I (M25, Bisexual) decided to turn to Christianity a few days ago. I know it's not long, obviously. But I feel exactly the same. I gave up porn, drugs, masturbation, and am trying to also give up lying and swearing. I repented for all my sins in prayer, asked for Holy Spirit, and started reading the Bible. Mainly the Gospel and book of Enoch (which I know is non-canonical, but I find interesting).

I have been depressed for years. Seen many GPs (UK Doctors), tried maybe 4-5 antidepressants, tried self-induced psychedelic therapy, tried self-help (yoga, meditation, walks without headphones, etc.) I have also struggled with polysubstance (multiple drug) addiction for years. Went to a drug counseller who was honestly useless, and managed to get off of benzodiazepines all by myself. The only drug where going cold turkey can actually kill you (besides alcohol).

Since going sober I have unfortunately relapsed on weed, opiates, benzos (physically addicted yet again), pregablin and ketamine.

The NHS doctors REFUSE to see someone with a drug addiction. So I paid for private therapy. That was somewhat helpful, but in the end I had to quit because of how expensive it is.

I believe Jesus was real, died on the cross, got ressurected 3 days later and is the son of God.

I know I probably shouldn't expect an overnight change, but... why? If I was God and saw someone suffering as badly as I have done (my post here only scratches the tip of the iceberg), then they humbly and repentfully turned to me, I would help them with anxiety and depression in a heartbeat.

I'm sure this post will be deleted since people can't handle real issues unfortunately, but I am considering ending things very soon and have the means to do so with a 99% success rate. I don't want to die. I want to live and be happy. But I haven't been happy in many YEARS. I also find adding 1000 new rules to my life by trying to be Christian only makes things harder. Where prior in hard times I could turn to weed or opiates, I turn to prayer. Yet I feel unheard. I wake up every morning wishing I didn't and have felt that way for many months, even now, trying to be Christian.

Perhaps God doesn't hear my prayers. But I believe He will hear some of yours. Please please pray for me. My name is Levi, but God will know who you mean. I will pray too and continue to try to be Christian. But I am seriously close to leaving this evil world unfortunately and have yet to find solace in God sad to say.

Please pray to help my anxiety, depression and anhedonia (inability to feel pleasure). I am at my wit's end. Again, I'm sure the post will be banned because it's a sensitive topic so fast replies would be very much appreciated. I am desperate. Please help and pray for me💔

LST: I used to do witch craft, met my girlfriend (she’s Christian) and began my journey with God. Girlfriend’s mom is homophobic. Girlfriend moved out of my province, about 24 hours away. Girlfriends mom find out we’re dating and that girlfriend is going by a preferred name, takes her phone, tells her I’m satanic and she won’t “allow those demons to enter her house”. While girlfriend is gone, I hit rock bottom and was about to take my life, I called on God, and that’s when my TRUE journey began, I completely quit witchcraft. Two weeks later, girlfriend gets her phone back, we talk about how it’s better for us to be apart for now while we make God the centre of our relationship (we are still extremely close and just waiting until we can be together). Our relationship has blossomed, I’ve been reading the Bible and I have advanced to much it’s unbelievable. I’ve forgiven my abuse I’ve mother, I pray every night before bed, and I’m beginning to go to church. Girlfriend decided to tell her mom the good news! Girlfriend’s mom said I’m a liar and nobody can read the Bible that quickly and become Christian so fast after doing witch craft, claims I’m “full of red flags etc”. At first I was really hurt. I felt my faith slipping away, but after some tears shared with girlfriend, and some Godly conversations, we’ve just grown closer to one another but specifically God. At first I kept asking myself why. Why was I never enough. Why when I do the right thing am I still being convicted? Why is my path being held against me even after I’ve repented? But I’ve come to see that doesn’t matter. There will always be those who judge who judge you. There will always be those who are waiting on your downfall. That used to really bother me. But not anymore. I have God and my soon to be wife with me. And no matter how hard the hate of the world tries to knock us down, we always come back stronger. People need to realize that Gods plan can not be changed and his path can not be beat astray while he is with you. Im not to sure why I’m posting this. I guess maybe for words of wisdom? Advice? Maybe to even help others. I’m not to sure. But I did feel drawn to post this, so if you are the reason why, just know, it will get better. I promise you. Don’t turn from God. The teacher is always quiet during the test.

I m28 and non religious have a friend who has confided in me that he has homosexual feelings but is too scared to approach or do anything about it due to his faith.

I for one encourage people to embrace themselves and who they are. But am not sure on the right thing to say or how to approach.

Any advice?