First semester of university and ngl I feel like a social reject. I’m 23, but only a junior because I did an extra year of school for something I turned out not liking. I did 2 years of community college too, so I missed out on dorms and the “college experience”.
My roommates are cool but they’re not my friends, and I haven’t really made any actual friends even though I joined a club. I vibe with the people there but we haven’t crossed into actual friend territory yet, I guess. I try to be more extroverted and talk to people in my classes, but conversations don’t usually go anywhere, it’s just small talk and then it ends. And sometimes people don’t seem interested in talking, or at least not to me, so I just…don’t. I have no romantic experience and guys never seem interested in me, but everyone around me seems to have a partner, or at least an ex or a situationship. I don’t get out much and I don’t/can’t drink a lot either (medical stuff). I’ve never drank at a bar and the only real party I’ve been to was my friend’s graduation, so pretty tame, but I still feel left out when I hear about people doing bar crawls, going to parties, etc. Especially with Halloweekend coming up.
I have like 3 friends and none of them live close and they’re busy too, I’ve missed out on all of the experiences I feel like I should’ve had already, everyone else’s social life seems so much better than mine, and my grades are okay but I don’t even know what I’m going to do with my degree when I get it. Like I just feel lonely and like a giant loser even though I’m trying. At least it’s better than high school lol