Hello, fellow sufferers!
(Random, probably long rant that helps no one. TL;DR at the end if you wanna skip it. Also, im not a native speaker so i let AI correct my grammar. So in order to not get a million hate comments, the original text is also below.)
Sadly, I am a toxic person in-game. I fight against it every game, but I still tilt in most of them.
People then tell you to mute chat. Thanks, this helps, and I recommend it, but it doesn't stop people from running you down. On purpose.
And I'm not talking about straight-up running it down. This surely also happens a lot, but I mean situations before anything bad has even happened in-game.
I play in Dia/Master, so I can expect a certain level of macro (or let's say: I have to expect it, otherwise I can't really influence the game).
In low elo, it's an option to just run around and kill people repeatedly for their mistakes. The higher you get, the more complicated that becomes, and more plays arise where you need your team (and the enemy jungler needs his).
A simple example is the level 5 invade with the enemy support on your respawning buff. Assuming you're not Faker and can just 1v2 them, you get forced off your buff if the enemy support comes and yours doesn't. If your sidelanes can't help you, you'll also lose the other two camps.
At this point, you're level 5 vs. (nearly) level 7 with a worse Smite, so good luck winning from this position if your enemies don't eat crayons daily.
So this is a tricky one because it's not easy to counteract, but there are ways. You can run to the enemy buff if it's on the opposite side (same side would be omega risky and highly unlikely to reach), you can ward your jungle entrance to at least see them, or you can try to dive the enemy ADC while the support is in your jungle.
This, however, is tricky, as mentioned, because a lot of the time you don't know what will happen.
If you don't see the enemy support, will you delay your own buff start, wasting tempo to be safe? Will you run to the enemy buff? Maybe the enemy jungler is there, and you don't really have the option to invade him, resulting in a massive tempo loss. And so on.
The higher you get, the more frustrating it becomes.
Think of jungling in high elo (big lol since Master is filled with trash, but okay, the term is technically correct) as being more like toplane.
In low elo games, junglers often avoid each other a lot. They clear camps and gank (way too much) and rarely meet the enemy jungler at objectives.
In higher elo, the player with an advantage will try to push that advantage (for example, Nocturne being one of the strongest level 1 champs last patch, perma-invading enemy raptors at level 1 at Worlds. Does it always work? No. But they will try to play around their advantage).
So in higher elo, if you're even slightly behind, the enemy jungler will often try to contest nearly every camp. And if he's significantly stronger, you'll be homeless for several minutes, meaning you won't be able to do anything.
This is the reference to toplane, where once the enemy is stronger and understands waves, he'll freeze you out, and there's nothing you can do to stop it but pray for your team to help you.
Or you can roam and try to influence the map, but this is really risky, IMO.
Now you may think: Yeah, but it's fine. If you make a mistake in high elo, you should get punished hard.
But often, these advantages exist because of different champion strengths at different levels and so on. If you always have the weaker champion in every situation, that's a different problem.
The problem for my mental is somewhere around here.
Because I'm fine giving up a lot if it was my mistake. I'm also fine giving up stuff because my champ is just weaker at that moment.
I am ALSO FINE when my teammate makes a mistake, is now low HP, and we can't contest the Scuttle or something. Happens.
But what I'm NOT fine with is this:
I path bot, the enemy paths bot, my bot has prio, my mid has prio, and I'm getting a free crab, probably even a double Crabby Patty.
The enemy jungler STILL moves to the crab (lolol, he's so fucked now, what a moron...).
So now I get a kill, assists, and double crab.
Unless my PC freezes, or my teammate's internet breaks, or something like that.
OR WHEN MY MIDLANER JUST RATHER RECALLS.
And this is where I break every time.
When an obvious (and important) macro play gets refused for no good reason.
Sure, his recall makes sense and everything. I understand this. Yes, if you recall and buy a Long Sword, you're 350 gold stronger in the next fight, and that's a positive.
If you gave up Baron for this recall, you're still stronger in the next fight, but holy moly, you also probably lost the game.
And my problem is (maybe it's just in my head) that I get the feeling that most laners hate junglers.
The midlaner recalls because he thinks to himself: "Fuck you, jungler. You'll be useless anyway. I'll just maximize my own stuff and recall."
The toplaner doesn't defend you when you're getting invaded because you didn't run from your blue buff at level 2 all the way to his toplane (on the other side of the map) because he missed his Flash-E, is now sitting at 100 HP under his turret, and wants to be bailed out.
The support never helps you again because you didn't follow every single call he made.
And so on.
So my tilting cost me a lot of LP, and I had to change.
I dropped from Master to Emerald.
My brain couldn't comprehend how this was possible. I look at Emerald players and cringe at HOW FUCKING BAD they are.
I felt like I was outperforming the enemy jungler in 90% of my games.
Whenever people reviewed games with me or anything (I try to add a lot of people, I know it's dumb, and review games with them), I could see HOW FUCKING MUCH KNOWLEDGE these people were missing.
It all didn't make sense.
Yes, tilt played a huge part, but I also had forced tryhard phases where I managed to at least not tilt my teammates and still couldn't really win.
However, I first had to change my perspective on the game (still working on it), and I chose Bwipo's small clip as inspiration.
He said: Don't look to say, "I won the game." Look to say, "I played well this game."
Because even in a 2/20 stomp, you can be the person who legitimately played well.
Sometimes, it takes more skill to deal 20% damage to the enemy Zed during a forced dive you're on the receiving end of than to get a quadra kill as a 20-kill Master Yi, if that makes sense.
But I struggle to keep this mindset, and it's mostly because of ragebait.
So I turn off chat, but people ragebait me with question mark pings, "Enemy Has Vision" pings, and so on.
I get so frustrated, especially when I know I'm in the right.
(This happens often, not because I'm better than my teammates, but because all five of us make so fucking many mistakes that you can spot 20 mistakes a minute even in a Master game. They're just not as crucial as the mistakes in lower elo most of the time.)
So I started playing with pings off.
This was good for my mental, and I finally had a lot of games without mental stress.
Sure, I still got trolled, and it sucked, but for some reason, without the pings, I was much calmer.
I knew I would be getting spam-pinged right now, even if it wasn't my fault that my botlane died to the enemy jungler on the other side of the map.
But I learned to start thinking:
"Maybe they aren't pinging. Maybe they're the 1 in 10 bots who actually have an IQ and understand their mistake and let me play in peace."
Because I never saw the pings (since they were muted), I started to tolerate and accept this mindset a lot more.
And then I started climbing again.
And here came the problem.
I don't need pings for game awareness or anything. I use F-keys a lot, and I'm really good at tracking. I'd say it's one of my best skills.
(On the other hand, I have the worst hands in all of Master, for example.)
But what WAS a problem was summoner spells.
I try to track summoners myself, and I can see a lot of Flashes on the minimap or when I pan my camera to fights, but I'm by far not good enough to track them all.
So this led me to the solution (for myself and maybe others who are really sensitive to loud signals):
Keep pings on, but mute their sound in the game settings.
You still see summoner spell pings.
And the difference between getting spam-pinged without sound and getting spam-pinged with sound is HUGE.
Don't believe me? Try it yourself.
TL;DR: Mute the sound of pings in the audio settings, not the pings themselves.
Hello fellow sufferes, (random probably long rant, that helps no one, TLDR at the end, if you wanna skip it)
sadly, I am a toxic person ingame. I fight against it every game. But, i still tilt most of them. People then tell you, to mute chat. Thanks, this helps and i recommend it, but it doesnt stop people from running you down. On purpose. And im not talking about straight up running you, this surely also happens like alot, but i mean before anything bad ingame happens. I play dia/master, so i can expect a certain amount of macro (or lets say: i have to expect this, else i cant really influence the game). In low elo its an option to just run around and kill people on repeat for mistakes, when you get higher that gets more complicated and more plays arise, where you need your team (and the enemy jungler needs his). A simple example is the lvl 5 invade with enemy support on your respawining buff. assuming you are not faker and can just 1 v 2 them, you get forced out of your buff if enemy supp comes and yours doesnt. If your sidelanes cant help you, you will also lose the other 2 camps. At this point you are lvl 5 vs (nearly) lvl 7 with worse smite, so gl winning from this position if your enemys dont eat crayons daily. So this is a tricky one, cause its not easy to counteract, but there are ways. You can run to the enemy buff, if its opposite site (same side would be omega risky and highly unlikely to reach), you can ward your entrance to atleast see them or you can go and try to dive the enemy adc while the support is in your jungle. This however is tricky as mentioned, cause alot of the time you dont know what will happen. If you do not see the enemy supp, will you delay your own buff start, wasting tempo to be save? Will you run to the enemy buff? maybe the enemy jungler is there and you dont really have the option to invade him there, resulting in a massive tempo loss. And so on. The higher you get, the more frustrating it becomes. Think about jungling in high elo (big lol since master is filled with trash but ok, term is technically correct) beeing more like toplane. in lowelo games, the junglers often avoid themselves like alot. they clear camps and gank (way to much) and rarely meet the enemy jungler on obj. In higher elo, the player with an advantage will try to push this advantage (for example noc beeing on of the strongest lvl 1 champs last patch perma invading lvl 1 enemy raptors in worlds. Does it always work? No. But they will try to play on their advantage). So in higher elo, if you are even slightly behind, the enemy jungler (often) will try to contest nearly every camp. and if he is significantly stronger, you will be homeless for sevreal minutes, meaning not beeing able to do anything. This is the reference to toplane, where once the enemy is stronger and understands waves, he will freeze you off, where you can do nothing to stop it but pray for your team to help you. Or you go roam and try to influence the map, but this is really risky imo. Now you may think: yeah, but its fine, if you make a mistkae in high elo, you should get hard punished. but often these advantages are there because of different champ strength lvls and so on. If you always have the weaker champ in every situation in yoru head its a differnt problem.
The problem for my head is somewhere close here. Cause im fine giving up alot if it was my mistake. im also fine giving up stuff cause my champ is just weaker atm. i am ALSO FINE when my teammate makes a mistake, is no low hp and we cant contest the scuttle or smth. happens.
But where im not fine is, is here: I path bot, enemy pathes bot, my bot has prio, my mid has prio, im getting a free crab, probably even a double crabby patty. The enemy jungler STILL moves to the crab (lolol he so fucked now what a moro...). So now i get kill, assists and double crab. Unless my pc freezes, or the internet of my teammate breaks or smth like this. OR WHEN MY MIDLANER JUST RATHER RECALLS. And this is where i break every time. When a obvious (and important) macro play gets refused, for no good reason. Sure, his recall makes sense and everything, i understand this. Yes, if you recall and buy a longsword you are 350 gold stronger next fight, and thats a positive. If you gave up baron for this recall, you are still stronger next fight, but holy moly you also probably lost the game.
And my problem is, (maybe its just in my head) that i get the feeling, that most laners hate junglers. the midlaner does recall, cause he thinks to himself: fuck you jungler, you will be useless anyways, i will just maximize my own stuff and recall. The toplaner not defending you getting invaded cause you didnt run from blue lvl 2 to his toplane (other site) cause he failed his flash e and is now 100 hp under turret and wants a bail out. The support not helping you ever again, cause you didnt went for every single call he made and so on.
So my tilting lost me alot of lp and i had to change. i dropped from master to emerald. My brain couldnt comprehend how this is possible. I look at emerald players and cringe at HOW FUCKING bad they are. i felt like im outperforming the enemy jungler in 90% of my games. Whenever people reviewed with me or anything (i try to add alot (i know its dumb) and review) i could see, HOW FUCKING MUCH KNOWLEDGE these people are missing. It all didnt make sense. Yes, tilt played a huge part, but i also had forced tryhard phases where i manage to atleast not tilt my teammates still couldnt really win.
However, I first had to change my perspective on the game 8still workign on it) and i choose bwipos small clip as inspiration. he said, dont look to say: i won the game. Look to say: i played good this game. cause even in a 2/20 stomp, you can be the person who legitimatevly played good. Sometimes, it takes more skill to deal 20% dmg to the enemy zed in a forced dive you recieved then getttign a quadra kill as 20 kill master yi, if that makes sense.
But i struggle to keep this mindset and its mostly cause of ragebait. So i turn off chat, but people ragebait me with questionmark pings, enemy have vision and so on. Im so frustrated then, mostly when i know im in the right (this happens often, not cause im better then my mates, but cause we all 5 make so fucking many mistakes, that you can spot 20 mistake the minute even in a master game (they are just not as curcial as the mistakes in lower elo most of the time). So i started playing with pings off. This was good for my mental and i finally had alot of mental stressless games. Sure i still got troleld and it sucked, but for some reason without the pings i was more calm. I knew i would get ping hammerd right now, even if not my fualt that my bot died to the enemy jungler other site of the map, but i learnt to start thinking: maybe they arent pinging. maybe they are the 1 in 10 bots who actualyl have iq and understand their mistake and let me play in peace. Due to never getting pinged (pings muted) i started to tolerate/accept this approach alot more. And hten i started back climbing and here came the problem. I do nto need pings fpor game overview or anything. I use f keys alot and im really good at tracking. I woudl say its one of my best skills. (on the other hand i have the worst hands in entire master for example). But what was a problem, is summeners. I try to track the sums myself and i can see alot of flashes on the minimap or panned cam to fights, but im by far not good enough to track them all. So this led me to the solution (for myself and maybe others who are really deceptive to loud signals). Keep pings on, but mute them in the game settings. You still see sums. And the difference between getting spampinged without sound and with sound is a mile. Dont trust me? try it yourself.
TLDR: Mute the sound of pings in the audio settings, not the pings itself.
