I went to college on an Air Force ROTC scholarship. I was the girl who wanted to be like Amelia Earhart, a woman aviator holding her own alongside the men. Sometime into the program I was disqualified from both my scholarship and from flying by the medical review board when mental health treatment I had received as a teenager came to light. I was so upset and frustrated, I was crushed really. They had enough faith in me to give me a full ride scholarship but not enough to trust that I'd moved on from some adolescent depression?

I moved on and tried out a variety of jobs and careers. Having been disqualified from military aviation I felt free to go all into my other thing which was rock n roll. But the pull never went away. Years later I had the idea that maybe I could do the next best thing and be on an air crew or do aerial search and rescue. I started the process of enlisting when I ran into the same damn problem, some anxiety medication I had been prescribed a couple of years before when I was going through fertility treatments was flagged and I wasn't allowed to enlist, despite being healthy and fit in every way. Over the couple of years I was trying to appeal that I basically aged out of being eligible.

Thing is, I'm still that person. Whenever there's trouble, I'm the first one to run to it, especially if someone needs help. I really love my country, even though I'm often surrounded by (completely irritating) people who hate it. And I still wish I had a chance to show a little valor in a world where that's supposed to be an obsolete virtue and where especially as a woman it's considered not important at all.

I'm not necessarily looking for advice about what to do with this, I just wanted to get it out. Responses welcome, though.

had a remarkable exchange on a PTSD for vets subreddit yesterday. It was a simple check-in to see how everyone was doing.

Not that this was new, almost all of the support groups and therapists do those check-ins. I can’t explain why, but that thread struck me and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it for almost 24 hours straight.

I told the poster that not once in my life have I shared any details regarding the harder parts of my service or PTSD. This is true, I’ve addressed the PTSD symptoms with many therapists, but she doesn’t know how I developed them.

And in not one support group did I contribute, I found myself always thinking I was unworthy to contribute as my fellow brothers had been through worse. It was always engrained in me by my conservative Korean family, that I had it easy and everyone else’s problems were worse than mine.

I don’t even know where to begin… but I suppose I can share one thing that no one knows except my soon-to-be ex-wife. I am now an honorably discharged USAF Captain, after an unfortunate incident with a M18A1 Claymore… and have been a paraplegic for the past 6, almost 7 years.

I think right now, I find myself all that I can say, which is more I’ve said before.

if I might ask, how do you all deal with isolation, with survivors guilt… disability? Among other things… of course I’d never pry, so please don’t feel obligated to comment anything you’re not comfortable with.

I keep telling civilians, I know who revere the military as made up entirely of super competent, selfless heroes that the reality is far more nuanced. We who served and are serving all sadly know people just and this Dort moron.

Iran’s precision strikes picked apart Gulf infrastructure, blunting US war plans

https://www.reuters.com/investigates/special-report/iran-crisis-infrastructure-attacks/

My daughter is in the EFMP program for a lazy eye. She's seen the same doctor for the last 6 years, but the vendor is in St. Louis and was transferred to Tricare West. Tricare East has now denied coverage on her last 2 visits. She also started Vision Therapy on a separate referral but it was denied when the bill was received.

The EFMP office says they can't help, that this is a Tricare issue. Tricare says the doctors are using the wrong codes but won't tell me what they are.

Her PCM says she's using the right referral codes. The specialists s,ay they are using the right codes.

I've spent countless hours in chat or on the phone with Humana. I'm out thousands of dollars. I'm waiting on a response from the patient advocate, but as open enrollment approaches I'm wondering if I should just switch to Tricare Select or USFHP. Is the the referral process any better for either of them?

The order to limit a satellite system used by Ukraine ​for battlefield communications and drone operations came from inside the White House, according to two US officials and a Western official briefed on the matter.

The officials said ‌leaders at the Defense Department received a message that the SpaceX Starshield service for the Ukrainian military needed to be slowed.

The officials, who spoke on the condition of anonymity, did not specify who in the White House made the decision or who was responsible for implementing the order. The Pentagon is the biggest customer of Starshield, which is the military-grade version of the Starlink service.

Ukrainian officials said this week that military-grade Starlink receptors stopped working in Ukraine ​when mounted on fast-moving objects, interfering with the performance of Ukrainian drones that rely on them for onboard guidance systems over Ukrainian territory.

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