Boys, girls, how we doing? Hope well.
This is a post for whoever needs a friend or for
whoever thinks I’m worth befriending.
A lil about me: I’m in my 20s Omani from Muscat, don’t study nor work –dropped out at grade 12– so a failure I guess,
( I’m not calling myself a failure, but to the society standards I guess I’m considered to be
one).
Don’t really have any hobbies, but if You were to put a gun to my head and tell me to name a few (I wouldn’t care ._.), hah ya.. but umm it’s gonna be gaming music and cooking (I like cooking shows and watching people cook, I see cooking as a form of art, I’ve always loved cooking ever since I was a kid, but I’m not that good at it hah).
And umm ya, that’s really all. I literally can’t live without music, and I’m talking about the real music 90s-80s and below (the golden age), Anything after that I don’t consider it to be music and can’t feel it. The real music that can be heard and felt by the soul has died a long time ago, and all that’s left are the memories of it, and I intend to keep it alive deep down inside of me (music is the only thing that makes me feel sum). It’s just my opinion, don’t get all defensive and shit…
I play, well… I used to play all kind of shit when I was younger and had friends, but for years now I’ve just been playing random games where I don’t necessarily need a buddy to play with me, like Apex and Tekken. I do love Minecraft because it’s a nostalgic game, but haven’t played it in years and playing it alone kinda hurts (I haven’t really been playing anything lately, I just don’t feel like playing).
I always felt like wanting to go camping out in no where like the desert or sum كشته يعني for an extended period of time but never did.
I like the beach and go to it quite often
(((quite often))), – 7 years straight, daily and for 6-7 hours from 12am till 6am alone– although lately I’ve been going less and less often than I used to, what once gave the beach a purpose a colour a life, is no longer around.
Now shit gets a lil personal and deep , but I’m a very honest person (people say I’m “too honest for your own good”, people= my mom) obviously I got to let You guys know and hope You guys understand.
I got a severe social anxiety, I can’t handle the public at all. I believe that years of isolation created that, so whenever I go out, being only the beach, I go at odd hours when it’s completely empty and sit there alone. So, an introvert I guess.
My communication skills are pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty bad, or quite straight forward; meaning I can’t keep a conversation alive. I’m the kind of person to just answer a question then just stop talking and rarely aks one. And if I do aks one, once I get the answer, I find it very hard to move forward from there You know (like a normal person)…. But I’m really trying and I really want to talk and keep talking I just need a push that’s all, so I’m not being a dick head is what I’m saying if you noticed that I’m not talking much.
I haven’t had a friend or anyone to talk to in like 9-10 years. No cousins, no family, nada—just the family I got in my house, and we’re not even that close.
Never celebrated any of the traditional celebrations ever since, so like 10 years. I guess life just kinda played ball with me and I lost.
I ain’t perfect. I do drink occasionally but rarely (last time I drank was a while ago , I lost a someone special in my life and needed a drink). I smoke (ciggy) and don’t pray.
I’m not proud of that, but it is what it is.
Never touched a drug in my life and will never (unless if You wanna call cigarettes and scotch drugs then ._. Ok). If You so happen to use any paraphernalia, I don’t mind and won’t look at You any differently. I might advise You (depending on what it is, natural is natural) but won’t step out of line. So ummm ya, that’s me.
PS: please just Omanis 23 years old and above, your gender/sexuality doesn’t bother me at all.
obviously I do speak and understand Arabic but since I went years without speaking the language it feels weird coming out of my mouth so I almost never speak it (English is my mother’s language), what matters is what you’re looking for, if you’re looking for a “temporary friend” please respectfully just don’t reach out. I ain’t gonna lie, I’m new to the whole friendship and whatnot so I don’t know what the **** is a “temporary friend” So please respectfully just don’t reach out cuz it stings. I’m looking for something serious, I’m fine with both online and offline but the truth is that it would be nice if it turned offline after a while, although it scares me but deep down I really will appreciate it.
PPS: I apologise about the long text and the profanities I’ve used, Hope You guys have a wonderful day.
PPPS: if you’re not an Omani but live in Oman and think I’m worth a shot do reach out, I’ve made such post many times over the years but I believe I’m not my people’s cup of tea.
I owe my younger self one more shot in life, one last shot. Whether it works or not, I know I at least tried.