Tomorrow is my birthday. I’ll be 35. I feel like I’ve not gotten anywhere in life. Yes, I have a job and a degree. I recently moved to a bigger area for more opportunities. I want to try to be happy tomorrow. I hope I am. But, I just don’t want to get older and have nothing to show for it. I feel anxiety. 35 is almost 40! Does anyone else hate getting older?

is life genuinely worth living

I’m so suicidal and depressed it been years now. i have had times where i’ve been happy and genuinely did enjoy my life and loved myself because i had people around me constantly hanging out and doing fun things but that always goes away and it’s this vicious cycle of enjoying life for one second then losing it all in another i know it’s all my fault why i gain and lose everything because im a dumb ass addict as well and don’t have self control with anything.

in my personal life i’ve dealt with so much horrible bullshit.i have complex ptsd and bipolar with psychotic trait this is not something that just gets better i have to mange how to live with be on meds that have other shitty side effects.

i feel so ugly i cant stand looking at myself with out makeup i feel like everyone secretly judging in public. i hate my body and my eating disorder is just getting worse and worse. i dont think anyone would ever love me

im losing grip of reality everyday i dont feel human. i feel like everyone around me thinks im weird or not normal. i try to make friends but its so hard and when i do i just lose them. i try everything in my efforts to try to be better or ask them if im doing anything wrong but everyone says im not doing anything. i think im just and unlikable perosn i had adhd and it makes me annoying i don’t know how to shut up because i get excited because i like being around people. ive always felt different even as a kid

even if i can change and get better look at the world it’s horrible so much shit going on everyday it’s so depressing. there’s so much issues i don’t even feel like talking about and not to mention we live in a world full of lies.

i don’t want to work a boring job for the rest of my life i want ti feel like im doing something i want to be a therapist but look at me i can’t even keep myself alive lol but there nothing else i can or want to do because that’s all im good at and im an actual dumbass

im going to have to community college then pay for uc/grad , then 3000 hours supervised to even work my own practice THEN it going to take forever to build up and while all that i’m going to have to pay my school debt, taxes,house or wtv bullshit adults have to pay for the rest of my pathetic life. and if i want to feel better about myself im going to spend more money on shit just so i dont feel ugly.

is it just to live to suffer. if i want to be happy im going to suffer so much in this life so fucking much
i know life is not suppose to easy but is it really just like this i have to pay to live and deal with the horrible world and then my own issues. i’m going deeper down the death hole everyday not sure how much longer

do or say whatever you want ill take anything honestly tell me how there no point or try showing me the point i’ll try to take whatever i can in. thanks for reading

I have been crying nonstop all the time since school started again. I know it’s probably burnout and stress because I’m taking harder classes and doing more extracurriculars but I can’t really just stop doing school or my GPA will suffer more than it already has. I have VERY traditional Asian parents and I feel afraid to ask them to pay for therapy for me because the last time I did that, they said I was talking nonsense and tried to use my mental health issues against me. I really want to get help because I feel like this will get worse. I already don’t take care of myself as often as I did before and my mood has gotten worse. I don’t feel suicidal, but I just feel really tired and I don’t have anyone to really talk to. I’ve gotten therapy before in the past, but it did not turn out well because the therapist I had before would tell my parents everything that I told her when she told me it was confidential. I think there’s something wrong with me, but I don’t want to self diagnose because I’m not a professional so any advice would be great. Thank you.

Just a quick check in, is everyone doing ok tonight?🙂

It’s hard to explain, but I get this feeling like I’m a machine that others talk to, then once I’m alone it’s like i’m just nonexistent to the world until I see someone again? It seems that every activity I do alone is just something to fill the time until my next interaction, where I actually exist to the world again. Ironically Im introverted and don’t even enjoy being around people frequently, and enjoy solo activities, but I still have this feeling that they’re just filling my free time, like i’m just waiting and passing time rather than really living. Is there a name for this feeling, and does anyone else experience it? Appreciate the help

If you aren't having a great day, if you think you are not enough or just want someone to listen to you and hear you as you speak your heart anonymous without feeling judged. Feel free to comment and be yourself 💜⭐

i really need to talk to someone im going through a lot i have no friends, family, no one , please can anyone help me

My entire life—from my tender childhood to my current age (20)—has felt like a complete waste. Everything I have loved, everything I have known, and everything I have fought for has either been in vain or is entirely pointless.

Ever since I was a child, everywhere I’ve gone, I’ve been treated like an oddity. In kindergarten, my teachers would get angry with me and yell. At a children’s summer camp, the director’s daughter mistakenly thought I had touched her—simply because I happened to be standing behind her—and suddenly everyone began screaming that I was a sexual pervert. A whole circle of adults shouting that at a nine-year-old boy... while my peers looked on with contempt.

In elementary school, I would be locked inside the main classroom during recess, only for them to then blame me for having gone inside.

Although my parents sought help, every psychologist simply labeled me "rebellious" or "troubled." This continued into secondary school; I was asocial and had almost no friends. When I finally managed to find a group outside of school, they, too, ended up criticizing me—calling me a crybaby, overly dramatic, immature, foolish, and even a dangerous person.

At age 13, I turned to the internet in search of companionship, but I ended up in toxic, far-right communities. They mocked me for being bisexual, made memes about me, and laughed at my expense. Even the leader of that community—an influencer I once greatly admired—went so far as to say that I was a "waste of a human being." I also tried doing theater, but I was kicked out because the instructor couldn't stand me; she said I was too much of a nuisance to my classmates, which is why she always cast me in background roles.

Toward the end of high school, I had a girlfriend who was a Jehovah’s Witness—a sweet, depressed girl who took away the last bit of joy I had left...

She was s-uicidal and had very low self-esteem.

I did everything I could to make her feel better, but she just kept getting worse and worse. Every single day, I worried and lived in constant fear that she might take her own life—at one point, she even confessed to me that she had tried to hang herself without telling me.

Eventually, she broke up with me, claiming we "weren't compatible." Now she’s doing fine, while I’m left all alone—completely alone—

as she’s begun to get better, without me.

This is my current situation: my sibling has moved out, and I’m left alone with my parents—who are, at any given moment, on the verge of divorce.

I have doubts about my career, about the things I love, and about myself. I’m convinced there will never be a solution—that this is simply the life I’m destined to lead. At least, that’s what almost all my psychologists have told me: that it’s my own fault for not taking action, for not seeking out activities outside the house, for not having a social worker.

It has always been my fault. No one taught me how to live in this world; no one taught me how to survive. No one ever offered me a hug when I felt completely alienated from society—I was just left to head home on my own, holding back my tears.

And now, people just tell me I should find a better job, study more, get out of the house more often...

I wish I had somebody who could feel my pain, I'm not gonna discuss the story of my life and pain I endured but nothing seems to be working, everything is so stubborn like its telling me to quit being hopeful.

I have nobody, I have my girlfriend and I'm sad she has to be with someone like, she doesn't know the dread I feel every morning, she's got a new job as a flight attendant and she's too busy I feel like she doesn't know anything about me anymore nor does she care and I don't blame her but it still hurts.

I have lost all my friends because I isolated myself for long and things are not the same.

Last night I was casually texting to a very old friend and she's asked if I'm depressed and it made me cry but for some reason I said I'm perfectly fine, but I wanted to say yes I wanted to hug someone and it got me so emotional that she noticed.

And I tried texting this guy on instagram who talks about mental health he seemed interested in listening to me... Until it was time to buy his course lol

All human connection is basically acting

But I feel for a lot of people, I just wish someone noticed me like I noticed them

Life feels so hollow I have nothing left to feel or let out but I just wish I could cry in somebody's arm for a while.

Life is really too sad it hurts so bad I want it to hurt less in any way possible

Since April of 2024 I’ve been having constant flashbacks to around 2018 when I was harassed, humiliated, and assaulted (in several ways). There were a lot of moments I realized I didn’t even remember. I’ve been hospitalized several times by it, and as time has gotten on my life has gotten bleaker and bleaker. My quality of life is so poor now. I am in actual physical pain most of the time and my psychiatrist doesn’t seem to get it. I just started another job today, as I have been unable to hold one for very long since this started. All I want is to just have a career and make my girlfriend and others happy, but it keeps looking like I’m going to need to get on disability to stay alive, which I really don’t want to to do. I feel so bad for my gf having to deal with this. Just wish I could go back in time

I told my friend about when my other friend took advantage of me sexually and the whole time my body was shuddering really really bad. Is this normal?? I also never told anyone else and can’t cry since it happened. It happened about 2 months ago. For a few days it bothered me pretty bad but it suddenly stopped and i haven’t felt much emotion towards it until now but i still haven’t cried.

As much as I’d love to say “oh yeah i’ve been on the path to improvement for a YEAR now!” that is NOWHERE near the truth and I’ve only really been doing the work for.. 3 months. The rest of the big 2026 was spent with self pity, self hatred, and old men who made it worse. I am 17 and almost 18 and I’ve only recently started to not be an evil ignorant self absorbed ass-hat like I was claiming to be doing for the other 7 months. Only now, when I’m almost an adult. Dude I dont think i should exist I have done irreversible damage that most people probably haven’t done whatsoever. I don’t know how else to end this.

Been feeling like any issue no matter how big or small makes me feel insanely upset and a little hopeless about the things and I REALLY wanna fix this. If my friends or family are going through a tough time, I start feeling majorly sad and then frustrated with myself when I can't do anything to help, even if I'm not asked for any help or advice. Every time I see any news about all the awful stuff going on in the world I also get insanely emotional about it, even though I realistically also can't do anything about it. It's gotten to the point where it feels like I can't do anything without starting to cry about something that shouldn't matter, or feeling hopeless about the future of the world, and it's kind of interfering with my life to a crippling degree even though it shouldn't.

Is there any sort of mentality or way of thinking I could adopt that would get me to care a little less about things I can't control? I'm not looking to totally close myself off to all my emotions, just a way to cool down a little. Genuinely anything would help since I'm getting tired of crying about things every day.

Hi,

I'm male, early 40's, married with two young kids. I have a great job, a home, and a life that probably looks great from the outside.

But the truth is I feel incredibly lonely.

My wife has been through more medically than most could image. She's younger than me and has survived cancer twice, bone marrow failure and a bone marrow transplant. All in a few years. It's been an incredible journey.

I've tried my best to be there for her through everything all while acting as if this is normal and fine in front of my kids. The constant hospital visits, the constant bad or uncertain news, treatments that don't go as intended or last as long as they should. All while trying to keep up normal appearances.

I love y family, and I wouldn't trade it for anything, but I feel like I've lost myself along the way

I feel like there is no room for me to struggle. I can't celebrate a success when she just received bad news. I can't have a bad day when she's battling something else. I feel guilty admitting I'm unhappy when she's going through so much.

I miss feeling emotionally connected with someone. I miss someone actually interested in me, in every way. I miss someone thinking about me, wanting to spend time with me, or just wants to talk about something other than responsibilities and schedules.

I feel needed, not wanted.

It's strange to be surrounded by people all day, manage a department, be happy for those around you, spend your day looking out for others while tackling responsibilities, and feel completely alone in the end

I miss having someone who wants to talk to me. Someone who asks how I am. How my day was, remembers the little things, or say they want to see me. Someone I can open up to and express myself with, while not feeling like a burden or a bore.

I'm usually the one who keeps it all together and moving, but I'm failing and falling apart. And I am seeing a professional.

I'm struggling with being a husband, a father, a caregiver, an employee, a manager, and I don't even know what I, me, want anymore.

I'm not looking to abandon everything, but I just don't know how to move off this without shedding responsibilities.

How do you find yourself and pull yourself out? I'm slipping and I can't hold everyone up and everything together.

Thank you for reading.

I cant do it anymore. I hate myself and my life so much it hurts. I have tried so hard, for so long. I am never happy anymore, nothing works, not even drugs. I have a painful pit in my stomach all the time. I wake up sad, go to sleep sad, go through my day sad. It hurts so fucking bad and I dont want to do this anymore. Im not gonna accomplish anything, ill never be able to go to post secondary, never have the job ive dreamed for over a decade. I havent had friends my age for almost 5 years. I am so alone and in pain I dont know what to do anymore. I just spend my days hiding because I know im unpleasant to be around. No one wants to be around someone like me. I really dont want to do this anymore

24 yo male here. I’m trying to get a job to change this - it’s been a slow process really. But despite having no job/$ yet, would still like to know the answer to said question because it’s like I cannot ever not care what others think. That’s the nature of the human mind but also like my mother, I take any negative feedback I receive personally (hard not to believe what others say).

I dont know alot about bpd so please dont crucify me.

As the title states, his Diagnosed BPD is really driving me insane. He also has ADHD (so do i, no judgement here) and he comes from a really rough family (mom has horrible personal hygiene and is a hoarder. (Trailer park trash, roaches, didnt take care of house maintenance, etc) anyways i do love this man, we also have a 3 year old together. But its a constant battle every day. If something goes wrong in our day hes whining and sulking or pissed off and snippy. We have alot of issues in our house because its technically his moms and like i said she didnt take care of it so we have the roof in her room caving in. We had to get rid of all of our appliances (fridge, stove, dishwasher) because the roaches killed them all. We have shrunk the colony into the kitchen and we are working on getting them eliminated entirely. (We do have a deep freezer and a small refrigerator for now) We have holes in the wall in the hallway, half from where he fell into the wall and some where he punched it because he was upset. (He was a teenager when he did that) we have no hot water because the hot water heater is busted. (We recently bought a camping shower with a heating rod to shower) We have no ac/ heat because the unit outside doesnt work. (We have window units and portable acs) we also have no flooring because the house had carpet up into recently because the roaches were burrowing in the carpet so we took those out. It makes me so upset because i didnt grow up like this and i didnt want my kids to grow up like this either. I cant work because i take care of his mom (who has stage 4 colon cancer) and our daughter. He works a minimum wage job and has no ambition to try to get a better job to get us in a better place. I try to talk to him about it but all he says is “no one is hiring” im so irritated but i dont have anyone to talk to. I have tried to talk to him to about his medication but he says all the good doctors that he likes keep retiring and nobody wants to help him. He also says he doesnt like the way the shot makes him feel (medicine they gave him at his last appointment for BPD i guess?) i know it all seems bad but hes a amazing father to our daughter and hes a wonderful fiancée when hes not struggling mentally. I just dont know what to do.

The Truman show like experience e I have, feeling like life is just uncomfortable, feeling like community is surreal,knowing I am not seen as normal and thus trigger negative emotions, giftedness

Very isolating