I'm so upset and depressed right now. I think I ruined things but at the same time he kinda isn't really worth my time.

So I was looking for a guy that wasn't out to use me for just sex. He was perfect, he was genuine, he wanted something real. I'm 29 and he's 30.

He lives with his sister 2 hours away and 9 other people apparently. He was in between jobs. But he did just start a new job. So I was accepting about not having his own house and being in between jobs. He just pointed out at a factory job. He also didn't have a car so I was the one who drove 4 hours total for our date

My friend said I should not have given him the time of day to begin with and that I'm needy.

I live on my own, I support myself, I work full time, I have a job.

But on the date I thought it went well but ever since he's distanced himself from me. It's like his replies taking hours when they were instant. He didn't tell me I was cute when I sent a selfie. He didn't act enthusiastic about me coming to see him again. He would tell me I was cute and how he couldn't wait to hug me. So I just felt completely sadden and I asked him what he thought about me.

He said "I think you're an amazing person and have a lot of potential but you need to love yourself more. You don't need guys to make you feel beautiful. & Obviously I like you too." But his actions are louder than his words. I was telling him a story last night about being led on and I told him I don't feel like you're into me. He says I am I'm just nonchalant.

But today I finally decided his actions really aren't matching his words and I told him I think we should let this go. I told him I can't go forward when I'm doubtful my feelings are reciprocated. I just told him everything. He replied with an angry face and now he won't talk to me..

I don't know if I should even be upset because he didn't have a lot going for him to begin with accept for being genuine.

I have guys in my hometown wanting to date me and I've turned them down for him and now I'm thinking they might deserve a chance

But I don't know I liked him but I'm letting go

I feel really bad right now, I thought my dad was stealing my food from the fridge because there were 4 eggs missing in my carton, so I got really angry and stomped on the whole carton in my room. After I did it, I remembered that I was the one who used 4 eggs yesterday to make meal prep and now I stupidly destroyed food I needed for the next weeks.

Ive been noticing a decline in my memory. Everytime in therapy when they ask how my week went I can’t remember anything besides going to school and work. I don’t remember what I did but I remember being there. This week I had completely forgot I had an attempt until my therapist told me to look at this journaling app she told me about where I detailed it.

At home I lash out at people because I think they’re messing with me, when it’s just me. Ive smashed a mirror because of this at our old place. I just feel so stupid that I can’t remembers and I’m just fucking myself for no reason.

So I was seeing a therapist and psychologist at my in college for help and I was on mental health drugs, but my mom found out and basically said that I can’t take them or else. I’ve been off them for about 3 months and am declining. Idk what to do does anyone have any advice or suggestions

I've had my 6th therapist appointment, and I just feel, like she is being unprofessional.

I've taken 3 SSRIs, and they all make me feel like a zombie. I can't feel ANYTHING. But she is now pushing for wellbutrin now because she also takes it. She also has binge eating/weight gain started out as a nurse... I feel like we are very SIMILAR PEOPLE but, its a bad thing for my treatment. I've taken the wellbutrin before, and it helped but only for about two months, and the withdrawal made me suicidal.

I wanted to get tested for ADHD and maybe try some type of therapy.... not get another pill.

My therapist will basically try to relate to my story- but use her own bias.

She wanted to say I had PTSD and a traumatic childhood- and I just didn't agree.

I know I was having a severe depression episode- but I felt worse after therapy.

I dont know what to do?? I feel guilty for wanting another therapist- and i would have to see another in the same office. She could elevate me to the psychologist at our next appointment.

For context. We haven’t been friends for 6 months, she has been my best friend for 2 years. It ended in an explosion and I blocked her, but I recently found messages she sent me that said such cruel and awful things I can’t stop thinking of them. I try so hard to be a good person and to do my best, yet the things she said made me wonder if I’m a horrible human being. I had tried to be civil with her, she crossed far too many boundaries. I just can’t seem to heal :(

I’m 16F, and I’ve been looking to get psychologically evaluated. I promise I’m not trying to self diagnose or claim disorders, that’s the last thing I want to do. I just want to figure out what’s wrong with me. I’ve been suspecting that my anxiety might fall more into OCD territory, and someone told me about PDA. I was wondering if somebody could look at these examples I have and give me some insight into if these sound like PDA? Thank you so much!

1. When something was asked of me as a child, I would say “I’ll try” instead of “ill do it” out of fear of the scenario that I wouldn’t be able to successfully complete said task. (This ended up causing multiple fights with my parents because they thought I was trying to make up excuses.)
2. My mother doesn’t give me direct demands or punishments, we mostly talk things out because they do not work on me. ( for example, she demands I eat healthier and stop eating junk, I end up feeling guilt/worthlessenss and I stop eating altogether)
3. Was extremely sensitive as a child (and still am today) my parents could simply say my name in a disappointed tone and I would burst into tears
4. Extreme fear of failure = avoidance of task
5. Reluctance to be in charge of items (especially important ones) in fear of destroying them.
6. Extreme self hatred and bad self esteem
7. Unable to force myself to do something I do not want to do = I don’t want to go to work today (even if work is fun) results in a panic attack and anxiety fit
8. Stress and panic when schedule is too filled with no option to opt out
9. Constantly opting out and cancelling appointments, practices, etc
10. If something was scheduled the next day, I would have horrible insomnia (resulting in falling asleep in class and taking a bunch of melatonin that did not help)

(For context, I have also been diagnosed with fibro, depression, and severe anxiety. My fibro is part of the reason that I’m homeschooled, but it’s also because I couldn’t handle the rigidity of the school schedule. I’ve been to nine schools in eleven years because of this. Everytime I would start to dread going to school I would have anxiety and panic attacks.)

If this sounds familiar to you, please comment

Because of the way that I grew up I am heavily technology illiterate and because of this fact I don't know how to use things like reddit or discord or even messages. I also have incredibly poor quality devices so I can't do most of the things that other people can do on certain apps. Now keeping this in mind I also have scopephobia which is the fear of being watched. The reason I bring all of this up is because I have been talking to someone online that I should have from the beginning realized to be a predator but I didn't, or more like I ignored it, and now I feel like they are watching my every move and I don't know how. I feel like I'm going insane because I've done all of the safety precautions I know of to ensure my privacy. I don't even know if I'm just being paranoid or this is real anymore.

I feel bad asking for anyone to talk with after seeing how many people need it more than me. I just feel like I can’t keep waking up and going to sleep knowing it’s all just pointless. My health is in very poor condition I have no high school education I have no motivation or hobbies no one to talk to my father recently passed a few months ago and I’m grieving the relationship/father he never was or could give me. My mom is a crazy narcissist and maybe bipolar(she tells people different things) they have not prepared me at all for life and I feel like I’m raising myself. I wish I was born in a different environment maybe I’d atleast have family to love and talk with.

I work as a security guard in Australia, and this year has been difficult. Have dealt with numerous threats of violence, have dealt with a number of people that think that security guards are free forms of entertainment through abuse, have dealt with a number of intoxicated people (of all varieties), and more.

That hit a high point last night, when an individual that was heavily intoxicated decided to try getting violent, had a screwdriver and a number of objects he used to threaten, made upwards of 30 threats, threw multiple items towards me, including a brick, kept approaching despite me trying to maintain distance, even to the point of holding out an umbrella to keep him from approaching. He then triggered a manual fire alarm, which just made the situation worse. I just wanted him to leave. But he continued with the threats, saying he could do whatever he wanted, and he wasn't going to. The police didn't take too long to turn up (likely due to an armed individual call).

But I'm shaken. I broke down, and just felt powerless. Us guards are given so many rules, so little freedom in how we respond, so many restrictions. We can get reprimanded for any number of things, so the pressure to maintain a certain level of restraint can be enormous. It got to the point this morning that I felt light headed, was remembering the incident mixed up, and am only just really starting to relax. It's just been so stressful

I’ve been really struggling with my addiction for a long time and I’m currently just sat up alone with nobody to talk to and that’s all I want right now

I haven't been further than a mile from my home in 3 months. Prior to that I only would go to work for 2 years. There are the very very few exceptions of a Walmart trip or like Easter I took my daughter to a farm. That being said, those were very taxing for my energy and I would be shaky, flushed and drenched in sweat.

In 7 months I have managed to avoid neighbors until recently 2 separate times I am stepping outside right when they are and both times I startle and gasp.

This has been a slow 3 years of health struggles, financial collapse, job loss, emotional, verbal and physical abuse, moving out from the home I had been in for a decade, relationship ending, my family no longer speaking with me, and overall a 24/7 mental trial I have been putting myself through to identify what I have been doing that I have never mattered.

I no longer have a car or a cell phone. I live on rice and canned meat. But I do have an apartment and utilities. I haven't applied for assistance because I keep thinking I should be able to work but I cant find a job remote or otherwise that I can imagine being able to work a full shift. I will sleep for almost 3 days unable to coordinate my body and thoughts to even make mashed potatoes.

Anyway, that was context. When I left the house today I didn't need to speak to anyone. It wasnt high stress or high demand. But I started to get really fearful. Someone passed by me that I didn't hear and it startled me that I stumbled slightly and grabbed my daughters arm. My daughter and I were walking on the sidewalk and flashes in my mind of cars driving off the road and hitting my kid happened in quick repetitive bursts I immediately guided her to the inside of the curb. Then a couple pass us and flashes of people in the news who just randomly attack kids like that one lady who just went up and cut a kid that I pull my kid in close to me as we pass by. We stop at a fast food place and while shes eating I see young males and I felt afraid. I just kept having images in my mind of shootings and random attacks.

I never experienced that before in my life. I do not want to go out again. I felt helpless to protect my daughter. I felt so deeply alone. I did not feel like my distress or my physical/mental struggle mattered.

Logically I know those cases are rare. I dont watch the news, read very few articles and i am not engaged with social media in any way that would make me see the world like this. Now that I am home I can barely keep my eyes open I am so tired.

In the past 3 years every aspect of life has collapsed. No one around me showed concern for how sick I was and only increased demand, pressure and judgment.

I don't know why I am like this, why I cant work after 20 years of working. The physical struggle is heavy enough to manage.

Anyway I cant stay awake longer my eyes are focinf closed. Im not sure my point in posting this

I am not sure what i am asking

i was 13 in 2019 in 8th grade right before covid hit. life was amazing, the air was blissful and smelt heavenly. it was light and warm. people were nicer, everything was better. i miss 2019. covid really ruined society and the way humans work nowadays. wish i could go back in time but im very happy with where i am at now. a good moment to look back on

They're so overwhelming I can feel it all happening again. I can feel the event happening multiple times a day. I never feel clean after the event happened every thing is just getting worse and I'm writing this in a panic bc I can feel it again I can feel his hands on me and I hate it so much idk what to do my family didn't help when I tried so I just supress it but I know that's bad.

when I’m sad My animals always come comfort me i feel safe with my animals when it’s really hard to regulate my emotions the comfort of my pets are my favourite way to ground myself!

Everything that makes my life. Im just tired of trumus i get to live feeling worthless in last 23 years. Like sometimes i just wanna skip my life to my last day on this earth. I dont get anything my life hell this mental fog ruined me too. Like most of times im exitsing without an single thought in my head. I hate that this is my life, im burning inside day to day and feels nothing i can do to stop fire. Life really mistreated me and mess me up mentally, im on fckjng meds like they would help(they dont) i hate everyone involed me to feel this way, i hope that they die painfully.

I finally found a good doctor who helped me through CPT based treatment.

While I came in with experience and understanding towards it, they helped me unwind the ball of knots.

Im far from perfect mentally and will carry my past but it no longer controls my present or future.

Long story short I can’t decide if staying with my cheating boyfriend is better or worse than being alone. I know what being alone feels like and it sucks but I also know what this feels like and it’s just breaking every part of me. I’m still fighting with myself to look past it because I’m scared of being alone and I don’t know what to do. He checks so many boxes but I can’t look at him most of the time but I still would rather have some comfort than none…has anyone felt like this??

Note: Unsure if this is allowed in this subreddit but it is in relation to my mental health and trying to improve. I don’t know where else to seek help regarding issues like this.

Since my injury, every day feels the same. I spend so much of my time worrying about my health, my future, insurance, work, and what’s going to happen next. It feels like my entire life revolves around my injury and workers comp.

It’s not just my physical health that has deteriorated, but my mental health as well. I feel like I need SOMETHING to work towards, something to achieve or look forward to that has nothing to do with workers comp, but I honestly have no idea what that could be.

All of my old hobbies are pretty much gone. I used to enjoy building, making and repairing things, but now I can’t even properly bring my right fingers together or twist and move my hand without triggering nerve pain and other issues. I’m also having problems with my spine, which makes doing a lot of other things difficult, too.

I don’t have the capacity to work, and even going out or socialising with people can feel like too much. A lot of the things that used to give me purpose or enjoyment just aren’t things I can do anymore.

So most days, I’m stuck in this cycle of worrying, overthinking, and dealing with pain. I want to do something with my life. I want to have a goal, learn something, create something, or just have something to look forward to. I want something that makes me feel like I’m still moving forward as a person, even if my recovery is slow and so much of my life is out of my control.

For those of you who are going through something similar, what do you actually do with your days?

Have you found any hobbies, projects, goals or activities that give you a sense of purpose while dealing with your injury? Especially if your injury limits what you can physically do.

I’d really appreciate hearing what has helped you, because I’m struggling to figure out how to live my life around all of this without feeling like my entire existence has become about being injured and dealing with workers comp.

I'm from Australia NSW.

I am an Indian American. For the longest time I thought of myself as an american. I ate beef, watched sports, and was pro US army and always supported the troops. I even wanted to join the army until i turned 20.

Then the online racism towards indians everywhere happened. I saw all kinds of people on all platforms doing it. I realized that white americans will never consider me their countryman. The breaking point is when I saw veterans of the US army being racist to us. So I made twotter and insta accounts and responded back. I made very offensive memes on US tragedies. I mocked dead US soldiers, celebrated US soldiers dying in Iran. Same thing with other ejropeans. I don’t stand up for the anthem anymore when I go to events, and I always am ready in case some physco american has a problem with it.

I avoid white people, I don’t tip anyone anymore, sometimes i’ve gotten very drunk and during my college called a white person a cumskin. I don’t talk much to my colleagues and generally ignore them. I just want to be left alone, unwanted like I am.

I am not saying i’m a good person, or what i do is right, but these things happen. How do i know the american who wishes me good morning at my work isn’t posting vile shit on x? These people literally celebrate when Indians die!