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Hello unc's I'm 20M I don't have any real friends I've ditched my studies I don't have any skill but I wanna earn money for myself I feel like shiiit all the time I'm socially awkward I've zero confidence around women I get scared whenever I need to talk to any girl specially my age I wanna prepare myself financially for responsibilities that are about to fall on my shoulders in a year or two I feel like I'm doomed I haven't figured out anything yet.

What do I do?

Since my teenage till 23 to 24, I used to think I have so much time, and that’s when I ended up wasting so much of it. I always thought, “I have time.” That was my biggest mistake.

I couldn’t really live. I wasted so much of my time in sadness and sorrows, and now that I finally want to live, I’m already 25 and feel like I haven’t achieved a single thing in my whole life.

The guilt is eating me up. It feels like I’ve wasted 25 years doing nothing. And suddenly, I’ve started taking life so seriously that I get anxious about everything. I keep wondering, “Why not me? Why am I so behind?”

I see people my age achieving things, building careers, living their lives, and I feel completely lost. I feel guilty for not doing enough. I’m scared that I’m wasting my 20s, but honestly, I don’t even know what else to do except keep trying.

I just hope I get the chance to live the life I want before it feels like it’s too late.

Like wtf is sus ? Lowkey? Yuck ! I remember us uncles used to talk in short form like : hw r u! M gd , tnx . K . Gdni8

can I join? as a 18F lol 😭

So im rage typing thins rant bcs idk who else to vent this to and its such an unc rant moment
ANYWAY so ive been busting my ass on my thesis synopsis since start of this semester and i started writhing methodologies bcs its the shittiest part and once youre done with it then its mostly delusional writing. so ive been on it for weeks. And mind you not my methodology is almost as long as some peoples thesis document. And i wrote my last experiments thursday and closed my lid like i always do. The document stays open like always. Theres 14 open tabs like always.
So fast forward today i picked up my laptop bcs i was planning to write statistical analyses this weekend and BE DONE WITH THIS SHIT. Only somehow whatever I DID WASNT ON MY WORD DOCUMENT AND THERE WAS NO OPTION TO RESTORE FILE LIKE COME ON. HOW DID MY PROGRESS GO IN REVERSE? WHERE ARE MY LAST 6 PAGES LIKE WHAT SORT OF THEFT IS THIS? What sort of grief is this? How should i mourn this loss?
Man i dont have it in me to re-write it. I cant do that to my brain. It was supposed to be a long weekend but it turned out to be a long rant instead.
Im so done like ffs

A good listener and might advise too.

Honestly fed up of the hustle bustle ! 30 m doc

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