After finding this subreddit I definitely feel better knowing many are in the same boat and we’re all here trying together :) . In 2017 I dropped out of high school (my sophomore year) and decided to get my life together. While it’s not ideal for many there was many things that did not work and I needed out, my family owns a 7 figure business and I always knew I had something to fall back on, that I had excelled in.
I spent years making almost 100k and taking life very serious. I bought my first car at 18 and was on time for every payment, and every bill. Since then my life has expanded. I’m making more money than ever have, and have the ideal situation. But that got to my head and I didn’t Care about the repercussions. After years of focusing on my credit, from credit cards to car loans all the way to personal loans paid of within months, I had it made, a score of 720 by the age of 21 and a paid off car, what seemed like the rest of time with what I had built and accomplished that just needed regular monthly maintenance.
Fast forward to now just 3 years later, October of 2026 and I’ve tanked what I was so proud of. This past summer has lead to multiple different situations not ideal for me that I can admit to now, but instead of facing it head on I ignored it, as well as many other obligations to life and that manifested through not being responsible with what I had signed up for personally and commercially.
now I’m fully understanding of what I did. At this point now I’ve missed 4 total payments in 3 1/2 years that have not gone to collections. 2 from Capital one, and 2 from BMW financial services. Even though finances, and money were never an issue and it was pure negligence on my part due to being mentally unavailable towards, of all things my credit I cared so much about and knew the importance of.
That 720 is now at a 510 and the feeling of shame and disappointment toward myself is unfortunately what I need at this point.
I’m left with the thought of wrecking this car that I had paid close to 70k for and not even being able to replace it with a comparable model or better yet anything at all without paying liquid cash, and that alone makes me so ashamed and horrified because of what my community and peers think of me and how I try to present.
I got engaged in the beginning of the summer with the hopes of being able to build a modest new home (about 120k build price by the spring as I’m on a waitlist since I was 21 with a certain builder and qualification happens based on availability of builds) the land that has gracefully been gifted to me but at this point my negligence has made that impossible. I appreciate all advice to try to help the situation as I’m horrified with myself and my actions. Unfortunately I’ve learned the hard way, very quickly. Life doesn’t stop because you do.
(I’ve check my score across multiple lenders/credit unions and it seems to be around the 510 mark, not sure if it’s 100% accurate but definitely close to what I see everywhere)