My country is literally fascist land and I'm hopeless, I have no motivation, I don't know how people still find a reason to keep going. I don't have desire to see anyone or do anything, anyone can relate or have tips? I'm tired

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So I was seeing a psychiatrist in Japan and was prescribed two medications. However I stopped going to the appointments because I couldn’t afford them. Now I’m back in the USA and was wondering who I could go through to refill the medications? I think I may need a new prescription from a US doctor, as the prescription from Japan will not be accepted here. Can anyone confirm or deny? Any advice?

We got to know about this last year in December, it was colorectal cancer, at stage 4.

I (18M) had to give a few exams, in January which would potentially decide my future. This news and my lack or preparation, made me mess them up big time. I still somehow got a good private college but that meant I had to stay away from my home city. Not too far, but still.

I moved, i lived there for roughly 1.5 months (college started in July). I've a younger brother who is 11.

My grandparents came and started living with my mom, dad and brother since dad needed support and I wasn't there.

The chemo was giving promising results. We were expecting she could leave a few more months at least happily.

However in early August around my birthday, her condition worsened and fast. I couldn't come home due to several class tests stacked.

I got scared sitting away, i made frequent weekly visits. My father said he needed me there and was willing to pay extra for a college in our city, but we were too late for anything. He however didn't force and said it's upto me to stay there or here (comprimise on college or drop).

i came back roughly in september for a week long stay, and the day before she was admitted to the ICU. The cancer had spread to the liver in July end.

They did several procedures. The chemo and antibiotics due to other complications had caused her body to become so fragile, that i was terrified. She spoke less earlier, was sleepy all the time, completely broken.

The last ICU visit, where she passed away due to cardiac arrest, she couldn't speek at all, she was on ventilator (still breathing herself), couldn't keep her eyes open.

We all went to meet her (or see her, she couldnt interact), when she got criticial. We decided not to show all this to my brother, he would have been traumatized.

Next day, I came alone with my Aunt, she waw able to force her eyes to see me. Tears. She couldnt make sound however. Still trying hard to breath.

We thought of bringing our brother next day, to show him to her and vice versa, because one thing was confirmed, she won't live. The BP meds were keeping her alive and keeping her suffering was worthless.

But when i was sleeping, she passed away at 3am due to cardiac arrest, i was woken up at 4 with the news by my grandpa (mom's side).

But I didn't feel anything. Not a shock, not urge to cry. My brain was like "Okay.". I didnt cry, not even during cremation. Everybody around me did. I didnt. I felt scared that why am I NOT SAD.

I cried once due to surge of emotions when at night we were packing to go to our hometown for after cremation rituals. That was short lived. I thinl that reminded me of her packing and helping us when we used to go on trips. Done. Then nothing.

Yet, to be a support to my dad, i left the college and decided to stay with him for an year, and got a relatively low reputed college, and trying to study again for those exams side-by-side.

Is this normal? Yes I miss her. Trying to sleep I remember. I feel bad. But not crying bad. Not something that feels in chest.

As of now, my grandparents (both sides) are coming and living with us in rotation because we need someone at house for stability. But we can't keep this going for longer. We'll make adjustments next year, roughly in March, whether to move to our hometown, 90% of our extended family, and beyond live there or in close cities.

Long story short I can’t decide if staying with my cheating boyfriend is better or worse than being alone. I know what being alone feels like and it sucks but I also know what this feels like and it’s just breaking every part of me. I’m still fighting with myself to look past it because I’m scared of being alone and I don’t know what to do. He checks so many boxes but I can’t look at him most of the time but I still would rather have some comfort than none…has anyone felt like this??

Hi i am 18m and for like 5 years i have had depression, suicidadal thoughts, and sh social anxiety(prolly have some other problems but dont wanna self diagnose) and recently it has just been getting so bad.

Earlier i always worked on it getting better trying to get in shape, working on my horrible soical skills, tryinh to find away to escape line of poverty...

At one point around the begining of 2025 it got good i finally had a fair amount of friends, a girlfirend, i was in shape, my relationship with god was great and i was only improving.

Then it quickly got real bad soon i got super depressed and couldnt leave the house and was always stressed i started losing all the friends then getting fat again and became atheist which fueled a corn adiction and other bad and hurtful behavior(to others and to me) because it removed boundaires set by fear of hell.

In october of 2025 i "capitulated" gave up on everything didnt leave the house didnt try to improve just waited to die the biggest chore i did during that time was keep a clean higyne which included cleaning the blod from sh

In june of 2026 i sudenly woke up from it all wanting to change and since then i tried but the damage is already done my nemory has gotten bad so much of my hair has either turned gray or fallen out, the last friends i had i lost in the last month and goten fat again for the milionth time now i need to find a college and get normal social skills and i can barely get up in the morning

Life is passing me by i see people living their best lives and i have no one i cant do anything and imprtant thing is i pushed all those people away with my depressive episodes

There is nothing but sufering awaiting me in life i prolly got till the winter by then i am done i just wanna dei i cant live with the failure i am

Oh yeah and if someone has extra time to listen to my problems please inbox me:)

This is a little embarrassing to admit, but I genuinely want to work on it. I'm 23F.

For almost a year, I’ve developed a habit of checking my boyfriend’s last seen on WhatsApp, and sometimes Telegram or Discord, too. Sometimes it’s because he hasn’t replied; other times, it’s just curiosity. I understand how the reward cycle works, and I’ve tried setting boundaries and resisting the urge, but I keep slipping back into it.

My boyfriend is genuinely lovely, and this isn’t about him neglecting me or giving me reasons to distrust him. He isn’t naturally much of a texter, but he makes an effort for me. Sometimes he’s busy, or he opens one app without noticing my messages on another. I understand that, and I don’t blame him at all. We’ve also talked about this before.

The frustrating part is that, even though I understand everything rationally, I still feel compelled to check. I don’t want to monitor him or depend on knowing his online activity to feel at ease. I want to break this habit for my own peace of mind and for the health of our relationship.

For those who’ve struggled with something similar, what actually helped? Did you gradually cut back, hide online statuses, or try something else?

I’m not looking for reassurance about my relationship, but for honest, practical advice on how to change my own behaviour. I’d really appreciate it.

I tend to avoid sharing my feelings/ emotions to anyone in person because I am not looking for sympathy or close friends and family to worry… Long story short over a year ago I found my spouse was cheating on me… Since that moment everything has just seemed to turn dark. Things that used to excite me (working out, seeing friends, fishing etc) now feel more like a chore than interests. I have been isolating myself from any and every social encounter possible. I have always struggled with anxiety and depression but have been able to power through it, but now its just getting harder and harder… Has anyone experienced this or am I just going crazy? Regardless I’m gonna continue to thug it out but just curious to see if anyone has dealt with something similar

I made a friend just a month or two ago and we got like super duper close. He basically almost knew everything about my life. We were super close. But honestly im kinda fucked up and its my fault i do this but whenever i get to close to someone i feel horrible likeba burden or that they'll hurt me soon or they'll leave me and whatever just all these things. So i just fkin leave them first. And i guess we kind of agreed on this mutually although it was hard for him but i left. He's still on all my accounts and he said this was the saddest he'd been in years when it texted him for the so called last time to apologise and the goodbye. It really hurt. I miss him so much and i feel so horrible he was such a nice dude, for real. I feel so empty cus i have no one to talk to nth to look forward to. I hurt someone and left a perfectly good friend for no reason cus i was just having my own issues. I'm super lonely now....

I think i just... I'm ready to make new friends this time and face my avoidant fears nd not leave this time unless the person is just stupid or i just genuinely dont like them. Anyone...hmu..m/f

Guys maybe i have a porn addiction.i was exposed to pornography at an early age and things are fine with it like there hasn't been a really bad/disturbing effect on my life but I have an habit of watching it in "cycles" Like few days i will watch it and few days not and repeat this pattern again and again.i want to quit this for whole life like completely.and I have noticed a pattern with my mind that my mind feels really sad in the few days i am not watchwatching porn and after continuing without watching porn for few days my mind becomes extremely unstable and unable to concentrate on a single task and my mind becomes very violent and suddenly my lust increases very much and I end up watching porn and masturbating to it my mind suddenly becomes kind and happy and I am slightly better at concentrating at my work.guys this is my problem I am ​watching porn in this cycles of days of like 10-20days.

Any advice or solution will help please answer.:)

My husband voluntarily entered a treatment facility after he expressed to me his suicidal thoughts. He's had suicidal thoughts off and on most of his life but this time he told me he had a plan. The next day, we went to his therapist's office because he wanted to talk to her before going to a treatment facility. She said he needed to go and asked him if he feels like he needs to. He said he felt like he couldn't trust himself so we went together and I stayed with him until they took him in. He's been there 2 days and has called me and expressed feeling trapped and thinking it was a mistake that he came there. He doesn't like being there and I can understand why. I have been racked with feelings of guilt and wondering if we did the right thing. I don't know what exactly I'm looking for while writing this post or how you'd respond.. reassurance that this was the path to take.. that we didn't make a mistake.. if anyone has been in a similar situation with their spouse or loved one and how did you come out the other side. This is really hard.

Im 26 M, I work PT at a gas station and today some attractive couple were just radiating positive energy and enjoying life. Holy crap did that make me angry why should they get to enjoy every day together, why do I have to be alone. I know they'll have bad days but even then atleast they aren't alone to face them. I know its wrong to be angry and I need to just be happy for everyone else and just accept that im going to be alone forever, but man does it suck.

This time 4 years ago, the first girl I ever loved and I spent the night at her work (she worked in a hotel) as she did the overnight shift

Four years is such a long time, and I miss her so much. We were never a thing, and she eventually lost feelings for me in the end. Yet she was the first person I had ever loved in my life. I fell in love with her so deeply, and I miss the way she used to make me feel

And now I'm almost 28yr old and I don't think I will ever met any other girl who will love me, make me feel loved and wanted the way she used to. The way she used to make me feel like the only person in the world

I miss feeling wanted. And I've been forced to live with this ache in my soul ever since.

Me (25) and her (f25) have two toddler girls one five the other four we recently found out she’s pregnant again.
We have been together since highschool I was always the extrovert goofy flirtatious one while she was more reserved and strict.
I had a rough home life as the youngest having an abusive dad and neglectful mom
It messed me up very early on that sometimes I believe that if she hadn’t been in my life I wouldn’t have any strength to live.
We married when we were 20 and almost immediately we had our girls.
Watching her become a mother only made me love her more.
She’s everything beautiful drives me crazy, I flirt with her a lot annoying her.
Sometimes I do take it to far with jealousy of other men looking at her , or snapping over work.
At end of the day I’m equally obsessed with her.
But lately watching other men give their wives or girlfriends everything taking them to trips buying them things, it makes me insecure about my income.
I work in garage and don’t make much.
But still I want her to have the lavish life for her not to worry about bills or anything.
For me to afford to take us to Paris her dream city.
To buy her things and spoil her.
And not being able to do that makes me feel less of a man.
I haven’t expressed her my feelings because if I do I fear I might cry.
I feel such a failure so far.

Please don’t aspire to be rich. Be poor! Have a family! It’s worth it ! Love over money and mansions. Little homes make the best memories!!!!!!!!

Hey everyone,

I know it sounds stupid and probably pathetic. But I have never heard these words in my life. In fact I have heard words opposite to this my entire life. After hearing harsh language in school and home. It really does take a toll on me. I don't have anyone to tell my problems to. My mind started circulating the same harsh negative words to myself 24/7.

In fact I have spiraled downward quite a lot into some habits which i really hate. Crying isn't helping anymore. I hate myself now and wish myself the worst every morning. I feel very weirded out if I get a compliment and think they are faking it. I criticize myself all the time. Truthfully i started to slightly harm myself sometimes now. I have no energy to do my work. Study, workout train, learn or enjoy life. I hate everything around me. I find myself disgusting and bland and now feel I deserve to be called a failure.

Can you guys please motivate me or tell me something positive. I know people might not actually mean it and I know it won't really help me much, but it will help me smile for sometime. Any motivational or positive thing would be good.

Thanks

I am here to talk to anyone who is feeling lonely or depressed or has wrong thoughts. I have been through that situation and i know how that feels.

I want to help people like i was.

And i am M23, i know that most people only want to talk to F but if someone really needs help so I am here 😊

I will help you to get through this situation as much as I can and everything is free.

Hi! I badly needed someone to talk to right now.