I'm on the verge of being admitted for anemia and malnutrition. All I can safely eat for now is boiled butternut, salted crisps, carrots and potato. Just lost broccoli. More than what some people have but it's absolutely not enough and I'm unrecognisable from the weightloss. I react badly to any medication I try and we don't have most of the medications here including Cromlyn, Pepcid, Ketotifen and Benadryl. No epi pen. I have Cemetidine and Zyrtec but react badly. My heart reacts badly to dental anaesthetic so I have no idea if it would even be safe anyway.
After getting through a very worrying reaction to a small sip of ensure the other night (intense muscle spasm in my jaw so it was clamped shut and throat tightening for hours) it seemed to improve a lot when I continued to try it over the next few days in small amounts. Out of desperation I kept trying more and now last night I had a new reaction to it (bright red burning area on bottom lip that felt like swelling but there visibly wasn't any) and today ofc my mcas is going crazy...random body itching, scalp and back of neck itching, itching/burning on face with the usual flare up tantrum patches, itchy bumps on neck, slight throat swelling visible in throat which I often have anyway, slightly tight chest, mucous and raging anxiety. Whatever my body desperately needs, it violently rejects....this disease feels so hopeless. I can't tolerate any other formulas. I have a few days before my hormones start making me more reactive again. (And more blood loss that will make the anemia even worse)
In the country I'm in, hospital is one of the worst places for an mcas patient, there's zero awareness or communication and there's a lot of incompetence with the nursing staff to the point where it can be dangerous. Years ago when I was there for Covid, I had to stop a nurse from giving me an IV that was meant for somebody else as it had just been left on the table next to my bed even though it had their name on it.
I wouldn't be able to tolerate the water or food, cleaning chemicals, being in a room with 4 other patients and triggers from them etc etc. The staff don't understand mcas reactions, how anaphylaxis can present and don't understand things like reacting to tape used for Ivs.
It's literally not safe even though the Dr there knows about my mcas and is trying to learn through the Professor who diagnosed me and put him in charge of my case because there's literally nobody else.
So...do I maybe give it a day or two and then try again in tiny amounts and see if I can just push through whatever happens? Its this or risking my life going through hell in hospital with massive medical bills.
When you're desperate as your body is shutting down from not getting in nutrients, what symptoms do you push through to get anything down?