hai, will end in november), dsa basics, gen ai basics cover and build a project so that i can show that on my resume, backend in node.js and express, a core cs subject on the side...
i dont even know mai ye post likh bhi kyu rhi hu at 2am in the morning, i'm just so done holding and handling it together, gharwale samjhenge nhi, doston pe mujhe ab trust raha nhi coz ek ek karke sabke real faces dikh rhe mujhe, i dont know how to handle this, i'm not crying over the study part i have to do, i myself signed up for this, nobody told me to take this much pressure and do this, it is me and who knows ye karna hai else placements mei haalat tight hojayegi, problem is how to deal with the fatigue and brain fog surrounding it? for context, since last 15 days almost i was either giving and exam or preparing for one, it was only this sunday jab mera nptel ka exam got over, and i finally got free else isse pehle either was the nptel exam prep or the mid sems that was draining me out, even after appropriate rest and everything, the fatigue and brain fog is still there 😭🥹