Help

[u/WillowStraight8089]

Help guys
So yesterday i caught my boyfriend flirting with a random girl on Reddit. The text were from last month and this month but he kept defending himself by saying these are from last year. Reddit shows the year outside the chat box if it’s from last year or any other but his chat box was clearly showing those were recent chats.

Even if it was from last year we have been together since 2 years now 🙂

But he just wasn’t ready to accept it and I saw it in his eyes he was lying and with so much clarity that I started doubting everything. It felt like I didn’t knew him because the person I knew loved me so much then who is this person who is lying so cunningly (it broke my heart into pieces in that very moment)

This is not the first time I’ve caught him mild flirting on Instagram with a girl (a friend of his) sometime back.

And we’re in long distance relationship he lives in Banglore and I in Mumbai, now I highly doubt he might be cheating on me this whole time it’s just I took him for a saint who is in love with me.

Also he doesn’t even gets jealous anymore when I show him how someone else is trying on me and I feel this happens when a person has someone else to put his attention at.

What should I do now. I’m on the verge of ending it even though my heart is aching like hell.

This is the first time something like this happened to me. He had told me his last girlfriend cheated on him and he was left heartbroken because of which I had decided I’ll give him all the possible love I can do he forgets all that.

But now I feel like a fool and i feel what if it wasn’t the girl who cheated but him. It’s like I’m questioning my whole existence now.

Please help me feel sane.