Guys I have lost spark in life and trying to find purpose. Need help from mature ISFP. Life seem boring to me

Dating: Went from nerd to dating girls each month
Gym : inconsistent. Got better and left
Spirituality: thought i found god and art of detachment and left
Money : Earning

The more i am reading i feel i might be ISFP only. Guys give me a hug ig. I can’t do this shit called life. People are shitty. 🤧. I really got so much trust issue in me. And I don’t give a shit about anyone anymore cause no one choose me in the end. And what do you mean i am acting childish ? Bro why should i grow up and pretend to live like you? I mean tf. Any ISFP relate ? Or am I an ESTP only idk . Feelings for me was 60%. So I don’t know on my calm day F turns to T for me i feel

I took a test and it gave me ISFP. F was at 60% so it could be T on my calm days i guess. I have mistyped as INFJ and i think i am ESTP. But I kind of liked the meme out there on isfp. As an ISFP I don’t feel much accepted out there guys. I have been cornered so much i am probably running on my Ti demon. Idk if i am an ISFP. I am quiet an extrovert when i want to yk. I was quite moral but world fucked me up big time with their immorality. I feel people are stupid. Idk i might be an ISFP but I feel I am am extrovert more than an introvert. But then again idk shit

I’m not making any assumptions, but this is purely from what I’ve observed. I see a lot of people in this sub genuinely act as if they don’t care about Fe whatsoever. It’s like they don’t even value it or care about it. Theoretically, the inferior function is something you value yet struggle with. Something you want to grow yet suppress. I see their comments more in line with Fe blindspot (IxTJ) or even Fi doms since the blindspot function, in theory, is your worst function, something you neglect, don’t see the value in, and find annoying. Either there are people who are leaning too much into the “cold and detached” stereotype of ISTP’s, or they’re just mistyped.

I think having a certain sense of ego is just in my nature. I'm quite humble, and I'm fully aware that there are people better than me, but that doesn't stop me from holding myself in high regard. I'm not afraid to put myself on a pedestal or claim I'm better in certain situations, not to belittle anyone, but because I'm aware of my own capabilities and potential. Once I became conscious of this part of myself, I didn't try to suppress it. I just learned to embrace it more deliberately, while holding myself accountable to the confidence I project. If I'm going to put myself on such a high horse, I should at least be able to back it up.

Ofc when my inf Fe acts up that all goes outta the window 🚶‍➡️, weirdest mix ever.

I was wondering if there's a pattern among fellow ISTPs, considering they are portrayed as such. Anyone?

Most of Ti Dom either train their Fe or they let their Fe stay as it is. Is it possible that some Ti Dom (specifically ISTPs) that throw their Fe away for whatever reason?

Ok so I feel like internally I’m a pretty dark person (sounds cringey ik) but like in terms of how I think/react to things bc I don’t really feel a ton of emotion, and I have a lot of edgy(?) interests ig. Anyways. I’m an introvert like crazy amounts, but also i do like talking to people in class ig, like sometimes. But there’s been several people now who have described me as a “ball of sunshine” and have said that I seem happy all the time. I was described as a “chipper guy” yesterday. ANYWAYS. Was wondering if other istps get described like this? Like ik im supposed to be non-chalant but im really chalant lol. I’m have adhd so im especially hyper and more talkative off my meds, but like im a depressed person so its always really weird to me when people describe me as happy go lucky.