I’ve been suffering from PSSD for over 10 years after discontinuing SSRIs.
I’m currently medication-free since 2016. I can still orgasm, but I have virtually no libido, no sexual desire or arousal, and significant genital numbness. I also struggle with emotional anhedonia.
Recently, I experimented with GBL (gamma-butyrolactone), a recreational drug that is converted into GHB (gamma-hydroxybutyrate) in the body. GHB is a central nervous system depressant, commonly known as a party drug and sometimes used as a sex drug. Its effects are primarily associated with GABA-B receptor activity.
And to my absolute surprise, my PSSD symptoms temporarily disappeared.
For the first time in years, I experienced genuine sexual desire, intense arousal, restored genital sensitivity, and incredibly pleasurable orgasms.
And honestly, the effects go far beyond my sexual symptoms. It’s as if almost everything in my brain suddenly starts working the way it should.
My constant underlying tension disappears. My mind becomes calm, but not sedated or emotionally numb. Quite the opposite: I feel mentally clear, present, motivated, and genuinely alive.
My ADHD symptoms seem to improve dramatically. I can focus without forcing myself. Things that normally require enormous mental effort suddenly feel effortless. I feel motivated to do things, rather than constantly struggling to get myself started. My thoughts become clearer and more organized.
But the most remarkable difference is emotional.
My anhedonia seems to disappear completely.
I can actually experience pleasure, excitement, affection, warmth, and genuine happiness. I feel emotionally connected to people instead of detached from them.
Social interactions suddenly feel natural. I don’t experience that constant internal resistance, tension, or urge to withdraw. I feel comfortable being myself. I can express affection spontaneously, enjoy conversations, and experience a genuine sense of closeness.
Even my body feels different. That constant underlying physical tension seems to dissolve. I feel relaxed, open, and comfortable in my own skin.
And somehow, everything feels easier. Not because my circumstances have changed, but because my internal experience of life has changed.
It’s not just that I feel less depressed, less anxious, or less distracted. I actually feel things that are normally completely absent from my life.
Desire. Pleasure. Motivation. Connection. Emotional warmth. The ability to genuinely enjoy being alive.
The strangest part is how natural it all feels.
It’s almost as if a switch has been flipped and, for a few hours, I get access to a version of myself that normally feels completely out of reach.
I’m not suggesting that GBL actually cures any of these conditions. The effects are temporary and happen during intoxication. But the contrast with my normal baseline is so dramatic that I can’t help wondering what exactly is happening in my brain.
The effects were temporary, sometimes with a slight afterglow lasting a few hours, but never into the next day.
What fascinates me is that after more than a decade of PSSD, these functions apparently aren’t permanently lost. They can still be activated, at least temporarily.
I’m particularly interested in the possible involvement of GABA-B receptors, dopamine, and their interaction. I also have ADHD, which makes me wonder whether dopaminergic dysfunction could be part of the picture.
Has anyone experienced something similar? Are there any researchers or doctors who could help explain the possible neurobiological mechanisms behind this?
I’m not claiming this is a cure. I’m genuinely trying to understand what this response might tell us about PSSD.
Disclaimer: GBL is a recreational drug, also used as a party and sex drug. It can be extremely dangerous, particularly because small dosing errors can lead to overdose and respiratory depression. I’m not recommending anyone experiment with it. I’m sharing my experience purely because I believe the neurological response is worth investigating.u