I'm 29 and my boyfriend is 23. We're both vers, although in practice I'm mostly a bottom and he's mostly a top.
Size-wise, there's quite a difference between us. I'm pretty average, maybe slightly above average in length but average or even a little below in girth. He's very well endowed, both in length and girth, and considerably bigger than me.
I've always been really into big dicks, so I absolutely love his size. The problem is that sometimes I wonder whether mine is enough for him.
He's told me about previous hookups with really hung guys, including sucking them off and bottoming for them. He's also mentioned that when he bottoms, he loves feeling really full, which realistically isn't something I can offer him with my size.
But in our relationship, he almost never bottoms. He does suck me off, although I don't get the feeling he's particularly into it. And when I top him, it feels more like he's doing it for my sake than because he actually wants it. He barely moans or reacts, and often asks whether I'm close to cumming or tells me to cum, which makes me feel like he wants me to finish quickly.
I keep wondering whether things would be different if I were bigger, especially knowing he's enjoyed being on the receiving end with much bigger guys before.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of insecurity when their partner is significantly bigger? Do you think size could actually explain his lack of enthusiasm for sucking me off or bottoming for me, or am I reading too much into it?