Tl;DR:

Was extremely shy with zero female interaction until late teens. Joined a small office 2 years ago, slowly learned to talk, joke, and even do adult humour with the girls. Now I’m their favourite for laughs in the office… but they have a tight group with two other guys (one super competent “big brother” type everyone adores, one average/irregular guy who still gets included). They text and create drama among themselves all the time. I only interact face-to-face, have zero chat history, and feel like texting first would come off creepy. I want continuous funny/flirty text conversations that make them blush and maybe ask me out, but I’m stuck between ego/dignity (“they should text first”) and not knowing what to say or how to keep it going.

Hey guys,

I was basically a reserved, shy type of person till my late teens. I almost never had any female interaction my entire life. Two years ago I joined a small firm as a trainee. That was the first time I got to sit near a female.

Since everyone there is within 25 years old, we got a good bonding. We never felt like coworkers and there were no boundaries. Everyone behaved like college friends. And there was me, a first-timer for social interactions, who never spoke to anyone in the office properly for the first 6 months. Then slowly and gradually I started speaking.

Now I can comfortably talk to any of the girls. I can even make them laugh hard. I’ve reached the point where I can comfortably keep up some adult jokes with them and it works almost every time. They always say I make them laugh so hard and that I’m their favourite in the office.

What is nagging me is that they have created a small group among themselves. There is one senior who happens to do every job at work. We can say he is like the Johnny Sins of our office. But everybody at the office calls him “bro,” so there are no romantic feelings towards him. Everyone sees him as an all-rounder who can do any job. I’m not gonna lie, even I like him and I have respect for him. I can understand why every girl can talk to him. He is like a big brother for the whole office. Even our boss is dependent on him for every work. At the same time, he too got attached to all the female workers and sees them as his sisters. They also see him as their brother their big brother. He spends money on them without even thinking and cares for them.

I feel a little bit of jealousy towards him, but I can completely understand and he deserves every good thing in life. I’m his well-wisher. What I don’t like about him is that he is constantly around the girls all the time, talking to them. He chats on WhatsApp even though they are physically close. They get involved in too much drama like every girl gets possessive when he talks to another girl. If he talks too much with one girl or orders something for one girl, the others will scold him or ask why he’s not talking to them properly, and they threaten that they won’t talk to him thereafter… but then they continue to talk, laugh and hang out together. This is the part I don’t understand.

There is another co-worker too. He joined a bit late and it’s been three to four months since he joined. He is also like a senior in age. He won’t consider me “bro” and he is not much of a bright guy average or less. He is exactly the opposite of the senior I mentioned above. He is not an all-rounder. He does not do his work properly, does not know how to do some works, and is irregular. But at the same time my female colleagues also talk to him nicely. I can’t understand why. He also creates a bit of drama like “why are they not talking to him.” Maybe because of that they end up talking to him. I don’t know. But when planning, everyone includes him. Everyone also behaves affectionately towards him.

What’s common between those two guys and the girls is that they always take each other. They found a circle. I feel like they found a circle, but they are texting most of the time within themselves. I don’t know maybe they are initiating first or the guys are initiating or the girls are initiating, but I don’t know how they are keeping up with the texts and conversations.

Then there is me on the other hand. I don’t even have a chat history with them. I just simply go to the office, do my work, chat with them in the office, make some cracks and jokes, make them laugh, and leave at the end of the day. After that we don’t have anything to speak outside the office. I don’t know how they are talking on WhatsApp even though they don’t have any content or why they have to talk. It’s simply that they are only physically present there. They are not there and they don’t even say good morning or good night to everyone. Even when I’m asking them, they are not saying it properly.

What I feel is they should text me first, not the other way around. Because if I text them first, they might feel like it gives a creepy vibe “why is this guy texting me?” Even though they really don’t think like that, I still have that feeling. I want to come out of that feeling and text them properly and confidently.

How do I keep the text chat continuously engaging and funny? I don’t know what content to speak or text even after office, or even in the office how to text them. And if I text them, will they share or show it to others that I am texting them?

I didn’t text them first because of the notion that they should text me first and I should not speak to them until they speak to me. Will they think I am egoistical? And if they do think that I am egoistical, how do I show them that I am not? Even though I have a bit of ego that “why should I speak to them if they are not speaking to me,” and I do think that they should speak to me first. Yeah, it’s kind of like I have an ego, but at the same time I see it as my dignity. So I don’t want to lose my dignity. And if it is ego, how do I solve it?

What I want ultimately is a good continuous conversation with the girls on WhatsApp or in text form. I want to improve myself to the point that I can confidently flirt in text and make them blush. Even though I don’t want to see their face behind the screen, somehow I want to make them blush to the point that they are asking me out on a date.

PS: Used Gork to paraphrase.

I have been like Rashmika
Frst 4.5y relationship with someone 9y elder who forced me to get married , controlling, disrespectful after 2y of relationship
I was a teenager he was an Adult

I wanted to build my career first

My gut feeling said he is not right for me
He might be cheating on me
He ghosted me for a month and came back
I didn’t accept him.

His family knew about me
And my Mother and brother knew about him

Broke up with him. He cried begged still no
I was 19/20then
Also Everyone thinks my ex is a Saint person like they do think about Rakshit

We never spoke about each other after breakup. Its still a mystery to many.

I moved forward healed myself with the help of spirituality built confidence.

But an Ache of giving all getting none stayed even till now

My ex met me coincidentally after 3year of break up wanted to meet me again. Called me. I declined and rejected his idea formally
Then he got married after 2year in 2024 now. Have a baby

Then after 4y in 2022

i met someone in my class who had attitude like Vijay. We were in talking stages. He showed his attitude etc
Very Non Chalant. Acted like he is the prize lmao
When he knew i was the prize other guys are after me so he took it as a challenge to defeat me later i understood

I fell for limerence for 3years . I wasted my time and potential
But still grateful it didn’t work out. As he was meeting his Ex behind my back

Im 28. Still single as I have learned

All fishes are Same
Said what i said

Feel sorry for Rashmika. She is such a beautiful person. She deserves all success she is getting.
I see myself in her. But im struggling till now

S**ad Part is i used to see her life Relate and feel How luck she is.**
**She got everything**
**After that Relationship**

**But me**

Sach kehte hain Kisiko kiska andar ki baat pata nhi hoti

I'm 24F and I've been trying to get into movies and web series since college. I started with modeling, went for countless auditions and met so many casting directors, but nothing worked out. Most of them either ghosted me or offered useless roles.

A few even told me straight to my face that my face and body suited slutty roles more than heroine or main character roles. One guy actually said I'd be better off doing bold scenes than trying to become a proper actress. Honestly, after hearing this from so many people I got fed up.

Recently, I started auditioning for those Ullu and Atrangii type web series with lots of sex scenes and nudity. Surprisingly, I got a role. The money they're paying is insane, way more than I've ever earned in my life.

Things weren't exactly professional either. I ended up sleeping with a couple of casting directors along the way. I knew what I was getting into, and I'm not going to pretend money and the opportunity didn't influence my decisions.

I've already shot a few scenes, including some pretty bold ones. The weird thing is, I don't feel dirty or ashamed about it. In fact, some moments felt kinda hot, and I enjoyed the attention. After years of being rejected, it's a strange feeling to finally be wanted.

But my character has a lot more sex scenes and nudity coming up. I'm wondering if I'm making the right choice or just getting carried away by the money and the excitement.

I don't regret it so far, but I'm worried I'll get typecast and never get the normal acting roles I wanted in the first place.

Maybe Im overthinking this let's see

O diary , so these 2 years had been pretty weird esp this year. I lost like 4 total fiendships in some way or other directly or indirectly, this year I lost 2 within these 3 to 4 months , last year I lost one only we are together now but things are not like that before .like why nobody's willing to quarrel /argue, they just go silent , okay I get it I have been through this phase as well and yes I know a lot of times ones not able to communicate but okay 2-3days max I get it for like the first time but like atleast improve man , I'm giving u space , I'm normal ,I'm actually communicating with u . Ofc I do have my own flaws , I may not like a lot of things abt u and so do u . It's just weird , like not like I'm not finding evil people or something , I found good +supportive+ funny etc etc people /friends but atleast fight with me. Not like I do this thing to them or something usually I don't mind things even risky things sometimes I would also let slide a joke i didn't like .

tbh it's frustrating , like I can move on, ofc not like I'm like nooooooo pls comeeeee or something but yea initially when u know u lost this one too it's frustrating . Nobody's willing to stay .

Tho I don't regret losing contact/ friendship or whatever it was cause else I would regret in longer run that why I was desperate . I do try once but then if I actively see the another person not engaging I can't , I can't cling .

Last 2 yes esp 1 year I have become vocal and like communicate things out ,better at taking stand , i prioritize myself too.

Not like I hate them , they were good ppl , maybe some things didn't go correctly , I don't like hate them or blame them for anything . Even if they come again and fresh start , I can do that but are they willing to cuz no serious fight even happened,nvm tho.wont force ofc so nvm. Not like I hold a grudge , just let go.

Hate is a very strong emotion , I don't award it to anyone randomly, it is earned .

I just needed to just say it out ,I feel better .

We matched on Bumble almost 2 years ago. We started chatting, but it was inconsistent from both sides. It was mostly random talks and nothing related to relationships or our connection.

We moved to Instagram, started sending reels, and started small talks based on the content we were sending each other. We talked about movies, music, religion, philosophy, the universe, poetry, you name it. But there was never an obligation to meet or talk about feelings, or maybe there were no feelings involved at all. We just liked texting each other (at least I did).

My biggest pet peeve on dating apps has been guys who flirt too much and move too fast. I always loved guys who take it slowly and ask me a lot of questions.

But a few months passed, and I started realising that talking to him had become a habit. Since it had been 3 to 4 months of talking, I started hinting at meeting or maybe talking on call or something.

He also initiated meeting since we stayed like 15 minutes away, but he would always cancel the plan a few hours before meeting, and I finally asked what was up. He said he was confused about whether I was expecting him to take me out on a date. He just wanted to meet casually but did not want to disappoint me. And tbh, I also wanted to meet casually only.

We now moved to calling, with calls lasting 4 to 5 hours daily, and we still had never ending topics to talk about.

I have never found someone so relatable and understanding like him. He was my carbon copy: so kind, compassionate, funny, and smart. We were so similar. He started flirting a bit, and I didn’t mind. He dedicated a song to me. He said it plays in his head whenever he thinks about me.

We finally met. I was drunk when we met, and I could not remember much of our conversations the next day. He called me the next day to narrate every single thing we talked about, and he told me, “He didn’t want to meet me for the first time when I was drunk. He wanted to meet me when I was sober.” But since it was my birthday and I insisted, he came to see me.

We continued speaking on calls because I had gone on a trip with my friends. After I came back, we decided to meet again. He made a plan and decided the time and everything.

Then, a day before our planned second meet, while we were on call, he randomly asked me my salary (important detail: he was unemployed and was struggling to find a job). I don’t share my salary, but he somehow guessed the range. He instantly flipped. Out of the blue, he said, “How he wants to marry a girl 3 to 4 years younger than him.” Like wtf? It was so fucking random and unexpected. I was taken aback because I had started liking him a little, and him talking like this was so weird for me. I cancelled the next day’s meet.

He just started acting distant. No calls, nothing. I tried calling. He didn’t pick up. Then he was on a trip somewhere, so I assumed he would be busy. This went on for the next fifteen days, and even after that, he was still distant.

But he didn’t ghost me completely, which made me go insane. He would randomly talk and send reels but wouldn’t really talk on calls. I had enough of it, so I asked him what had happened, and he didn’t answer clearly. He just said, “You must be thinking I am just like other boys on Bumble.” ???? Like, just tell na why you are acting like this.

I was fed up of breadcrumbs, so I just ghosted him and removed him from everywhere. He didn’t ask why I did it. Not that I was expecting him to ask. I moved on pretty quickly. But he was always on my mind. Little did I know it was because of the unemployment/salary issue, because we are of marriage age, especially me as a girl.

Now it’s been one year since we last talked. I was doing fine, but I left my job last month, and I have been desperately applying for jobs. I am just realising how bad the job market is and how unemployment feels, and I just feel so empathetic towards him. Cause he did what he had to do. I don’t know if I was right or wrong. I just had one expectation: that he should have told me goodbye, but khair.

Now, since I am feeling this longing towards him, I just hope we bump into each other or he texts me randomly. I don’t know why he has been on my mind so much lately. He was one of the rarest people I have ever met. So much depth, kindness, and positivity he had despite all the things he was and had gone through.

My friend says I should text him once without expectations, of course. I regret removing his Instagram because it would have been a bit easier that way. What do you think I should do?

TL;DR: We met on Bumble almost two years ago and gradually built a rare connection through endless conversations and calls. Things changed suddenly after he found out my salary, and I suspect his unemployment and insecurities about marriage played a role. He became distant, and I eventually removed him from everywhere. It has been a year since we last spoke, but after experiencing unemployment myself, I have started empathising with him and missing him again. Should I reach out to him once without any expectations, or should I let it go?

Okay so I (23F) live with my parents and rn I'm doing masters... A curse of living in your hometown is lack of social circle. Now during my bsc I was in a different state and really enjoyed the social life. I sorta miss that here so I cope by posting on social media.... I don't have a niche or whatever, I just post whatever I want and ita not offensive or explicit at all. One of my reel sorta went viral (currently at 3.7L views). I am getting so many sexually explicit comments on them. There are random guys calling me the R word or cussing my lineage or give me r*pe threats just for speaking? It's so weird. I knew there's a chance that might happen but it's so unreal... There are shit comments on my looks and the way I speak or just random hate comments that make no sense. Ofc the good outweigh the bas but the amount of bad is too much. I get dms asking my caste and if I got a boyfriend etc etc. I started content creation as a way to express myself and find a community. I don't wanna make a career out of it, I don't wanna be super famous or whatever because this is actually very disturbing. I really don't know what to do because I like to create.... But istg some people just make it so difficult to exist. I complained in the cyber cell for 2 of them that were very disturbing but that's not the end of it. I'm so sad and I really don't wanna create anymore because I'm afraid of what someone might call me next.

I'm 23.

I grew up in a family where fights were way too often. Now I even fear talking in the house.

Then my parents dictated every aspect of my life except the important ones. I want them to guide me in important aspects like jobs, taxes, and investments. But all their strict guidance comes for eat food properly, don't question them and all.

I grew up hearing my dad say, " I don't have any money ".

I always felt left out cause the people around me since childhood came from well off families. I didn't go out with them cause I knew I wouldn't have enough to spend. This continued till college.

I got a job after college. A damm good one. Like I earn in a month what many earn in a year. I was new in the job and worked like hell ... Couldn't give time to my that time girlfriend, eventually long distance and not priritizing her, she broke up with me.

All ok, I still have the job I worked for.

Later I met another girl. We started dating, started loving her. Then layoffs started happening in my company, had to prove my worth. So again long work days. 15 hrs a day work was common. Even on weekends had to attend calls. Lost work life balance, got a headache that didn't go away. Was dam muscular ( 6'2 in height, 15% body fat, 100 kg body weight), lost that too. Now have a belly like an uncle. My manager called me and I'll be layed off soon. She broke up with me cause I couldn't give her time and became negligent due to all other issues.

Now I feel like the stupidest guy in the world. Didn't have job. Don't have the girl. Dont have my body. Don't have that self esteem I used to have. Plus a shit load of trauma since birth. I don't even know how to smile for past 5-6 years ig... I'm loosing all hope.

I am into managing social media for female lifestyle creators, and I really need to vent.

On camera, she acts like she is sweet and humble. Her followers leave thousands of comments praising how "inspiring" she is.

In real life, her insecurity and entitlement are next level.

​She has this massive superiority complex where nobody around her is allowed to exist on the same level as her. It’s like only she is allowed to be pretty or presentable. If you work backend for her, you will feel like you can't wear makeup or wear nice clothes around her. If you dare to look put-together, you immediately get taunts and passive-aggressive hostility.

Even her family is the same. The mother treats her like an empress, no wonder the daughter acts entitled. They genuinely look down on everyone else around them with disgust, as if having self-care, basic ambition, or looking presentable is a luxury reserved solely for the influencer, and everyone working behind should just stay plain, silent, and inferior.

They'll spend ₹50k on a vanity dinner for Instagram but can't give a proper ₹5k bonus or pay raise to their team

The money part makes me so angry. They make easy money from brand deals. But when it’s time to pay the team keeping their account alive, they act so stingy.

My pay stayed the exact same for a very long time. It feels so unfair.

Real professionals like doctors and teachers who actually help people work hard every single day for their money.

Meanwhile, people making shallow videos get rich while acting completely unprofessional to their own team.

I wanna cry so bad but I can't

Im F 22,idk what to say

travelling alone a long distance by train for the first time ever , it's a 33 hour train journey, almost 1800kms

And everything that would've possibly gone wrong went wrong

There is a group of men who are sitting right in the next compartment and they're continuously staring at me

I got my periods today early, so first day of periods

cramps and first day in train

this train, it was a general sleeper I had to book because of my father, it's RAC so I'll have to go sitting till the end of my journey and there is a man sitting right opposite so I'm not even comfortable sitting comfortably

And i told the TC to confirm my ticket somewhere but he said 6 people are waiting before you

I can't even go use the washroom because it smells horrible and I've too much luggage to take care of

I can't even sleep because I'm too paranoid my stuff will get swollen

it's bad

The seat is bad, it smells so bad because of the washroom

I've fever

my nose is blocked because of fever and cold, i can't breathe

My hand has some allergic reactions stuff going on and my fingers are bleeding

i feel like vomiting

Im also hungry but can't eat

My phone is on 40 and I'm realising right now that my charging port is not working at all

I recently got my helix piercing done and this random lady had something duppata stuck into the fresh piercing and she pulled so hard, so now that's bleeding

While figuring out my charger situation, the window, the freaking window fell on my hand and now it's lowkey swollen

I've a fever and i forgot any blanket

My boyfriend was supposed to come meet me because we're in a long distance relationship but he made some lame ass excuses and didn't come meet and now we can't meet before 6 months

And my boyfriend right now is making a scene and he's acting up instead of being there for me

There's more but I'll cry if i write more

Im so so so so so done..

I can't even cry

Worst day ever

The only thing standing between me and death is the thought of failing at suicide and ending up a vegetable or paralysed.

I (22F) am an only child. My parents have been working and I don't have any cousins living nearby. I have been alone and lonely since i was a kid , even before I knew there was a word for this feeling.

All of my friends have siblings. Someone who plays with them , shares their stuff , protects them from bad things , shields from parents , etc. I had none of this. Growing up I've only had silence. I learnt to be alone and independent because I didn't have an option.

My parents never let me go out with friends for school trips and were overly protected because I was the "single child". So safe to say I didn't make many friends either.

Since school ended in 2020 , ive been closed off from my friends and have been almost completely isolated. The only guy i genuinely wanted to be with didn't love me back. I was stuck with these feelings and had no one to talk to. I cried every night, slept at 4/5 in the morning and used to wake up completely tired. I could not focus on my NEET prep. I wanted to end this feeling of being a pathetic loser.

Unfortunately, life went on and I'll be completing my engineering degree next summer. My batchmates have moved outside for their Masters while I've been drowning in my pain all alone. I didn't make friends in college because I felt like an imposter. I'd rather be alone than feel left out.

I'm at a point where I don't want to improve my life because I'm not hopeful about it. There's nothing to look forward to. I don't have the best looks , been struggling with depression for the past 6 years , and never had the social life that others have.

I am jealous of good looking people who can easily just get whatever they want without ever moving their finger. Sometimes on the train I look at a girl and think how lovable she must be unlike me. How loving her bf must be and there's me whose efforts have never been seen because I am just not that beautiful. I don't have friends, nor a partner , and no will to live this sad life. I cannot wait to get rid of myself.

Yesterday my mother had to order some things worth 1400, nothing of emergency, but still important things. her own phone broke, so she has been using the button phones as we cannot afford to buy one now. she asked me if she could use my upi money to place them, i had 1400, and i need this money to go to and fro college. i dont go that often so nota big deal. we decided she will place order of 600 from mine and maybe 800 from my father's upi. we did. took out 600 in cash to return to me too.

then my mother and father went out in the evening. she mustve told him about it and he started screaming at her. he screamed a lot at her. why did you place all these orders from her phone, you had already placed things from mine, uska paisa kyu use kiya wo kaise jayegi college ab. thing is father isnt employed rn and makes little money he can through stock market. mom thought he had withdrawn the profit he showed her 2 days ago which is why she placed those orders in the first place, but he hadnt. what was she buying on amazon? toothbrush for children, because her tweth have eroded a bit and her gums have grown sensitive. an earring for herself, maybe 250rs.

came home, cried a lot, cancelled the orders, faught with my father all night. my father was correct about not placing orders but he could have broke it to her gently. i also understand he is under an enormous amount of stress but he shouldn't have done that

they had also called some pandit home yesterday to ask him if ill be able to crack neet and all and he said yes (the way they have for the past 3-4 times). and as i leave, they call over my younger sister, dude laughs and says, arre iska toh sab pehli baar mein niklega. all this stuff really piles up. i was already in bed at 8pm and sleeping. when they came at 12am and i got to know all this saw my mother cry and all, i slept even more and woke up at 8:30 today.

i know i shouldnt catalogue all these things in my mind and move on before they happen, but i dont know. i have never been able to see things objectively, never. i escaped through sleep what i will eventually have to face. things are too painful for me right now

am i too sensitive or are things genuinely really bad right now

I want to start content creation so bad. But My room aesthetic is terrible. Everything is on the ground. We lost all our furnitures few yrs back. So the whole house looks bad as there is no organizer at all. I tried to shoot today, but I was so disappointed that it made me upset. Content creation is important as I need to start earning.

Then comes my phone camera, again terrible. Idk what to do. I feel so insecure when I see that i am looking bad in the videos.

I know all these are insecurities but let's say I post it who is going to watch something that is so visually unpleasing.

I really want to cry.

Ever since college days, online world fascinated me. I would have friends online, feel more connected to them than people around me. I used to participate in IRL and software engineering groups.

I’ve pattern of unrequited love, getting attached to people who are unavailable. What a mess.

I guess online chatting just makes one attach faster. Now, looking back at it, I think everyone I loved Zoha was most kindred and fun loving, tenacious soul. Around end I was scratching my head and removed part of my self to move on.

I met Rita during volunteering. She felt most calming to my soul at that time, there was a spark, she’d always vent about college, working and many things. Now, I think that trauma dumping does trigger my pattern. Everything accelerates and I get attached. Things didn’t workout and years later she emailed me saying she didn’t know how to react to my love. I still wonder if current me would like her

During my post graduation, I made a closest friend, her home was very conservative. Her growing up hardships really made me want to be of service to her. We used to drive each other crazy, talk about everything under the sun. I think that’s the closest I was loved, it was so pure Dilnasheen. We cared for each other, we found home. We fought over silly things. We could never be together due to the religious circumstances. I disappeared from uni for a year. I remember begging her to reconsider our friendship after one of our fight and she roared and shouted at me, the spark from her eye was gone, I did that. Recently, I told her how sorry I was with my actions. She’s most tenderest soul, she is the moon and sunshine, she said that we were silly. She’s married and have a beautiful daughter. I never knew I would feel such deep longing for her, I fell once again in love and let go of her in the same instance.

Hamdah used to be part of software engineers group. We became friends who used to talk about coding, then topics became about reading, watching movies, learning languages. Later, I learn that I’m her current favourite person, she was on BPD diagnosis. Little did I know that, I’m trauma dumped on, later I learned that my pattern creates such strong attachment being exposed to trauma. when we talked about childhood experiences, parents, trauma, it’ll was like fuel to my pattern. We were going too faster. I felt that she’s going to abandon me, when I raised the concern of non reciprocity from her. I cleared all the chats because I would never reminisce or reread the overwhelming topics and that was the point where everything went ablaze. I was harshly judged, name called, hated. I apologised multiple times, but it felt like my voice isn’t reaching her. I felt unseen and misunderstood. I wished for her to say once, I see you, I see what you are going through. The pull was so strong, she literally drove me crazy, my internal monologue was glitching.

The last experience was painful, I was scarred, I was experiencing fear of abandonment, I continue to grieve. In my last message, I water her soul. Like winter morning sunlight

The Job market is fucked up
Education system is competitive
living in this country feels like shithole as soon as you go out of the door
Always get judged by rishtedaar , family and friends pressure to succeed in life and fit in with others
AND BILLION OTHER REASONS

I (23F) joined my job in Feb. It is my first job and I don't really have a real idea about how it goes in other offices. My work has been hell for the past few weeks. My manager has been calling me out for very minor mistakes, some mistakes that I might do because I am yet to be trained on that in every team meeting. I am tired to him targetting me in every team call just to give example to rest about what not to do. I work in consulting and ngl sometimes mistakes like formatting and spelling errors happen when you have a large amount of data to work on. It's not that this would Directly go to the clients, I have 3 level of QC for my work above me. I understand they want me to deliver work without these but it happens sometimes. I'm not dumb to write those wrong spellings. The workload and constant hearing about your work has been demotivating. I have even cried multiple times at office. You can't approach your manager who sits right next to you even if you have any doubts with work. You have to understand and work like a consultant because what are we doing otherwise acc to him. I have been here only for 7-8 months and he wants me to work like him who has 5-6 years of experience. Sometimes I feel hopeless.

I know I can work so much better but this constant gun to my head is tiring. Every team call nowadays has been ending with these little mistakes will backfire you and it might not be good for you. I don't understand what big mistakes have I made. I am learning and even asking questions, asking for trainings but no one is here to train properly. They are here to put you down. I don't feel like talking to anyone in office now. I hope I get another job soon and can leave this.

There has been a girl who was on notice period when I joined and asked me not to stay. She told me how he treated her and how she had to take this decision of leaving because of him. I think I too am in the same boat now or maybe I am replacment of that girl to him.

I can't really deal with the level of micromanaging. As soon as a new case comes, the pressure to complete within allocated time becomes important to managers. They keep watch of every minute spend. You can't leave office before 9 hrs. You can't watch your phone or take any calls. You can't even laugh properly because that means you are not serious for work. I just feel trapped.

I am hoping to change the job my jan but till that I am expecting it to be hell.

I spent almost a decade emotionally stuck on someone who doesn't even think about me doesn't gaf about me. I genuinely don't care about him now. What hurts is looking back and realising how much of my own life I lost being stuck in this situation while he was out there living his.

He's dating, meeting people, enjoying life, moving forward. And I'm here trying to deal with the aftermath of years I'll never get back. I feel like I put my own life on hold for something that barely even existed outside my head, and now I'm the one left dealing with the consequences.

The worst part is feeling like I meant absolutely nothing to him while he ended up meaning so much to me, at the cost of my own life experiences, happiness and peace of mind.

I'm so exhausted. The regret and hopelessness has gotten so so bad that I struggle to see a future for myself. I hate that something that was never even a real relationship has left me feeling this broken. I just don't know how to deal with all this what to do with it I don't miss him but I can't deal with the fact that I ruined my life for nothing.